But before I could say a word, he'd already rolled over and gone to sleep.

Took most of the blanket with him, too.

From that day on, I never asked him for help with anything again.

Sybilla's tone was coy, half-scolding, but the corners of her lips curled upward.

“Dr. Delgado, it's just a little itch. You're making way too big a deal out of this.”

Bertram kept his expression flat.

“Allergic reactions can be fatal. Stay in bed. Once the results come back clean, I'll take you out.”

Ha.

So he did know allergic reactions could kill.

It was just that my life didn't weigh as much as someone else's.

I typed quickly on my phone：“Where are you?”

Thirty seconds later：“Working overtime.”

He must have heard my phone chime,

because he looked up,

his gaze landing on me.

Less than half a second. Then it slid away.

I walked back toward my room, scrolling to my emergency contacts.

First contact：Bertram Delgado.

Second contact：Maura Thomas.

I deleted the first one without hesitating.

If he couldn't be reached when it actually mattered,

there was no point in him holding that spot.

The day I was discharged,

I ran into Bertram at the entrance to the apartment complex.

Sybilla was right behind him.

The moment he saw me, Bertram stepped forward, half-blocking Sybilla from view.

A posture of instinctive protection.

“Sybilla and I just got back from a work trip. She got a little carsick, so I brought her home to rest for a bit.”

“I didn't know you'd be back during the day. If it bothers you, I'll take her home right now.”

His mouth opened and closed.

I almost didn't recognize him.

Outside of arguments, this was a man who barely spared me a handful of words.

Now, whether out of guilt or something else,

he'd strung together four or five full sentences.

More than he usually said to me in an entire day.

Sybilla kept her head down, her voice small and timid.

“Dr. Delgado, maybe I should just go. I can tell your wife doesn't really like……”

“I don't mind.”

The words landed,

and a flicker of surprise crossed both their faces.

After all, I'd always been friendly to the other interns in his department.

Sybilla was the only exception.

It wasn't that I'd singled her out on purpose.

It was that I kept finding things Sybilla had “accidentally” left behind in Bertram's car.

Lipstick, a compact mirror, stickers……

Every time I showed them to Bertram, he'd frown and scoff：“Childish.”

I'd thought so too.

Only a kid who couldn't have the candy would taunt the one who did.

I just hadn't noticed the faint smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.

Not until two months ago.

She sent me a photo of herself and Bertram lying on the same bed.

I lost it.

I hurled my phone at Bertram, screaming at him like a woman unhinged.

He said it was just a cot in the lab.

They were both fully clothed. What could they possibly have done?

And even if they could, there were other people running experiments in the same room.

Surely I didn't think they'd fool around with a third person right there?

Sybilla called at just the right moment：

“I'm so sorry, Mrs. Delgado. I was just trying to joke around. There were actually four of us in that room.”

Bertram chimed in：“If it bothers you, I'll keep my distance from her.”

Looking back now, the fact that I'd swallowed that story was embarrassing enough on its own.

Once we got inside, Sybilla headed straight for the master bedroom.

Bertram caught her arm, then glanced at me carefully.

I smiled：“It's fine. Go rest.”

It wasn't like I'd be using that room again anyway.

Something complicated surfaced in Bertram's eyes.

Like he was searching my face for something else entirely.

But maybe my expression was too calm, because he let go.

“I'll make dinner.”

I nodded and sat down on the couch.

A few minutes later, Sybilla called out to Bertram.

“Dr. Delgado, do you still have that sanitary pad I left in your bag last time?”

She stuck her tongue out at me playfully.

“Sorry about that, Mrs. Delgado. I never carry a purse, so I just keep them in Dr. Delgado's bag. That's the only brand that doesn't give me a reaction.”

But her face was pure smugness.

Bertram pulled one out of the messenger bag I'd bought him and handed it to her.

Then he looked at me, like he wanted to say something.

I closed my eyes and pretended to doze off.

I could feel his gaze lingering on my face for a long time before he finally walked away.

Bertram made four dishes.

Spicy pepper pork, cold spinach salad, celery beef stir-fry, and mushroom soup.

Every single one topped with chopped scallions.

Sybilla, freshly awake and wearing my pajamas, let out a squeal.

“Wow, these are all my favorites! I'm going to stuff myself tonight!”

I didn't touch my chopsticks.

Bertram looked impatient.

“If you're not eating now, don't ask me to cook later when you're hungry.”

My voice carried no emotion at all, just a statement of fact：

“I can't eat scallions.”

The hand holding his chopsticks flinched.

For once, a crack appeared in that stone-cold face.

“Sorry. I forgot. Let me make you something else.”

“Don't bother.”

I picked up my bag.

“You two enjoy dinner. I'm going to stay at Maura's for a few days.”

On my way out I turned to Sybilla：

“Make yourself at home.”

As I went to close the door, Bertram braced his hand against it.

“Do you really have to make such a big deal out of this with a kid?”

“I'll take her home after dinner.”

I didn't answer. My eyes dropped to his hand.

