"Believe me, sometimes losing is also a kind of gain." Noah kissed my eyebrows tenderly, "How sad you are, I am ten thousand times sadder than you."

I clenched my fists and blinked hard, so that I could cover up my unstoppable hatred and prevent him from finding out. "How sad are you?"

Noah looked down at me as his eyes were swollen like walnuts. He looked like he had been crying for a long time. "I was extremely sad. The moment I knew that our son died, my world was dark. Fortunately, you are still here. Otherwise, I really couldn't live."

What a good actor. No wonder I didn't realize that he had always loved Airish Flo for so many years.

When I was just pregnant, Noah posted several moments in a row, saying excitedly that he was going to be a father. Later in my pregnancy, I had a poor appetite, so he learned to cook for me and cooked for me himself. However, who could have predicted that this was his long-term plan for that illegitimate child!

Noah went downstairs to the canteen to get food, but he left his spare phone behind.

The password he entered was not my birthday, but it was Airish's birthday. It was successfully unlocked. Pages of chat records made me dizzy.

[Noah, I’m sorry for what happened to Nadine.]

I was eight months pregnant and Noah was traveling back and forth at home. He was abroad on business trips and the days he spent with me were few and far between. I felt sorry for him that I only reported good news during the various hardships of prenatal checkups and pregnancy reactions. I tried my best not to make him worry about me.

Then I knew that the days he went abroad were spent accompanying Airish for her prenatal checkups and childbirth. The endless chat records contained every bit of him and Airish and he never missed every important day of pregnancy.

Noah applied pregnancy oil to her, learned to massage her swollen feet and even used his hands to pick out the dirt that constipation could not get out for her. Turning the page, Noah and Airish quarreled over the child's fate. In the end, Airish agreed to let me raise the child, but she still wanted to pursue her career abroad.

I closed my eyes. I remembered that after Airish and her identities were made public, she smiled with relief and said to me, "Sister, I never want to blame you for taking my parents away. I yearn for a wider world. Don't worry, I won't compete with you for Noah."

With that, she ran abroad and became a light chaser. My parents resented me for her departure and even attended my wedding ceremony in a hurry.

In the meantime, Noah killed my child for Airish, just to pave the way for her child. I really envied her. Everyone loved her, but not me. Since that's the case, I should probably leave.

I put down my phone with a dead heart as I sent a message to my boss. I promised him to get back to the Rivendell and develop his traditional herbs business.

"I'm worried about the hospital's food, so I cooked some for you. C’mon, open up your mouth and see if it suits your taste."

Noah fed me mouthful by mouthful and my tears uncontrollably fell into the bowl. He wiped my tears gently and teased me, "Oh baby, you’re really grateful that you have me as your husband, right?"

I lowered my eyes and said nothing. I wasn't moved, but I felt miserable. This kind of treatment was only available to me because Airish repeatedly asked him. I just benefited from her.

Seeing me like this, Noah hugged me in distressed, "Baby, are you thinking about the baby again?"

When he mentioned it, I broke down again and burst into tears. Noah was so anxious that he turned around and finally it seemed like a flash of inspiration, "Well, I heard that your sister also has a child abroad. I wonder if you know that he’s always been homeless. Why don't we bring him here and raise him as our own? We can tell the world that you gave birth to him. I’ll help you talk to your sister and you can save yourself from criticism."

I looked up at him blankly. If I hadn't known what Noah did behind my back, I would have thought he was thinking about me. However, I had already decided to leave Chilverstone.

"You’re right. I believe it can make everyone happy."

Noah was surprised and hugged me as he promised like an oath, "I will treat you well for the rest of my life, Nadine. When the child grows up, we will go sightseeing. Don't you always want to go back and see where you grew up?"

He kept talking about the beautiful future, but he didn't know that this perfect new life would never start, because I was leaving.

Noah was so impatient that he took Airish and the child back to Chilverstone within two or three days to hold a family dinner.

"I thought I should also tell my parents. They must’ve been missing their grandchildren too." Noah looked at me cautiously, afraid that I would be angry.

In the Clark Family villa, my parents teased Eric. Their faces full of joy as grandparents for the first time. Airish sat next to them, just like a little girl.

My mother cherished her grandson and caressed Airish with pity, "You’ve been struggling outside. Don't worry, dear, your child will be the first grandson of our family!"

I felt my eyes stung, but I still smiled and went forward to say hello. My parents were extremely cold all of a sudden, "Who are you showing your bad face to? Are you deliberately making things difficult for us? Look at Airish, how much more sensible she is than you."

"I really don't understand what you are doing. You are about to give birth and you are still eating nonsense. Now, the child is gone and in the end, Airish has to clean up your mess."

"Knowing that the Riders Family's in-laws will come today, you are still wearing such a plain dress like that? You never know how to add glory to the family. You should be self-aware in the first place. It is your fault, causing Airish to be unable to return to the country for so many years and being bullied abroad."

