TAMSIN

"James..." My voice came out weak. Shaking. "Please. Help me. My baby..."

"Tammy, please." His voice was strained. "After everything today, I can't... I need you to stop."

"My baby..." Tears streamed down my face. I was bent over the bed, and I could feel the wetness spreading. I knew what it meant. "Don't let me lose my baby. Please. Take me to the hospital."

My vision started to blur at the edges. Everything going soft and distant.

I turned my head slightly. James stood near the door, his face a mask of conflict. Pain and doubt warring in his eyes.

He took a step toward me.

Then Isla made a sound. A horrible, choking gasp.

I couldn't see her from my position, but I heard the thud as she hit the floor.

"Isla!" James's voice went sharp with panic.

Through my darkening vision, I saw him drop to his knees beside her. Saw her body jerking. Convulsing.

A seizure.

His face went white. "Oh God. Isla. Isla, stay with me."

He scooped her into his arms. Her head lolled back, body still twitching.

He looked back at me, and for one second, our eyes met.

I saw the torment there.

"I'll come back for you," he said, voice breaking. "I promise. I have to get her to the hospital. I'll come back."

While he was running with Isla's limp body in his arms, her head turned and for a brief second, she opened her eyes and stared at me, as her lips curved into a smile.

Then he was gone.

I tried to call after him, tried to tell him about the blood, but my voice wouldn't work anymore.

I was alone.

The cramping got worse. A sharp, tearing pain that made breathing impossible.

I looked down. Blood pooled on the floor beneath me. Dark. Too much.

My baby.

I tried to move. Tried to reach for something, anything. But my body wouldn't respond.

The room tilted and my legs gave out.

I slid to the floor in slow motion. The blood warm beneath me.

Then everything went black.

-

I opened my eyes and gasped.

I was on the floor. Blood everywhere. My blood. Soaking through my dress, pooled beneath me, dark and thick.

How long had I been unconscious?

I tried to stand, but my legs wouldn't hold me. I collapsed back down.

My baby.

I had to get to the hospital. I had to try.

I started crawling, my knees scraping against the floor, but I didn't care. If there was even the smallest chance my baby was still alive, I'd crawl through broken glass to reach it.

My phone. I needed my phone.

I found it in the living room, shattered. James had destroyed it. I had no way to call for help.

Tears streamed down my face. Pain radiated from my abdomen, my knees, but worst of all, from somewhere deep in my chest that had nothing to do with physical injury.

I kept crawling. I had to get to my car. Had to drive myself to the road, flag down a cab and get to the hospital.

It took forever to find my keys. I grabbed them with shaking hands.

Getting into the car was agony. Every movement sent fresh waves of pain through me. My dress was soaked through. More blood on the seat.

I didn't care.

I started the engine, my hands trembling so badly I could barely grip the wheel.

Just get to the main road. Just get help.

My vision kept blurring. I blinked hard, trying to clear it. My mouth was dry as sand, lips cracked, throat burning with thirst.

The driveway seemed endless.

Finally, the main road. I could see it. Just a little further.

My vision dimmed at the edges and everything was going dark.

No. Not yet. Please.

I didn't see the post until I hit it.

The airbag exploded into my face. There was pain, and then darkness.

-

I became aware of white lights, chemical smell, and beeping machines.

I opened my eyes slowly. Everything hurt. My forehead throbbed. My arms felt heavy.

Someone was holding my hand.

I turned my head. James sat beside the bed, gripping my fingers like they were the only thing keeping him anchored. His eyes were red and wet.

"You're awake." His voice cracked with relief. "Thank God, you're awake."

I looked to my right. Patience stood there. One of the nurses I'd worked with for years. Her eyes were red too.

"My baby." The words scraped out of my throat. "How is my baby?"

Patience's face crumpled. She took my other hand, squeezed it gently.

"I'm so sorry, Tamsin." Her voice was barely a whisper. "Your baby didn't make it."

The words landed. I felt them hit. Then I felt nothing.

"The crash?" I asked. My voice sounded flat. "I lost it in the crash?"

"The pregnancy was already compromised from the bleeding." Patience's professional mask was slipping. I could see her grief underneath. "If you'd gotten to the hospital sooner, we might have been able to save it. But the accident..." She trailed off.

