Maya's pov
The rain had stopped, but the sky remained a heavy, unrelenting gray, as if the world itself refused to brighten for this day. I stood in the Blackwood family cemetery on the edge of the sprawling estate grounds, a small private plot surrounded by ancient oaks dripping with leftover moisture. Ethan’s tiny white casket rested on the straps over the open grave, so heartbreakingly small it looked like a toy box rather than my son’s final resting place. Flowers,white lilies and blue forget-me-nots, his favorites,covered the top. I had chosen every detail myself.
No one else had come. Not really.
A handful of staff stood at a respectful distance, heads bowed. The minister’s voice droned on about eternal peace and God’s plan, words that felt like knives twisting in my already shattered heart. I clutched a single red toy airplane in my trembling hands, the one Ethan had dropped the night everything ended. Its plastic wings dug into my palms, but the pain was nothing compared to the emptiness inside.
“Ethan Blackwood was a bright light in our lives,” the minister said gently. “Taken too soon by illness, but forever in our hearts.”
Illness. Such a clean, clinical word for the storm that ripped him from me. I wanted to scream at the man, to tell him it wasn’t just asthma. It was neglect. It was a father who chose a birthday dinner over his son’s desperate calls. It was me, failing to protect him despite every breath I took for him.
Tears streamed silently down my face at first. Then, as the straps lowered the casket inch by inch into the cold earth, the pain exploded.
“No!” The word tore from my throat, raw and animalistic. I lunged forward, dropping to my knees at the grave’s edge. Mud soaked through my black dress, staining my stockings. “Don’t take him! He’s my baby! Ethan, Mommy’s here! Don’t go!”
My screams echoed across the quiet grounds. Birds scattered from the trees. The minister paused, uncertain. A staff member stepped closer, but I waved them away violently.
“Come back to me!” I wailed, reaching down as if I could pull the casket back up. “I can’t do this without you. Who will I read stories to? Who will call me Mommy with that little voice? Ethan, please… I love you bigger than the sky!”
Sobs wracked my body so hard I could barely breathe. This was the same desperate gasping Ethan had done that night. The irony burned. I rocked back and forth on my knees, the toy airplane pressed to my chest like a lifeline. Memories flooded me in vivid, merciless waves.
The night he was born,his first cry filling the delivery room while Adrian paced outside on business calls. Ethan’s tiny hand wrapping around my finger, promising me forever. His chubby legs ran across the playroom, laughing as I chased him. Bedtime stories where he demanded “the airplane one” again and again. The way he’d crawl into my bed during storms, whispering, “Safe with Mommy.”
And now, safe in the ground. Alone. Because his father couldn’t be bothered.
Hours earlier, I had prepared for this day in a fog of grief. The mansion felt like a tomb itself. I had dressed in the black dress I hated, the one that made me look like the widow I was in name only. I arranged the flowers myself in the small chapel on the grounds, rejecting Adrian’s suggestions for a grander affair. “No spectacle,” I had told the planner coldly. “This is for Ethan. Not the Blackwood name.”
Adrian had nodded absently, already distracted. “Vanessa sends her condolences. She thought a joint statement might help with public perception.”
Public perception. Even in death, it was about image.
I had screamed at him then too, in the privacy of the nursery I couldn’t bear to empty. “Our son is dead, and you’re worried about statements? Get out!”
Then he suddenly walked away.
Of course he did.
Now, at the graveside, the minister finished the final prayer. Dirt was shoveled in,each thud on the casket like a nail in my soul. I grabbed a handful of earth myself, cool and damp, and let it fall. “Goodbye, my heart,” I whispered. “Mommy will make this right somehow. I promise.”
The staff offered quiet words of sympathy before dispersing. I remained kneeling long after they left, the sky growing darker. Pain consumed me,physical, as my knees ached and my throat burned from screaming; emotional, a black hole swallowing every joy I had ever known. How could the world continue when my child was gone? Cars still drove on distant roads. Birds sang. But my world had ended.
Footsteps approached eventually. I didn’t turn. I knew that gait.
Adrian stood a few feet away, impeccably dressed in a tailored black suit. But he wasn’t alone. Vanessa hovered at his side, elegant in a modest dark dress, her hand resting comfortingly on his arm. She murmured something to him. He nodded, leaning into her touch.
Rage ignited through the grief like gasoline on fire.
“You brought her here?” I rose slowly, legs shaking, fists clenched around the toy airplane. “To *my son’s* funeral?”
Adrian’s face was a mask of controlled sorrow. “Vanessa wanted to pay her respects. She’s been a great support during this difficult time.”