I knew my parents look down on me. They thought I couldn't bring them honour and I was not worthy of the identity of the Clark Family's daughter. It was a pity that Airish, the daughter who made them proud, was not their biological child. Until Airish took the initiative to go abroad, Riders Family couldn't do without me. They had to accept their fate, but they were even more dissatisfied with me.

My father didn't send me off at the wedding and my mother sat in her seat with a sullen face.

Noah used to protect me and speak for me, but then his eyes were glued to Airish, full of tenderness. He completely forgot that I was stillborn because he took advantage of my trust and put abortion pills in the food.

Airish walked up to me with the child in her arms and curved her eyes sincerely, "Sister, look at Eric Jacob, isn't he very cute?"

He was indeed very cute. His eyebrows and eyes were very similar to Airish. Meanwhile, his lips and chin were carved from the same mold as Noah.

I brushed the child's face with my fingertips and a huge hatred appeared in my eyes.

However, why could he live well and enjoy a rich and beautiful life, while my child was poisoned to death and couldn't even see this world?

"Eric Jacob?"

"Yes, Noah's friend helped me find a boy’s name for him. I hope he can enjoy a noble life, peace and wealth in the future."

On contrary, in order to find the name for my child, I flipped through the dictionary with good meaning that can bless him with health, happiness and peace. Noah laughed at me for doing useless work. He said that the child's fate was determined at birth and naming was just psychological comfort.

Turning around, I spent tens of millions to find a fortune teller to name Airish and his child. With a bitter mouth, I tried to smile, "It is indeed a good name."

I found that the child's expression was not right. My palm slid to his neck, but before I could do anything, I heard Airish scream, "Sister, what do you want to do with my child?"

The next second, Noah pushed me to the ground as he roared at me, "Nadine, what do you want to do to Eric? Do you want to harm your sister's child because your own child died, are you still human?"

I fell to the ground. My palms rubbed against the ground and broke. It was excruciatingly painful. Yet, Noah didn't even look at me. He and Airish hugged the crying child on the left and right, like a real family of three.

My parents looked at me angrily, protecting their child without knowing right from wrong, "Nadine, you’re such a monster. This is why we love Airish than you. Look at you, how can you compare to Airish? You’re helpless. You are so mean and dark. You don't even let such a young child go, you beast!"

"Why are you still lying on the ground? Get out quickly, don't get in our way, you really ruined my good mood."

The elders of the Riders Family who just arrived asked about the situation and their eyes were full of disappointment in me.

"We don't blame you for accidentally miscarrying the child and we, the Riders Family, have never thought of letting you two divorces even if you can't have a baby, but why do you have to do it to a little baby?"

"Airish's child is one of the the Riders Family's genealogy. Whether you agree or not, it can't change the facts. Go back and reflect on it."

At this moment, I had nothing to say, but after all, considering the child's innocent life, I whispered, "It's easy for a young child to suffocate if he wears a red rope."

Airish opened the child's neck and found that it was all red. Her face was immediately ashamed. Meanwhile, Noah told me not to mind, "Airish is just worried about the child, not targeting you on purpose."

My mother said impatiently, "Why don't you say it earlier if you knew it? Are you deliberately playing misery? Besides, if you were not unlucky enough to kill the child, would your sister sacrifice for you and let you raise the child? You should thank her anyway!"

Everyone stood on Airish's side and attacked me for her. My eyes were blurred by tears. I went upstairs without saying a word and threw the printed divorce agreement into the shredder. No divorce.

They didn't love me or believe me. I would completely disappear from their lives. I didn't want them anymore. I sat in the guest room for a long time, listening to the laughter and joy below and gradually fell asleep.

When I woke up again, the villa was quiet. I had a severe stomach ache and went downstairs to find something to eat. The servant said disdainfully that there was no food. If I wanted to eat, I could make it myself. The ingredients were in the basement.

However, I saw Airish sitting on Noah's head with her legs apart.

She sounded whiningly and said, "Noah, if my sister finds out, she will be sad. Um... It's so uncomfortable, Noah..."

Noah hooked his lips evilly, "Airish, you obviously like me, why do you always reject me? Don't worry, she won't know. I did promise you that I won't tie you down with marriage, but you have to satisfy me."

Airish hugged Noah's head with both hands and pushed her waist forward. "Noah, this is for the last time, okay? After that, I will go abroad and won't disturb you and my sister. We will be the purest childhood sweethearts."

Noah stopped talking. The unbearable voice drilled into my ears with the wind, making me sick and unable to stand. I staggered out of here. Until I was far away from that suffocating place, I barely came back to my soul. My tears fell on the ground.

I sat on the curb in confusion and the next second, Airish's soft and uneasy voice sounded. "Sister, I'm sorry for what happened today."

"What is it about?"

I looked at her guilty eyes. "It's just... I misunderstood that you wanted to hurt Eric. This is my first time as a mother and I overreacted to the safety of my baby. I didn’t mean to against you."