I nodded. "I see."

"But you can try again," She added too quickly. Like she needed to fill the silence with something hopeful. "Your womb is intact. There's no reason you can't conceive again when you're..."

"Thank you, Patience." I cut her off gently. "I appreciate it."

I closed my eyes. Heard her moving around the room, checking monitors, and adjusting things I couldn't see.

Then the door clicked shut.

I opened my eyes again and looked at James. He was still holding my hand like he had the right to.

He wiped his face with his free hand. "I'm so sorry, Tammy. I was coming back for you when..."

"James."

He stopped. Looked at me with those red, desperate eyes.

"It's enough," I said quietly. "Let's get a divorce."

TAMSIN

James sat beside my hospital bed, staring at me in stunned silence, as though he had not been the cause of the blood that stained my dress, the bruises on my skin, and the unbearable emptiness inside my body.

His presence filled the room, familiar and unwelcome all at once, and I wondered how a man could look so much like home and still feel like a stranger.

“I’m sorry,” he finally found his voice, it was low and rough, the kind of voice that once convinced me he meant every word he spoke. “Tammy, I swear to you, I didn’t know you were telling the truth. I was blinded by my mom's words. If I had known you were truly pregnant, if I had even suspected it, none of this would have happened. I would never have left you. Never.”

I did not look at him. I kept my gaze fixed on the ceiling, on the faint crack that ran through one of the tiles above my bed, thin and crooked, like something broken that had been ignored for too long.

“I don’t want a divorce,” he continued, his hand closing around mine as though he feared I might disappear if he let go. “I don’t understand how you can even think of living without me when I cannot live without you. You are my wife. My life. How am I supposed to exist without you, Tammy?”

The words were passionate, dramatic, and tragically familiar. Once, they would have undone me completely.

“My mind is made up,” I said quietly.

He shook his head, a faint note of frustration creeping into his expression. “You are just reacting to the loss of our baby. You are grieving, saying things you do not mean because you are in pain.”

I almost smiled at that.

“You do not mean what you just said,” he insisted. “I know you better than anyone else. I know your heart. We cannot survive apart. You cannot survive without me.”

I closed my eyes then, not because I was overwhelmed, but because I knew that if I opened them, I would do something crazy and that was bad for my condition.

“Please leave,” I said.

Instead of releasing my hand, he tightened his grip, his other hand covering mine as if he could hold me in place by sheer will alone. “I am not leaving. I will stay with you through your entire hospital stay. I will take you home. I will take care of you. I will not leave your side, Tammy. I promise.”

The door opened before I could respond.

A nurse stood hesitantly in the doorway. “Mr. Whitmore, Miss Parker is asking for you. She says she is in pain and insists on seeing you.”

James stilled. I felt it, the exact moment his promise expired.

“I will be right back,” he said, already standing. “Just a few minutes.”

I watched him leave in a rush, his concern swift and urgent, moving in a direction that had never truly included me.

“James,” I murmured to the empty room, my voice steady despite everything. “Do not make promises you cannot keep.”

The door opened again almost immediately.

For a brief, foolish moment, I thought he had returned.

It was Poppy.

She stopped short when she saw me, her hand flying to her mouth as her eyes filled with tears. “Oh my God, Tammy.”

She crossed the room quickly and took my hand, her fingers trembling. “I tried calling you. Over and over. When you did not answer, I called James. He told me you were here.” Her voice broke. “What happened to you?”

“My baby,” I said, the words scraping painfully out of my throat. “I've lost my baby.”

Her face crumpled, and without hesitation she climbed carefully onto the bed beside me and wrapped her arms around me. That was when everything I had been holding back finally broke loose.

I cried until my chest ached and my throat burned, until the question that had been circling inside me tore free. “Why am I so unlucky? What did I do wrong? What happened to my life?”

She cried with me, holding me tightly, whispering that none of it was my fault.

When the storm passed and we pulled apart, she wiped her face and looked at me closely. “The last time we talked, you were so excited. You were planning that dinner. You were going to surprise James. What happened?”

So I told her.

I told her everything.

