(Sanya’s POV)

I press the blade through the coconut shell and the milk runs over my knuckles, warm from the sun, and I think — two more days. Two more days and I am free.

The porch creaks beneath me as I shift, wedging the coconut between my knees to get a better angle. Aaron's mother's porch has always leaned a little to the left, like the house itself is tired and trying to sit down. I've shelled coconuts here so many times I know which board groans when you step on it, which railing will give if you lean too hard.

Across the yard, Aaron works the fence post back into the ground. The last storm knocked it sideways and he's been saying he'll fix it for two weeks. Now he's actually doing it — shirt damp between the shoulder blades, hair falling into his eyes every time he swings the mallet. He pushes it back with the heel of his hand and swings again, patient, like the fence owes him nothing and he's doing it a favour.

"Derek slammed the door so hard the hinges cracked," I say, not looking up from the coconut. "Over breakfast. Because the eggs were cold."

Aaron doesn't respond right away. He measures the angle of the post with his eye, taps it once more, then glances at me.

"Cold eggs," he repeats.

"Cold eggs."

He nods slowly, like he's filing it somewhere, and goes back to work. That's Aaron. He doesn't jump in with advice or pity or some useless comment about how brothers are just protective. He listens. He holds it for you until you're ready to pick it up again or let it go. Most people listen to respond. Aaron listens like it costs him nothing, like my words are something worth carrying.

"Garrett's worse," I continue, working the blade along the crack in the shell. "At least Derek makes noise. Garrett just... watches. Stands in the doorway and watches me leave like I'm a prisoner on a yard break."

The shell gives. Milk spills across my fingers and down my wrist, and I shake my hand once and wipe it on my skirt.

"They're not my brothers," I say, quieter. "Not really. Not anymore. Brothers carry you on their shoulders when you're small. Brothers teach you songs. Mine watch me like wardens counting the hours until lockdown."

Aaron sets the mallet down and rests his forearms on the fence. He watches me across the yard and there's something in his face that isn't pity — it's steadier than that. Quieter. Like he's already decided to fix this too, the same way he's fixing the fence. Patient and precise and without rushing.

His hands are still braced on the wood. I notice this about him — the way his fingers curl around things. The handle of the hammer. The edge of a beam. He touches the world like it's worth being careful with. There's no force in it, no display. Just a man who understands that things hold together better when you don't shove them into place.

Something about watching him work makes the afternoon stretch out, slow and warm, like time itself would rather stay here than move on to whatever comes next. This porch. This yard. The smell of split coconut and sawdust and the faint sweetness of the garden behind the house. It's more real than anything waiting for me at home, and some afternoons I hate myself for how easy it would be to never leave.

The screen door opens behind me and I hear the cups before I see them — china rattling against china, that soft chattering sound that means Aaron's mother is carrying the tea tray again.

I turn and there she is, both hands gripping the handles, and the tray is doing a little dance because her fingers won't hold still. The cough has been worse this month. Deep and rattling, the kind that starts in the chest and never quite clears, just sinks lower. Last week she coughed so hard in the kitchen that she had to sit down on the floor, and Aaron pretended he didn't see the blood on her handkerchief when he helped her up.

Aaron crosses the yard in four strides and takes the tray from her without a word. No fuss, no gentle scolding. He just reaches and she lets go and the whole exchange takes two seconds. He pours three cups.

He sets the first one in front of me.

Not in front of his mother. Not in front of himself. In front of me. Without being asked. Without making it a gesture. It's so small it could mean nothing.

It means everything.

In this world, she-wolves eat last. The scraps, the leftovers, the cold plate after the men have finished. I grew up watching my mother eat standing up in the kitchen, spooning rice from the pot with the wooden spoon because all the bowls were already on the table. When she married my father, she planned the ceremony herself, chose her own dress, and still she ate last at her own wedding.

Aaron doesn't know any of this. He doesn't serve me first to make a statement. He does it because it occurs to him, naturally, the way breathing occurs to him. Mine first.

That's the reason I noticed him. Not his face, although his face is fine — the kind of face that gets better the longer you look at it, with those warm brown eyes that hold more gold than brown when the sun catches them. Not his voice, although his voice does things to the low part of my spine I have no intention of discussing with anyone. The reason I noticed Aaron — back when we were both at college, before I knew anything about him except the way he carried himself through a crowded lecture hall — was this: the gentlemanly act for me to go first. The door held without thinking. The way he says my name like it's more than a label.

