3

Felix seemed satisfied with my answer. He leaned in to kiss me, but I dodged.

His face immediately darkened.

After a while, he reached out and pressed my head against his chest, gently sniffing my hair, then turned and went into the kitchen.

In no time, a delicate meal was placed on the table.

All dishes were spicy food I liked.

Before becoming my boyfriend, he had already made meals for me.

We sat silently at the table, and he kept putting food into my bowl.

“Jocelyn, eat more. You’re too thin,” Felix said.

His voice was still as gentle and pleasant as ever, and the corners of his mouth slightly curved upwards, indicating that he was in a good mood.

Apart from imprisoning me, he was really a very good lover.

The food in my bowl was almost overflowing, but he kept serving me.

He only scooped half a spoonful of soup for himself.

I just remembered that he couldn’t eat spicy food, not even a little bit.

He couldn’t eat any of these dishes.

He cooked for so long, just to see me eat.

At this moment, he was sitting across from me, with a faint smile on his face. He was so gentle.

Tears welled up in my eyes all of a sudden, and I couldn’t hold back.

He panicked immediately. He put down his chopsticks, and half squatted beside my feet, holding my hand, his eyes full of concern and distress.

“Jocelyn, what’s wrong? Are you feeling uncomfortable?”

I just shook my head, closed my eyes slightly, and didn’t want to look at him.

After Felix went to college, his father never gave him a penny.

He applied for a student loan for tuition fees, and his living expenses were earned from part-time jobs.

During the day when he had classes, he took the time to organize notes for me, and tutored in the evenings and weekends.

He spun like a top, sometimes even without time to eat.

He had a few doughnuts in his bag and ate them casually when he was hungry.

These were all gradually told to me by his roommate.

He had always lived a frugal life, but had never been stingy with me.

He always remembered the snacks I loved to eat and the coffee I loved to drink.

Now he was already a supervisor in the company, but he still remained the habits from many years ago.

I hated him so much, but when I see him eat, I couldn’t help but feel sad in my heart.

How did he get through his four years of college?

4

The meal was tasteless.

He sat me down on the sofa, turned on the TV for me, selected the variety show that I used to like the most, and then went into the kitchen.

Soon, the sound of gurgling water came from the kitchen.

I stared at the TV, my mind in a state of chaos.

After he finished cleaning the dishes, he came over and sat next to me, gently rubbing his face against my ear.

“Jocelyn, you smell good.”

His voice was a little hoarse, and the warm breath sprayed on my face, causing a slight tremor in my heart.

In an instant, I stood up in panic and jumped to the other side of the sofa.

His face instantly turned cold, with a layer of mist in his eyes.

“Jocelyn, are you so afraid of me?”

Half a month ago, if he asked me like this, I would definitely jokingly tell him, “I’m so scared. You’re so powerful, and how can I not be afraid of you?”

But at this moment, as I stared at his face, I didn’t know how to answer for a while.

My body couldn’t help but tremble again.

“Felix, give me back my phone. I want to go home.”

His face became even colder, and then he forcefully pulled me into his arms.

“Jocelyn, do you want to abandon me?”

I suddenly felt a wave of disgust in my heart and pushed him away.

“Felix, I’ve explained to you before. That guy is just my junior. I don’t even know his name.”

Earlier, a junior inexplicably confessed to me.

And Felix happened to see this scene.

Although I rejected the junior, Felix was still very angry.

Half a month ago, when I went to my roommate’s birthday party, that junior was there too.

He quietly stood behind me when taking photos.

And this became evidence of my infidelity.

I really couldn’t explain.

Felix didn’t even give me a chance to explain. He directly locked me in the room.

“Jocelyn, you’re lying. Are you afraid of me? Don’t you love me anymore? Why do you always want to leave me? Isn’t it good to be with me?”

His voice was so gloomy and his eyes were bloodshot, as if he wanted to eat me.

I instinctively wanted to escape, but he pressed me down on the sofa.

He buried his head in my arms, like a gentle big dog, and warm tears wet my clothes.

But I knew it has sharp fangs.

5

At night, he pulled out the mat and slept by my bed as usual.

For the past half month, he had been sleeping on the floor like this.

It was cold and hard, but he didn’t mind at all.

Once I got up at night and accidentally stepped on his chest.

He groaned and didn’t move for a long time.

I knelt beside him in fear, not knowing what to do for a moment.

He took a deep breath and held me in his arms, gently saying, “Jocelyn, give me a kiss, and the pain will go away.”

At this moment, the dim light shone on his face, softening his usually cold expression.

He looked really handsome, and he was in good shape.

He had been working out consistently during the few months, and anyone would be irresistibly attracted to him.

We looked at each other in silence for a long time.

“The floor is too cold. Why don’t you come to bed?”

He immediately had a bright smile on his face, and there seemed to be countless stars hidden in his eyes.

Then he quickly flipped over and held me in his arms, gently biting my ear.

“Jocelyn, is it okay?”

His voice was soft, like a feather falling on my heart.