By the time I finished, her hands were clenched into fists. “I cannot believe this. James? James loved you. I was sure of it.”

“So was I.”

“I want to leave this hospital,” I said after a moment. "Can I move in with you for a while?"

She protested at first, insisting I wasn't strong enough to leave, but when she saw my face, she nodded. “You can stay with me. As long as you need.”

She helped me dress and supported me as we slowly made our way down the corridor toward discharge. That was when we passed Isla’s room.

The door was open.

“I just want Tamsin to take care of me,” Isla said tearfully. “The doctors say it is high risk, but I trust her. She loves you so much, James. I know without a doubt that she will make sure nothing happens to our baby.”

I stopped walking, and just stood there, staring at them.

“She is a doctor, regardless of her field,” Isla continued. “She knows hospitals. She will notice complications early. I will feel safe with her. Then, after the baby is born, I can leave your lives completely and disappear for good.”

James stood beside her bed, visibly uncomfortable. "But Isla..."

“If anything happens to our baby,” Isla added softly, cutting him off, “it will be your fault.”

James exhaled slowly. “Fine,” he gave in. “I will make Tammy take a year off from work to care for your baby, happy now?”

My nails dug into my palms.

Poppy tightened her arm around my waist. I could tell she was struggling to control her anger at this point.

Isla wrapped her arms around James' body, her face radiating joy as she hugged his waist and thanked him for agreeing.

Then, to my surprise, she looked toward the door and her eyes met mine.

She smiled.

And in that moment, I understood that every single action of hers was calculated and planned. She came prepared for battle.

She was winning.

And James, whether he meant to or not, was letting her.

TAMSIN

I stood in the hallway outside Isla's room, my hand gripping Poppy's for balance, and watched through the open doorway as my husband made a phone call that would seal yet another piece of my life away from me.

James had his phone pressed to his ear, his voice professional and steady, the same tone he used when closing business deals or negotiating contracts. He was speaking to the hospital director, my boss, a man whose name carried weight in medical circles but whose influence paled in comparison to the Whitmore family fortune.

"I need you to approve a year's leave for my wife," James said into the phone, his attention entirely focused on the conversation. "She has been through a terrible accident and needs time to recover properly. I trust you understand how important her wellbeing is to me, and I know the hospital values her as much as I do."

There was a pause as the director responded, and I could already imagine the man's eager agreement, his assurances that of course Mrs. Whitmore could take as much time as she needed, that the hospital would support her in every possible way.

James nodded, satisfied. "Thank you. I appreciate your understanding."

He ended the call and slipped the phone back into his pocket, and for a moment I simply stood there, staring at the back of his head, marveling at how easily he could rearrange my entire professional life without even consulting me.

Poppy's hand tightened around mine, her fingers trembling with barely restrained fury.

I turned away before James could notice me, tugging Poppy gently down the corridor toward the discharge desk. Her face had gone red, her jaw clenched so tightly I worried she might crack a tooth, and when we finally reached the waiting area and she helped me into a chair, she leaned close and whispered fiercely.

"You are not taking that leave. You are not letting him control your career like this."

I looked at her, this woman who had been my closest friend for years, who knew me better than almost anyone, and I felt a wave of exhaustion so profound it nearly pulled me under.

"The Whitmore family are shareholders in this hospital," I said quietly. "Major shareholders. The first time I met James, it was here. His entire family uses this hospital. They have influence everywhere, Poppy. The director would never say no to a Whitmore, not when their money keeps half the departments running."

Poppy's anger did not fade, but I saw understanding settle into her expression, a grim acknowledgment of the reality I had been living with for years.

"Help me to my office," I said.

She did, supporting most of my weight as we walked slowly through the familiar corridors, past nurses who looked at me with sympathy and confusion, past doctors who nodded politely but said nothing. When we finally reached my office, I sank into the chair behind my desk and pulled out a sheet of paper.

Poppy watched as I wrote, my hand steady despite everything, the words forming quickly and without hesitation. When I finished, I folded the paper carefully and slipped it into an envelope.

"What is that?" Poppy asked.

"Something necessary," I said.