I wrap my hands around the cup and the heat seeps into my palms and I think — this is why.

Aaron's mother settles into the chair beside me, pulling her shawl tighter around her shoulders even though it's warm. She smells like mint and something herbal I can never quite name. She pats my hand once, doesn't say anything, and looks out across the yard with the expression of a woman who has made peace with the things she cannot fix.

"Show her," she says to Aaron.

He gives her a look — somewhere between shy and caught — and goes inside. When he comes back he's holding a cloth bundle. He sets it on the railing and unfolds it carefully, and inside is a mound of shaved coconut, fresh and white, packed tight into the cloth.

"For the trip," he says.

I stare at it. He shaved an entire coconut and packed it for our new beginning like it was the most important supply in the bag.

"When we settle in the new pack," he continues, and now there's that grin — the one that's both shy and proud at the same time, as if he can't believe he's saying this out loud but he's going to say it anyway — "you'll make me a coconut treat on the first morning. A sweet start."

I roll my eyes. I do. I absolutely roll my eyes because if I don't, if I let the fullness in my chest reach my face, I will cry right here on this porch and ruin the afternoon with feelings that are too big for a Tuesday.

"A sweet start," I repeat flatly.

"A sweet start."

"You packed coconut."

"I did."

"Not extra clothes. Not medicine. Not a map."

"I packed those too." He folds the cloth back over the coconut, still grinning. "But those aren't the important things."

The man packed coconut for our elopement. I am in love with an absolute fool and I would follow him anywhere.

Two nights from now. Before dawn. The crossroads where the eastern trail splits toward the river territories. We've gone over the plan so many times I could recite it in my sleep — and I have, whispering the steps to myself in the dark while Garrett's footsteps pace the hallway outside my door.

Derek and Garrett refused Aaron three times. Not enough rank. No father. No bloodline worth mentioning. No wealth. In their minds, a she-wolf from a decent family doesn't attach herself to a man who splits his days between classes and mending fences, who can't afford a proper courtship gift. Never mind that Aaron's hands are steadier than either of theirs, that his silence holds more weight than all of Derek's shouting. They measured him against their pride and found him short.

So we will leave without their permission. Without their blessing. Without looking back.

Aaron's mother knows. She's the one who suggested the crossroads — said the scent trail is harder to follow once you hit the water. She said it with the calm precision of a woman who has thought about running before, and I didn't ask her who she was running from.

Now she reaches for Aaron's wrist, and her hands — those shaking, thin-fingered, stubborn hands — close around him like clamps. She holds on hard enough that I can see the white crescents her nails leave in his skin. She starts to speak. Something low and murmured, half-prayer, half-plea. I catch pieces — safe, and live, and something that might be find your way — but most of it is too quiet, meant for him and the Creator and no one else.

Aaron's jaw tightens. Not the dramatic kind of tightening people put on for show. Just one muscle, just once, the way a man swallows something too large for his throat. The only sign he gives that leaving her is costing him something he cannot name.

She releases him. He pours her more tea. The three of us sit on the crooked porch and drink and nobody talks about what the silence holds.

I leave when the sun touches the trees. Aaron walks me to the gate and his hand brushes the back of mine — not a grab, not a hold. A brush. His knuckles against my knuckles, two seconds of contact so brief I could have imagined it.

"Two days," he says.

"Two days," I answer. And then, because I can't help it: "Don't forget the coconut."

His laugh follows me down the path. Warm. Easy. The kind of sound that makes the air feel different.

I walk home through the village as the light goes golden and everything looks softer than it is. Smoke from cooking fires. Dogs sleeping in the road. Children chasing each other around the water pump, their shrieks thin and bright. My shadow stretches ahead of me, longer than I am, reaching for the treeline before I get there.

I have never shifted. My brothers told me it was weak bloodlines. Bad luck. A defect I was born with, like a bent spine or a missing finger. I accepted it the way you accept the weather — it's just what is.

But I have always sensed things I cannot explain. Aaron's home, for instance. The moment I step onto that porch, something loosens in my chest, some knot I didn't know I was carrying. The air feels lighter. Cleaner. As if the house itself exhales when I arrive and holds its breath when I leave. I don't know what to call it. I don't call it anything. I just know that when I am there, the world makes slightly more sense.