“Support?” My voice rose to a scream again. “Where was your support when Ethan called for you? When I begged you from the hospital? You arrived hours later to blame me! And now, at his burial, you comfort *her* instead of your wife?”
Vanessa had the decency to look slightly uncomfortable, but she didn’t move away. “Maya, this isn’t the time..”
“Shut up!” I shrieked, stepping forward. Mud caked my dress. Tears and snot mixed on my face. I didn’t care. “You stole my husband’s attention for years. You helped create the environment where Ethan came second. And now you stand here like some grieving saint? Get away from my son’s grave!”
Adrian moved between us, his hand on my shoulder,firm, but not gentle. “Enough, Maya. You’re hysterical. Ethan’s death was tragic, but we must handle this with dignity. The family..”
I slapped his hand away. “Dignity? There is no dignity in burying your four-year-old alone! I stood here screaming for him while you were probably holding *her* hand. Did you even cry for him, Adrian? Or was it just another inconvenience for the great Blackwood CEO?”
Pain flashed in his eyes,real, raw for a moment. “I loved him in my way. But blaming each other won’t bring him back.”
“Your way?” I laughed through sobs, a broken, ugly sound. “Your way was absence. Late nights. Prioritizing parties and mistresses. I gave up everything for this family,for Ethan. And you killed him with your neglect as surely as the asthma did.”
The words hung heavy. Vanessa touched Adrian’s arm again. “Perhaps I should wait in the car.”
“Yes,” I spat. “Leave. Both of you.”
Adrian stayed a moment longer, staring at the fresh mound of dirt. “The headstone will be installed next week. Something fitting. I… I’ll make sure you have everything you need.”
“I needed you that night,” I whispered, collapsing back to my knees as fresh waves of agony hit. “I needed my husband. Ethan needed his father. Now all I need is for you to disappear.”
He turned and walked away with Vanessa. Their figures retreated toward the mansion, her hand still on his arm. Comforting him. The man who should have been comforting me.
Alone again, I screamed until my voice gave out. I beat the ground with my fists, dirt embedding under my nails. “Why him? Why my baby? Take me instead! Bring him back!”
No answer came. Only wind through the oaks and the distant call of a bird. I curled up beside the grave, whispering stories to the dirt as if Ethan could still hear me. The airplane I placed gently on top. “Fly high, my love. Mommy will be strong for you. I’ll find out why this happened. The secrets, the neglect… it won’t be for nothing.”
Grief twisted into something darker as the hours passed. The gentle Maya who endured was fracturing. In her place rose a woman forged in loss,determined, vengeful. The Blackwoods had taken my son. They would pay.
But for now, I stayed with Ethan until the sun set completely. A mother’s love didn’t end with a funeral. It burned eternal, even in the ashes of everything I once was.
Maya's pov
The town car hummed along the rain-slicked roads, carrying me away from the cemetery where I had just buried my only child. I sat in the back seat, pressed against the door, my mud-caked black dress heavy and cold against my skin. The driver remained silent, his eyes fixed ahead, offering the kind of respectful distance the wealthy demanded. Rain streaked the tinted windows like tears that refused to stop. I clutched Ethan’s small red toy airplane in both hands, its plastic wings biting into my palms. It was all I had managed to save from the funeral,his favorite toy from that final night.
Every jolt of the car sent fresh waves of agony through my body. My knees burned from hours spent kneeling in the mud, screaming his name into the grave. My throat felt shredded from the raw howls that had torn out of me as they lowered his tiny white casket. But the deepest pain was a vast, hollow void in my chest, an emptiness so complete it made breathing hurt. How could the world keep spinning? Trees blurred past the window, indifferent and green. Distant cars splashed through puddles. Life continued for everyone else, but mine had ended with a small boy who would never call “Mommy” again.
Tears slipped down my cheeks silently at first. I pressed my forehead to the glass, its coolness a small mercy. “Ethan,” I whispered, voice cracking. “Mommy’s going home now. But you’re not there waiting. You’ll never be there again.” The sobs built like a storm inside me, slow and inevitable. By the time the massive iron gates of Blackwood Mansion appeared through the rain, I was shaking, hugging the toy airplane to my heart as if it could somehow fill the hole.
The gates creaked open like reluctant jaws. The long driveway stretched before us, lined with perfectly trimmed trees that had always felt more like walls than landscaping. This place had never been a true home. It was a gilded prison where I had raised Ethan in quiet corners while Adrian chased power and Vanessa. Now, without my son, it was nothing but a tomb.
The car stopped at the grand entrance. I didn’t wait for help. I pushed the door open and stepped out into the pouring rain. Cold water soaked my hair instantly, mingling with my tears. “Thank you,” I managed to say to the driver, my voice barely audible. He nodded with pity in his eyes and drove away, tires crunching on gravel. I was alone.
