Two week later.

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 My eyes scanned the school premises as the feeling of fulfillment washed all over me.

The thought that I was in my dream  school gave me so much joy than I could even imagine.

 My mom seems so proud of  me and my step dad can't stop going around telling people how proud  he was.

 Aren't you taking the next class?Someone asked behind me and when I turned I saw Isabel, the same girl  that lives  just opposite my doom room.

The braids she wore fitted  her as she looked at me and smiled.

I smiled back at her as I followed her into the classroom as we sat beside each other.

As we sat there I couldn't help but bring out my phone and glance through it if I would see any text from Nicolas.

After that night Nicolas had become distant from me, I didn't know if he read my emotions.

He only sent me a few text asking me how I was blending in with the school premises.

Somehow I didn't find the courage  to send him the text that I wanted and I had left his messages on read and nic  didn't bother texting back.

My mother told me he  returned the next day after I  left to school.

 Nicolas had a perfect job running my step fathers company and also most of his business but  amongst  that  he also had a few companies under his name and was doing so good for himself.

My mind raced back  to Killian and even the thought  of him alone made me scared.

The  displeased look on his face when he looked at me, the short birthday wishes and sudden disappearance scared me to death.

Something about him   sent chills down my spine, was it the fact he is  an ex soldier?  why he  is  an Ex soldier or  the fact that  he was seven years older than me.

When I heard the class suddenly began to settle my eyes scanned over to the man who had just walked in as our new professor. 

 "Good morning,I would be your professor for  this class" I heard someone say.

My eyes instantly moved  to the front of the classroom and when I saw the man standing there, my heart  stopped.

It was killian, my step brother he is my new professor.

I looked over  to the side and I saw most of my coursemates whispered  something amongst  themselves as most of the girls giggled.

My eyes returned to the podium and when I did  our eyes ran into  the other.

Killian wore a dark pants and a lilac top, the shirt  covered the tatoos but from the way he was built and his look he was the perfect definition of  an hot professor.

My own step brother is the professor of  the one class that I needed more than anything, how could this even be.

Class ended with Killian paying little or no attention to me and right now I was standing just beside my hall  as I rang my mom's phone for  the fifth  time.

"Tessa I'm sorry I know you must have found out about it now" my mother  whispers from the other end of the phone the moment she picks up 

I slowly slid my hands into the pants I wore as I moved away from the car pacing  around.

"Mom, you know Killian is my  professor and you didn't think of letting me know, is that what we are doing now" 

My mother signed, I could tell  the frustration  in her voice.

Tessa, your stepdad and I only found out about it about a week ago when he told us he got a job in one of the universities and turned out to be yours.

That was the reason he came home for your birthday so he could meet you and somehow  I think it's a better choice,being  in the same school would make us feel safe knowing you're alright.

"Wtf mom,I'm not a fucking baby,I'm 21  and I can take good care of myself  stop seeing me as a fucking child" 

Before my mother could even say another word, I ended the call as I held my head in frustration as the anger washed over me.

Why do my mother think she has to do this every  time.

In her defense,I'm still her baby.

 After venting out my frustration to no one in particular, I walked back to my dormitory alongside Isabel as she told me about her first night in the dorm.

I only nodded my head to her words, but my mind was stuck on one thing. Somehow  I felt betrayed by my mom.

She cliams to be my fucking best friend but  yet she could keep such a crucial information from me.

 As we got closer to my dorm I couldn't help but notice  the student  crowd outside the building of my dorm.

 Isabella threw me a glance as she rushed over to one of the girl standing outside.

I could feel the sudden fear on my chest as I through  of what might have happened but when I moved closer, I noticed the smoke coming out from the buildings.

Tessa, I heard someone scream my name behind me and when It  turned out to be my dorm mate the girl that  hasn't spoken to me since our first night being in the same room.

I have been looking all over for you.

Me, what's going on? 

We have been given an urgent evacuation. There was  a fire outbreak in the dorm. Someone started a fire by mistake and now we are being evacuated with the fire  fighters on their way.

I grabbed  a few of your things when it got to our room.

Just as she finished talking, I  heard the siren blasting from behind us as  the firefighters approached.

As I looked over to the burning building, I could suddenly feel my  eyes twitch as I held the tears that were threatening to come out as that feeling of helplessness washed all over me.