At the edge of the village, near the old stone wall where the path narrows, I pass the shaman.

He's ancient. Bent nearly double, leaning on a staff that might be older than he is. His robes are draped with bone charms that click against each other when the wind moves them — teeth and talons and small carved things I've never looked at closely enough to identify. Everyone in the village gives him space. Not out of respect, exactly. More like the way you walk around a wasp nest. Careful. Quiet. Aware.

He turns his head as I pass. His eyes are milky and sharp at the same time, and they fix on me with a focus that stops my feet.

His lips move.

I don't hear the words. Maybe there are no words. Maybe it's just the wind through those bone charms, just the dry clicking of an old man's teeth. But something crosses the air between us — a feeling. Not warmth. Not cold. The specific, precise chill of a finger drawn down the back of my neck.

She's already here.

I shiver. My skin pulls tight across my shoulders and a line of goosebumps runs down both arms, and I don't know why.

By the time I reach the next bend, the feeling has faded. I shake it off the way you shake off a strange dream — something that left you disturbed in the moment but can't hold up against the waking world.

Two more days. That's what matters. Two more days and I walk to the crossroads before dawn and Aaron will be there with his travel bag and his wrapped coconut and that idiotic, beautiful grin.

Two more days and I will be free.

(Sanya's POV)

I count the stars because counting keeps my hands from shaking. He is late. Aaron is never late.

Fourteen. Fifteen. Sixteen stars in the gap between the branches where the eastern trail splits toward the river. I've been staring at the same patch of sky long enough that the stars have started to blur, and I blink hard and start over. One. Two. Three. The bag sits between my feet with the coconut inside it, wrapped exactly the way he wrapped it, because I couldn't bring myself to rearrange anything he packed.

The crossroads smells like wet earth and pine needles and the faintest trace of something rotting in the undergrowth. A normal smell. A forest smell. Nothing wrong with it except that I'm standing in it alone and Aaron should have been here two hours ago.

One hour, I told myself he was being careful. Taking a longer route. Doubling back to throw off any trail. Smart. Patient. The kind of thing Aaron would do because Aaron thinks before he moves, always has, always —

Two hours, and my hands won't stop.

I press them flat against my thighs. I press them together. I shove them into my pockets and grip the lining until my knuckles ache. Nothing works. They shake like his mother's hands on the tea tray, and the comparison makes my stomach turn because I don't want to think about his mother right now. I don't want to think about her sitting on that porch alone tomorrow morning with no son and no explanation.

"Aaron," I whisper. Not loud enough for anyone to hear. Just his name pushed into the dark like maybe the dark will carry it to him. "Aaron. Please."

The sky is changing. Not sunrise yet, but the threat of it — that grey softening at the edges where the black is losing its nerve. Dawn doesn't come all at once. It creeps. It gives you time to understand that the night is ending and whatever you were waiting for in it is not coming.

I count the stars again. Twenty-three. Twenty-four. Some of them have already faded.

Something is wrong.

I know it the way I know the board on his mother's porch that groans when you step on it. Not because anyone told me. Because my body has learned the weight of this particular feeling and it recognises it before my mind catches up.

I should leave. The plan was clear — if one of us doesn't show by the time the sky starts to turn, the other goes alone. We agreed on this. Aaron insisted on it, actually, with that steady voice he uses when he's already thought something through six different ways and landed on the one that hurts the most. "If I'm not there," he said, "you go. Don't wait. Don't come looking."

I said yes because saying yes was easier than arguing. I had no intention of keeping that promise. None. Not even a little.

The trees are quiet in the wrong way. The kind of quiet that happens when something has moved through recently and the birds haven't decided yet whether it's safe to start up again.

Then I hear footsteps.

My heart slams into my ribs so hard I feel it in my teeth. I take a step forward before I can stop myself, my whole body leaning toward the sound, toward the shape of him coming through the trees because it has to be him, it has to —

The shapes are wrong.

Two figures. Not one. Too broad in the shoulders and moving with the kind of purpose that doesn't belong to a man sneaking away from his pack before dawn. They move like men who own the ground they walk on. Like men who have been looking for something and have found it exactly where they expected.

Derek steps out of the tree line first. Garrett is half a step behind.

For one stupid, useless second, my brain tries to make this something other than what it is. They came to help. They changed their minds. They're here to say goodbye or give their blessing or —

Derek's hand clamps around my wrist and the bone creaks.

