Ilya's wife, Sophie, bounces over toward us. She is an ethereal beauty. Her blonde hair is so pale, it borders on silver. Every one of her features is delicate. I spotted her at one of our nightclubs-a shy little thing, dragged along by her friends-and was intrigued.
But when Ilya saw her, it was like he'd been struck by lightning.
He still looks at her the same way he did five years ago. A softer man might think it's cute, but all I can think is that my lieutenant is going to be shot one day because he's too busy staring at his wife.
"Honey, look what you missed out on." She raises a plate of puff pastries stuffed with beef. Pirozhki. "I can't believe Lev would take you away from your favorite snack."
"My second favorite snack," he corrects before kissing her temple. It turns into a playful nibble. She laughs. They start kissing, Sophie's hand barely holding onto the heavy plate.
"Mmm. We should get home," Ilya says. She nods into his chest. He takes the plate from her and looks at me. "We'll talk tomorrow."
"Good night, Ilya," I reply. "Good night, Sophie."
After they leave, I walk over to one of the displays of Mariya's Revenge. I pour myself a couple of shots before downing them.
The last of the stragglers trickle out, one by one. Seated at a table, I watch the cleaning staff come in. They give me quick smiles before starting to clean up. I continue to drink and observe.
One of the crew, an older man, stops by the table to start picking up the numerous discarded shot glasses. He doesn't look at me. I can see his hands nearly shaking as he is forced to get closer to where I'm sitting.
"Is it hard to work this late?" I ask quietly. He nearly jumps, but doesn't dare to make eye contact.
"Um, no, sir. Not exactly." He scratches at his neck. "A little bit, maybe. I have a daughter and son at home. They're at school during the day and I get home after they're asleep."
I sip on a few fingers of vodka poured over ice as I examine the man. He's thin, wrinkled, with the slightest paunch hanging over his belt. His eyes are drawn tight with exhaustion.
"What is your name?"
"Roberto, sir."
"Are you married, Roberto?"
He nods emphatically. "Yes, sir. We celebrated our twenty-sixth anniversary a month ago."
I take another sip. "Do you love your wife?"
A blush rises into his cheeks. "Yes, of course. She's a good person, she's good to me, she's good to our kids."
I look straight into his face. He is trembling. I wonder what he thinks I will do to him. I toy with the clasp of my watch before I ask him, "Aren't you sick and tired of her pussy, Roberto?"
The color drains from his face immediately. He clears his throat like he's fumbling for words, but when he draws himself up and speaks again, there's a haughty pride in his voice. An undercurrent of strength beneath the fear. "I don't need to go around sleeping with other women to boost my ego."
"Is that what you think I do?" I ask. It was meant to be a joke, but there's too much alcohol in my system to stop the sharp, icy edges from stabbing through.
The bravery that Roberto showed a moment before disappears in an instant. His hands start to quiver enough that the shot glasses clatter against each other.
Pity. I almost respected him for a moment there.
"I'm so, so sorry, sir. I didn't mean it like that. I just meant that ... when I was younger, I might have done that and if I-"
"Do you think I am beneath you, Roberto?"
"Of course not. Oh God. No. Sir, I'm sorry. Sometimes, it's just so late when I work, my mouth tends to get ahead of itself and I say things that I don't-"
"You should go," I cut him off. "Take your coworkers with you. You can come back in an hour."
"Yes, sir, absolutely. Again, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything by it."
He hurries away, stopping briefly to talk to his two coworkers before they all leave.
Not a single one of them looks back.
And when they're gone, I am alone.
2
ALLISON
A
s Jeffrey Douglas walks to the witness stand, he's crying. It must be difficult for him to cry with the fake eyeglasses he scrounged up to look more relatable to the jury.
His lawyer, Ron Ramsey, strides up to the witness stand. Side by side, they nearly look like father and son. The same shade of brown hair, the same broad chest, and the same clean-shaven faces. The biggest difference is that Ramsey sports a deep tan, thanks to his clients' dirty money paying for tropical vacations.
Jeffrey, on the other hand, isn't going to see the sun for twenty years once this verdict comes down. And that's as it should be, I muse. Even though I know better than to make a legal case personal, there's nothing I hate more than a drunk driver. I can't avoid squaring my own past with the terrible crime Jeffrey committed. There was no justice done in my case. At least there will be in his.
"Mr. Douglas," Ramsey says, his voice carrying a faint, ambiguous accent. It's as fake as the rest of him. "We've heard people speculate what happened on the night of June 7. What actually happened that night?"
Jeffrey rubs his neck and swallows back a sob. "Well. It's all ... it's all hard to talk about now, but at the time, I didn't realize it would lead to all this. I didn't realize anything had happened at all. I wouldn't have left a teenager on the side of the road, someone so young and full of life-"
He breaks off, his hands covering his face as his whimpers fill the courtroom. I glance over at the jury. The sympathy on their faces triggers a bullet of anxiety in my chest. There's no way this sob story could sway them. Right?
Nearly three minutes pass before he wipes his face and sits up again.
"I-I'm sorry. It's just ... it's awful. I feel so badly for her parents, for her friends ... for the whole community. Um, I'm not a perfect person. I'm far from it. But I was just ... at the wrong place, at the wrong time. I was ... yes, it's true I was at a nightclub. Maybe I wasn't sober, but I wasn't drunk. At all. I knew I had to get up early for my job. It-it's my fault. Because I wasn't completely paying attention."
I focus on his tear-stained face. I know a confession isn't coming, but there's still that stray hope that wants to come home.
Do the right thing, you bastard, I say to myself silently. Tell them you killed her.
"I wasn't paying attention," he repeats, shaking his head. He wipes his face with his hands again. "I saw the car in front of me brake. Those red lights. I thought I saw something rebound off the front of the car. I thought ... at most, I thought maybe it was a dog. I stopped near where I thought the car was when I saw the brake lights. I must have driven past or not far enough ... I looked around the area. I never found anything. I swear, I pray and wish every day that I had looked harder. But at the time, I assumed the darkness was playing tricks on my eyes. So, I left. I drove away and I went to sleep, not thinking anything more about it."
His gaze shifts over to our side of the courtroom. For a second, our eyes meet, but he quickly shifts to looking at the district attorney, Elizabeth Hardick, who is sitting in front of me, furiously writing notes on her legal pad.
"Mr. Douglas, would you have called 911 if you had hit this young woman?" Ramsey interjects.
"There's no doubt in my mind," Jeffrey says with a sudden stroke of conviction. "I wouldn't have hesitated. The ... the police brought up that I've crashed my car before and that I was drunk. That's true. But it was three years ago. I'd just broken up with my fiancée, I'd gone to AA, and ... it was a Good Samaritan that saved my life that day. His name was Greg Lowe and I've been waiting a long time to pay it forward. I know how much it means to me that Greg called an ambulance for me. I would have done it for anyone else without hesitating. I owe Greg that and I owe God that."
I notice a woman in the jury box nod, like a church parishioner getting into the preacher's sermon. She's wearing a crucifix. If this case ends up with a hung jury, I'll know she had something to do with it.
I can feel the bile rising in my throat. There's a bad, bad feeling in the air.
"Thank you, Mr. Douglas. Your honesty is admirable."
Ramsey sits down.