I stood, slower this time, and together we made our way to the director's office. He was sitting behind his desk when we entered, his expression bright and welcoming, the smile of a man who believed he had just done me an enormous favor.

"Doctor Whitmore," he said warmly. "I have approved your leave. One full year. You can rest and recover from your injuries without worrying about work. We will keep your position open, of course."

"That will not be necessary," I said, and I placed the envelope on his desk.

He looked at it curiously, then back at me. "What is this?"

"My resignation."

The smile disappeared. He stared at me as though I had spoken in a language he did not understand, and when the silence stretched too long, he opened the envelope with fumbling fingers and read the letter inside.

"Doctor Whitmore, please," he said, looking up with something close to distress. "There is no need for this. Take the year off. You will be paid throughout your leave. You are one of our best oncologists. We were planning to promote you next quarter."

"I want to resign," I said simply.

He looked genuinely sad, and I felt a pang of something that might have been regret under different circumstances. He had always treated me fairly, had respected my work and my dedication, but none of that mattered now.

"The best thing you can do for me," I continued, "is write an employer review and give it to me before I leave."

He hesitated, then nodded slowly and turned to his computer. It took him only a few minutes to compose the letter, and when he handed it to me, I thanked him quietly and walked out of his office for the last time.

Outside, Poppy linked her arm through mine. "With that review, you can find work anywhere when you are ready."

"I know," I said.

We drove to the house I had shared with James, the place I had once believed would be my home forever. Poppy parked in the driveway and helped me inside, and the moment we crossed the threshold, she stopped.

There was blood on the floor.

Not just a little. A trail of it, dark and dried, leading from the bedroom to the garage, the path I had crawled when I was bleeding and alone and desperate to save my baby.

Poppy's face went pale, then red, then pale again. Tears filled her eyes.

We walked to the bedroom together, and there was more blood there, pooled beside the bed, staining the floor in a way that no cleaner would ever fully erase.

"Yes," I said softly, my voice breaking despite my best efforts. "There goes my poor baby who was not fortunate enough to see the world."

Poppy pulled me into her arms and we stood there for a long time, crying together in the wreckage of what my life had been.

When we finally pulled apart, she helped me carry my belongings, and we left that house behind.

The next two weeks passed in a haze. I stayed in Poppy's guest room and did not leave except to use the bathroom. James came every day, standing outside with flowers in his hands, kneeling on the pavement, tears streaming down his face as he called my name through the door.

"Tammy, please," he would say. "I never knew you were pregnant. If I had known, I would have taken you to the hospital first. The house is empty without you. I cannot live without you. Please come home."

I never answered.

After two weeks, I got out of bed, showered, dressed in clothes that felt strange on my body, and drove to our family lawyer's office. I sat across from him and explained what I needed, and he drafted the documents without asking questions he already knew the answers to.

When I left his office, I had divorce papers in my hand.

I drove to James's office building, took the elevator to his floor, and walked past his assistant without acknowledging her protests. James looked up when I entered, and his face transformed with relief and joy.

"Tammy," he said, standing quickly and crossing the room to embrace me. "You are here. God, I have missed you. Life has been empty without you."

I stood stiffly in his arms until he released me.

"I came for something important," I said, and I held out the divorce papers.

He stared at them as though they were written in a foreign language. Then his expression changed, something dark and furious rising to the surface, and he snatched the papers from my hand and tore them in half.

"I would rather die," he said, his voice shaking with anger, "than ever let the love of my life go."

"In that case," I said calmly, "I will see you in court."

His laugh was harsh and humorless. "I would like to see the lawyer bold enough to stand against me."

I turned to leave.

He caught my arm at the door, his grip firm but not painful, and when he spoke again, his voice had softened into something that might have been gentleness if I did not know better.

"You have thrown enough tantrums," he said. "I have allowed it because I understand you are grieving. But it is time to stop. Come home. I have missed my wife."

I looked at him, this man I had loved so completely it had rewritten every part of who I was.

"Like I said," I repeated. "I will see you in court."

I pulled my arm free and walked toward the elevator.

His voice followed me down the hallway, cold and final.

"Remember this, Tammy. No one divorces a Whitmore."

I stepped into the elevator and let the doors close between us.