Why was everything  going wrong in my life?

~~~~~~Tessa~~~~~

"No way mom, no fucking way. I'm not  living with killlian" I yelled over to her on the phone.

Tessa, It's just for  a semester  until we  are  able to secure a good apartment for you but right now you have to bear with us.

Mom, I can't do this, I don't want  to.

My mother lets out a sigh, "Killian would come pick you up" she says and ends the call.

I stared at the phone for a while as I held myself from exploding from all the emotions I'm feeling right now.

My hands moves  to the  caller  bar as I tried to tap Nicolas number but on a second thought I stopped.

Nick lived miles away from my school and I know he wouldn't mind if I ask him to but why do I have to worry him about my problems.

I watched as  each student grabbed their things and walked out, some  leaving with  their parents and others leaving with their friends.

Isabell had texted telling me that she was going to live with a friend who stays off campus.

The bag with me was the only thing that didn't get consumed by fire  and even as I sat there watching everyone leave, I couldn't help but feel the fear building up inside of me as I thought about the things that could go wrong.

The thought of living with Killian felt like torture itself.

This was the same person that never acknowledged my presence and  the only thing he had ever said  to me was happy birthday Tessa.

As the day grew darker  I watched every car  arrive and leave while I stayed behind.

Why wasn't he here yet?

 My eyes scanned the environment  and I wondered what was taking him  that long to arrive.

My back arched from sitting in that position for  a long time but just as I was about to  stand up  my phone vibrated from my pockets and I saw that I  had just received a text from an unknown number.

"Come out"the message read.

My heart instantly starts racing on its own as I tried to calm myself down from exploding from fear.

As I looked across  to my right, I couldn't help but notice the black car that was parked  there and when I looked over, I noticed the dark strands of hair from the side view.

The person sitting at the front sit didn't turn to me but I didn't need anyone to tell me that was him.

For a moment I froze, terror, fear and pain hitting me  but I knew I had no choice, Killian was my best option.

 With each step I took towards the car I couldn't help the fear that built up in me.

He didn't even bother to look at me but the moment I got closer he slowly winds  down the glass and  threw a glance at me.

 Ignoring his hot stare, I opened the door   and stepped into the backseat.

The moment I got in, I heard Killian say something under his  breath as he moved on his chair uncomfortably.

The ride to his house was even  worse than I expected, from where I sat at the back seat of his car I couldn't help  but stare at him from his rare view mirror.

Killian caught me a few times but instead he looked away totally ignoring my presence.

After an hour-long drive we arrived at his house and the view in front of me was even better than anything I had ever imagined in my head.

The security opened  the gate as  he drove in.

The moment the car stops, I stepped out. The hard breeze hit my skin as I fresh smell of strawberries hit me.

The mansion looked magnificent even better than  that of my step dad, there was a waterfall in the middle of building and I couldn't help but notice the swimming pool at the far end of the house that had somewhere that looked like a beach.

The lights did absolute justice to the building  as I  marveled  at the beauty of this beautiful crafted house  in front of me.

Tessa, I heard my name  as I turned over I noticed Killian standing by the car as he stared  at me.

His face looks cold and unreadable.

Sorry, I whispered under my breath as Killian walked off while I trailed  behind him.

The inside interior of the house was even better than I had imagined to be and now I couldn't help but wonder why  he took the job as a professor.

 As Killian walked ahead of me I forced myself from  saying another word to him.

Killian and I took the stairs and he stopped.

He  pushed the door open and turned to face me.

This was the first time I would see him this close.

"You will stay here" he says as  I turn to look at him.

I tried to say something but instead the words  got  caught up  in my throat.

 Thank you, I whispered as I moved closer to  enter the room but as I walked by our hands touched and in that instant I felt the spark that flew between us.

I turned as I looked at him.

Killian shot me a stare  and for the first time I saw his face loosened up for a moment.

"Relax,I don't bite" he says as he moves into the room and closes the door behind me.

My legs moved back  as my back touched the wall.

He steps closer to me just enough to close the space between us.I saw the way his eyes glimmered  when he saw  the fear in my eyes.

 My breath stops and I feel my blood run cold as I feel his breath even closer to me than ever.

My eyes instantly shut on his own as his  smell of strawberries  and cinnamon filled my nostrils as I thought of what  he plans to do with me.

Tessa,  I heard him call my name again and  I opened my eyes  only to see him staring at me. I saw the way his eyes flickered.

Killian had been looking at me the whole life and I closed my eyes.

I swallowed nothing  as the embarrassment washed all over me.

It was as if something was wrong with me. Why am I reacting this way to my step brother? 

He   drags the key from above my head as he drops it on the shelf on the table of my room.

"Goodnight sissy" he says the words curling out from his mouth like a taunt.