“You're wearing a ring?”

Four years of marriage, and he had never once worn his wedding band.

Because he said his profession made it impractical.

His hand pulled back immediately.

“Sybilla kept insisting we wear matching ones.”

“But they're not couple rings, they're…….”

I cut him off：

“Just asking. You don't need to explain.”

He pressed his lips together and watched me for a moment, his voice going soft.

“Then go rest at Maura's for now. I'll pick you up after work tomorrow night.”

I didn't respond. I walked straight downstairs.

I was leaving anyway.

From now on, whoever he let sleep in the bedroom,

whoever he kept sanitary pads for,

whoever he wore a matching ring with,

none of it had anything to do with me.

The cab passed the jewelry counter where we'd bought our wedding rings years ago. I asked the driver to stop.

I ran my fingers over the ring on my hand,

and for a moment I could see us standing at that very counter seven years ago.

The boy said he didn't like wearing rings, and the girl stormed off in a huff.

Not long after, the boy showed up with the diamond ring she'd been eyeing, down on one knee.

“Will you be my only family? In sickness and in health, never apart.”

My vision blurred, then cleared.

I walked into the store.

“Do you buy back diamond rings?”

……

The next day, Maura went with me to my follow-up appointment.

But my primary doctor was away on a training fellowship,

so I had to book with a different specialist.

I didn't expect him to recognize me.

“Jemima?”

I blinked, then placed his face.

“Hello, Doctor.”

A flicker of warmth crossed his otherwise stern features.

“We met once, at your wedding to Bertram.”

He was Bertram's mentor, one of the top allergy specialists in the country.

Bertram had always said he'd find time to take me to his mentor for a thorough exam.

That "find time" stretched into years.

So long ago that I'd already forgotten about it.

After a full round of tests,

he told me my allergens hadn't changed.

Which meant the only explanation was emotional.

“Have you been experiencing insomnia or depression recently?”

I froze.

Then it hit me, understanding and bitterness tangled together.

No wonder I'd been getting worse these past six months.

Turned out I cared about him more than I thought.

On the drive back from the hospital,

Maura was still cursing Bertram out.

But I felt nothing anymore.

Maybe it was true what people said: when your body was falling apart,

you stopped caring about love.

My phone buzzed.

“You went to see Dr. Harmon?”

“Yeah.”

“Why didn't you tell me?”

“I could've gone with you.”

“I didn't go on purpose. Just ran into him.”

“He said one of the results isn't back yet. I'll pick you up tonight. Let me take you in again tomorrow?”

I rubbed my thumb across the divorce papers in my hand

and typed back：“Okay.”

When I got home that evening,

the apartment looked brand new.

Someone had clearly cleaned up.

He stopped me at the guest room door：

“You're still mad?”

I shook my head.

“Then why won't you sleep in the bedroom?”

I thought about it, then gave him one word：“Filthy.”

I meant it.

But he reacted like I'd slapped him.

“She's just a kid.”

“Jemima, that's enough.”

I hadn't heard those words in a long time.

Long enough that they dragged up memories I'd buried.

Freshman year, military training week. I fell for him the moment I saw him.

But he was an iceberg. Nobody got within arm's reach.

After a few attempts that bounced right off him, I started asking around.

He was an orphan. Scholarships and odd jobs and a mentor's charity were the only reasons he'd made it this far.

So I told myself the coldness was armor.

All I had to do was get close enough, be warm enough, and it would melt.

I picked the meat out of my bowl and put it in his.

At his games, my voice alone drowned out the entire crowd.

On holidays when he had nowhere to go, I stayed behind with him.

And every time I pushed too hard, he'd give me the same two words：“That's enough.”

I pretended not to hear.

“Come home with me for Christmas. My mom's cooking is amazing!”

“Don't be sad. From now on, I'm your family!”

……

Then one day a ceiling fan above me came loose, its bolt snapping free, and the whole thing plummeted straight toward my head.

In the middle of everyone's screams, Bertram threw himself over me.

The muffled grunt when it hit him stayed with me for years.

And in all the silences that followed, that sound saved us more times than I could count.

Now I stared at his profile, harder and colder than ever.

There wasn't a trace left of the boy who'd once been terrified of losing me.

I pulled my arm free and walked straight to the master bedroom.

Threw back the comforter. Nothing.

Yanked open the nightstand drawer. Nothing.

Finally, I crouched down and dragged a piece of lace lingerie out from under the bed.

Not mine.

Bertram's lips pressed into a tight line.

I let out a short, hollow laugh and threw the lingerie in his face.

“Bertram, how about you quit while you're ahead.”

Then I turned and went back to the guest room.

The next morning, Bertram delayed going in to work and drove me to the hospital.

The second we reached the office door,

I saw Sybilla inside, there for a follow-up of her own.

So he'd been coming here today anyway.

I was just a stop along the way.

And last time he came to this hospital, it was to get his mentor to see Sybilla.

And I'd actually been foolish enough to think he still cared about me.