Climbing the wide stone steps felt like scaling a mountain. My legs trembled with exhaustion and grief. Each step brought flashbacks: Ethan’s tiny hand in mine as we walked up for bedtime, his giggles echoing when he tried to slide down the banister on a pillow. I pushed open the heavy front doors. The foyer was dimly lit, shadows pooling in corners. Silence hit me like a physical blow,no patter of little feet, no joyful shouts, no soft breathing from the monitor I used to keep by my bed.
“Ethan?” I called out anyway, the name breaking on a sob. “Baby, Mommy’s home…”
Nothing. Only the rain drumming on the roof. I stood dripping on the marble floor, leaving muddy footprints like wounds on the pristine surface. The grand staircase loomed. I gripped the banister, knuckles white, and forced myself upward. Memories assaulted me with every step. The night he had his first bad attack here,I had carried him down these stairs to the car, heart pounding. Now I climbed alone.
The hallway to the family wing stretched endlessly. Ancestral portraits glared down with cold judgment. I ignored them, my breaths coming in ragged gasps. The nursery door waited at the end. My sanctuary. Our world. Heart hammering, I reached for the knob.
The door swung open.
And my world shattered all over again.
The room was gone.
Erased.
The crib,where I had rocked him through countless nights,was missing. The changing table, the shelves of books, the colorful rug where we built block towers and played airplanes,all vanished. The walls, once painted with soft clouds and soaring planes, were now bare and stark white. The floorboards lay exposed, cold and unforgiving. Not a single sock, not a crayon drawing, not even the blue star blanket he loved. It was as if Ethan Blackwood had never drawn a single breath in this mansion.
“No…” The whisper turned into a wail. “No! No, no, no!”
I stumbled into the center of the emptiness, spinning wildly, searching for any trace. My screams ripped through the mansion. “Where is everything? Where is his crib? His clothes? His blanket? You can’t just wipe him away like he never mattered!”
Tears flooded my face. I dropped to my knees on the hard floor, the same spot where Ethan had taken his first wobbly steps toward me, arms outstretched. I pounded my fists against the wood until they bled, pain flaring bright but meaningless. “He was here! He laughed here! He called for me here when his chest hurt! You monsters erased him!”
Sobs convulsed my body. I curled into a tight ball, rocking violently, the toy airplane pressed so hard against my chest it left bruises. “Ethan, my sweet baby… they took you from me twice. First your life, now your memory. How am I supposed to live in a house that pretends you never existed?”
Hours blurred in that barren room. I screamed until my voice failed, reduced to hoarse whispers. I recounted every memory aloud: his birth, his first word “Mommy”, the way he’d snuggle during storms. “I love you bigger than the sky,” I repeated over and over, the phrase we shared every night. Thunder rumbled outside in answer. Rain lashed the windows as if the heavens wept with me.
Exhaustion eventually pulled me under on the cold floor. When I woke, shivering and aching, the reality crashed down anew. I sat up slowly, clutching the airplane and a single blue block with the letter E that I had found in a corner crack,a tiny, defiant survivor. “They tried to erase you,” I told myself through fresh tears. “But I won’t let them.”
I wandered the stripped room one last time, fingers trailing where his crib had stood. Leaving it felt like abandoning him again. I closed the door softly and leaned against it, more tears falling. The mansion loomed vast and hollow around me. Adrian’s quarters were probably untouched. Vanessa’s taste lingered in the art and furnishings she had influenced.
Downstairs in the kitchen, covered dishes from sympathetic staff sat untouched. I poured water with shaking hands and sat at the island where Ethan used to “help” bake cookies, his little stool now gone. “He’s really gone,” I said aloud, voice breaking. “And they cleared him out like garbage while I buried him.”
Anger wove through the grief. Adrian must have ordered the cleaning. Efficient. Heartless. While I screamed at the graveside, someone had sanitized the evidence of our son. The pain fueled a darker spark inside,the gentle wife was dying. Something harder was emerging from the ashes.
I roamed the halls for what felt like hours, discovering more voids: the playroom stripped, height marks on doorframes painted over. Each one brought fresh screams and floods of tears. By nightfall, I collapsed into my cold bed, curling around the airplane and block. “Goodnight, my love,” I whispered. “Mommy will find a way…”
Sleep came fitfully, haunted by his voice calling for help. Then, in the dead of night, a sound pulled me awake,a faint creak from downstairs. Footsteps?
Heart racing, I sat up. The mansion should be empty. But someone was moving in the shadows.