I trembled in fear.

He clearly sensed my fear, and silently hugged me for a while. He kissed me on my cheek and then turned over and lay on the floor again.

“Forget it. I’m afraid I can’t control myself.”

I blushed and turned my head, afraid to look at him.

If it were before, I would naturally be willing.

But now, I was not sure whether we would be together in the future.

After a while, he reached out and turned off the bedside lamp.

The bedroom immediately plunged into darkness, with only a patch of moonlight in front of the window.

In the dark, his eyes were bright.

“Jocelyn, I love you, very much.”

6

That night was so long.

I stared at the moonlight outside the window.

I couldn’t figure out why Felix I liked when I was young suddenly became like this.

No, it didn’t seem sudden.

Everything was traceable, but I just chose to ignore it.

He had always been wary of me contacting men, except for my dad. And almost everyone else was his imaginary enemy.

My contact list and chat records must be available for him to check at any time.

I had to report in advance every time I went out.

My roommates once all jokingly laughed at me.

Although I felt uncomfortable, I still felt sweet in my heart.

At that time, he was just suspicious and did not take any extreme actions.

But now, he completely cut off all my social interactions and control me within this small space.

He still kept saying he loved me.

But this kind of love was not like the feelings between lovers, but more like raising a pet.

In a daze, I feel that Felix was in bed again.

He sniffed my neck and hugged me tightly.

My nose was filled with his refreshing breath, which cannot be blown away.

His breath was so light, blowing on my neck, warm and itchy.

He fell asleep without any distractions and soon slept soundly.

But I couldn’t sleep at all.

When I turned my head, I saw the phone on the bedside table.

Was it unintentional or a test that he put my phone there?

But I couldn’t care about much anymore.

In the darkness, I had been waiting for a long time, and finally pretended to turn over casually.

My phone was lying quietly on the bedside table, but unfortunately I couldn’t reach it.

I made up my mind and struggled forward, finally reaching the phone.

The next second, the hand around my waist suddenly tightened, and a slightly hoarse voice came into my ears.

“Jocelyn, what do you want to do?”

I got up and hid my phone behind me, staring at him fiercely like an angry cat.

“I don’t want to do anything. I want to go home!”

“I want to go home!”

I tightly held onto my phone, and my emotions suddenly collapsed.

Felix also got up and pulled me into his arms regardless of everything.

“Is this how you want to leave me? I can give you a home, and give you everything I have.”

“I don’t want to leave you. I don’t!”

I cried and retorted, but he obviously didn’t listen to a word, only focused on imprisoning me in his embrace.

His grip was strong, and my wrist was almost crushed by him.

“Felix, you hurt me. Let go!”

But he seemed not to hear. He pushed me down on the bed, then came over.

His soft lips came and bit hard at the corner of my mouth, without any mercy.

“Jocelyn, you are mine. You can only be mine.”

My lips were filled with blood, and then I heard the sound of clothes tearing.

My heart seemed to be crushed.

Struggling, I reached for the scissors on the bedside table. Without thinking, I directly pressed them against his neck.

Felix finally stopped his actions.

Then he rolled off the bed and fell to the ground.

In the darkness, I heard a thud. Probably he had hit the bedside table.

“I’m sorry, Jocelyn.”

“Felix, let me out! I want to go home!”

I shouted with all my might, my hand holding the scissors trembling.

“Are you going to kill me?”

He approached me step by step, his eyes filled with sadness.

“Don’t come any closer. Go away. Don’t come near me!”

He completely ignored my cries. He gradually cornered me, forcefully grabbed my hand holding the scissors, and pressed the scissors against his neck.

“Just make a gentle cut, and you can take my life.”

He had a smile on his face, filled with despair and madness.

“Do you also want me to die?”

7

“Felix, I don’t... Don’t be like this. I’m scared. I’m really scared...”

I was scared by his madness and quickly pulled back the scissors.

Death was Felix’s biggest taboo.

Because someone was always cursing him.

That person was none other than his biological father.

I accidentally witnessed them talking on the phone.

During the 3 minutes, Felix’s dad cursed him countless to die.

Felix didn’t say a word of retort, just quietly listening to his dad go crazy.

But his hands were cold like ice, and his eyes were red as if they were about to burst into flames.

I hugged him and comforted him for a long time before his mind gradually cleared up.

I didn’t understand the reason. Felix was so outstanding and sensible. Why was his father still not satisfied with him and curses him like that?

Felix said he didn’t care that and he only cared about me.

He was alive because of me.

After a moment of hesitation, I pointed the scissors at myself.

With the scissors against my neck, I felt a bit cold.

“I want to go home. If you don’t let me go, I will die here today!”

There was finally a change on Felix’s cold face, but it was only for a moment.

“Jocelyn, you can only be mine, even in death.”

His tone was cold, even with a hint of threat.

I stared at him and laughed coldly for a while.

“Felix, you lunatic! Then you can guard my corpse for the rest of your life!”

I suddenly opened the scissors and slashed my own neck.