I stood still in that position unable to breath, he turned away as if nothing had happened but his smell still filled my nostrils.

Right now I hated myself for how I reacted.

What is wrong with me ?

A week passed since I started living with my  older step brother Killian.

Every day in this house felt like pure torture.After  the events that happened that night I made it a life long mission never to cross path with him again till the semester ended.

Mom had been checking up on me  but I haven't returned her text or any  of her messages because I still feel betrayed by the fact that she could keep something as crucial as that away from me.

I had classes with Killian just twice a week and even though I lived with him no one in school knew that  he was my stepbrother and that I lived with him in the same house.

Killian hasn't spoken to me since we started living together, my breakfast had been alone and  he had a driver take me to school each day.

His actions made it clear that he didn't want to be seen with me.

While I  didn't feel right about the way he treated me, I still couldn't agree  that him  acting that way made me feel more at ease in the house.

Within the week, I found myself getting curious about why he acts   so distant,  and cold. Somehow I wondered if it was the military that made him that way.

I found myself wanting to know why he left the military and took the job as a professor.

I found myself watching him all week.

I noticed he was always on  his phone, he had a small click of friends as I have only seen him with two other guys in the house.

Nicolas  had made it his life mission to text  me all day asking me how I was coping with his older  brother  and somehow I found myself not being broken by the fact that I was in love with him but instead filled with the mystery of Killian.

My stomach rumbled and I groaned as I reached for the bottle of soda that was just by my bed stand but as I picked it up, the bottle was empty.

My eyes scanned one to  my phone on the bed and it was already late and it was almost 12pm.

I had been so engrossed in my book that I didn't even bother  to have dinner.

 The last thing I wanted was to run into Killian again, I wanted to avoid him for as long as I could.

As I turned my stomach  rumbled  again, I stood up and walked out of the room slowly shutting my door so I didn't make any sound to wake him up.

Their were no noise of anything in the kitchen and once I got in, I walked  over as I tried to pick the next bottle  of Coca-Cola but as I grabbed it the bottle suddenly slipped from my hands.

Just as I was about to grab it from falling, the huge hands from behind grabbed the bottle.

I tried to move back a bit but when I did my body touched a warm wet but manly body.

My heart  starts beating against my chest as the air  tightens.

My legs froze in one place  but before I could move I felt  the strong  pair of arms slide from my waist turning me to face him and as  I met the  pair of blue eyes staring back at me.

Killian had just sweat pants and  a top, his wet  hair indicated that he just had a swim.

Kill...ian, I stammered  as I tried to move but instead he moved closer.

His eyes moved to the Coca-Cola in his other hands and I see the smirk suddenly appear on his face.

I bartered  my lashes as I looked down on my knees and pressed my fingers at  the uncomfortable position I had just found myself.

"Look at me" he commanded in  low but chilled voice that sent fear down my spine.

I raised my eyes to look at him but unlike the cold man  I knew,  I saw him   smile  but the smile disappeared from his face almost in an instant.

"You've been avoiding me" he says gently as he sends his hands to my hairs and curls his hands on it as he pressed even closer to me as his smell filled my nostrils.

Have I?

Killian nods  gently the kind of nod that send a direct messages.

My eyes goes over to the tatoos on his  slightly  parted chest.

 "I can't be in this position with you Killian, please let me go" I begged  the desperation and the fear laced on my voice.

I see a displeased look flash across his face in an instant and he drops the Coca-Cola on his other hands as he moved dangerously close.

My breath hitched again as I looked to the side as the tension suddenly builds up in me and the hotness took over.

Why did I suddenly feel so hot.

As I rested my back on the fridge his  hands slowly slid his hand to my face pulling me to face him with just one finger.

My eyes stared at him in that moment I knew that I saw something in his eyes, that kind of curious looks that flashed off in an instant.

As he pressed even closer  he  suddenly grabbed both my hands and raised it up far above my head as he trapped me with one hand.

He bent his head towards me and my eyes slammed shut in an instant as the thought  of  what he was about to do hit me.

As I thought  about it, I feel this fear building up inside of me questioning my  actions, what was I doing? 

After waiting for  the kiss for a short while, Killian lips never touched mine, I opened my eyes again and I met Killian eyes.

As I looked at him I could see the mockery and the hinted smile on his face laced with the  amusement.

My cheecks burned from embrassment as the though of what I had just done placed over and  over again in my head like a fucking movie.

I watched Killian take  some steps back as he grabbed the Coca-Cola he had dropped on the table.

Just as he was about to leave he turned to look at me. 

"And I thought you were madly  in love with Nicolas" he drags out the word and every last piece of  dignity I had left in me strips off as my chest feels at the impact of his words and the shame washed all over me.