"No — "

His fingers dig into the soft part below my palm, right where the tendons run, and the pain is bright and specific and it shoots up my arm into my shoulder. I twist. I pull. I try to wrench free and his grip only tightens, the way you'd hold a dog's collar when it's trying to bolt.

Garrett grabs the other arm. His hands are cold. He doesn't squeeze as hard as Derek but he doesn't need to — his grip is precise, two fingers locked around my wrist like a cuff. They've done this before. Not to me, but the coordination is too smooth, too practised. They've rehearsed this.

"Let go of me — "

I thrash between them and my bag falls and the coconut spills out onto the ground and something about watching it roll into the mud makes my throat close. That idiotic wrapped coconut lying in the dirt at the crossroads where he was supposed to meet me, and my brothers are dragging me backward and —

I see the smoke.

Through the gap in the trees, past the ridge where the trail dips toward Aaron's pack, a column of black pushes into the grey sky. Not a cooking fire. Not a brush burn. This smoke is thick and dark and furious, the kind that comes from something that isn't supposed to be burning.

The sound that comes out of me isn't a word. It starts as his name and breaks apart somewhere in my chest and what reaches the air is just noise. Raw and shredded and so loud that Derek flinches.

"Aaron — AARON — "

Derek's palm slaps over my mouth. It tastes like dirt. Like the iron tang of a man who's been gripping something too hard for too long. I bite down and feel his skin give between my teeth and he hisses but doesn't let go. He presses harder. His hand is big enough to cover my mouth and half my nose and I can barely breathe and I can't scream and the smoke is climbing higher behind the trees and I can't — I can't —

My heels drag grooves in the mud as they pull me. I plant my feet and they lift me. I go limp and they haul me by both arms like a sack of grain. The ground passes under me in streaks of brown and dark. Branches catch at my clothes. Something scratches my ankle and the small pain is so distant it barely registers against everything else.

"Stop fighting," Derek says above me. His voice is winded. Good. I hope I've exhausted him. I hope I've made every step difficult. "You're only making this harder."

I am making this harder. That is exactly the point.

Garrett says nothing for a long time. He drags me with the focused efficiency of a man completing a task, and his silence is worse than Derek's grunting because silence from Garrett always means he's already decided how this goes and nothing I do will change the script.

When he finally speaks, his voice is calm. Rehearsed. The words land with the flat precision of something practised in front of a mirror.

"He never planned to come, Sanya. Men like him use women like you to pass time."

The sentence hits me in a place I didn't know was exposed. Not because I believe it. Not entirely. But because there is a version of this night — a horrible, logical version — where those words make sense. Aaron is not here. He was supposed to be here and he is not. And the smoke is rising from the direction of his home and I don't know what that means and I don't know and I don't —

"You're lying."

"Am I?" Garrett's voice doesn't change. It never changes. Derek shouts and breaks things and his emotions are written across his face in bold letters, but Garrett — Garrett files his cruelty into neat sentences and delivers them without inflection, like he's reading the weather. "Think about it. Really think. Did he ever once put himself at risk for you? Or did he sit on his mother's porch and let you do the planning and the hoping and the dreaming while he fixed fences and waited for something better to come along?"

My throat burns. Not because he's right. Because some tiny, poisoned part of my brain is whispering but what if — and the smoke is still climbing and Aaron is not here and I was standing at that crossroads for two hours counting stars while my hands shook.

"He was coming," I say, and my voice cracks on the last word like a door with a bad hinge.

"He wasn't."

The house appears through the trees. My house. The house I was supposed to leave behind tonight and never see again. It looks the same way it always looks — dark windows, sagging gutters, the broken step Derek has been saying he'll fix for three months. A house that is not a home. A house that is a sentence I've been serving since my parents died and my brothers decided that their sister was a possession to be managed rather than a person to be loved.

They pull me through the front door. Garrett lets go of my wrist and I feel the blood rush back into my fingers, hot and prickling. Derek shoves me forward and I stumble into the hallway and catch myself against the wall.

The door closes behind me.

The bolt slides home.

That sound. The heavy, deliberate click of metal finding metal. It fills the hallway the way water fills a glass. Completely. Without hurry. Without doubt.

I kick the door. Hard. The impact shoots up through my ankle and I kick it again, harder, and again, and the sound is flat and useless and the wood doesn't give and my heel is screaming and I don't care, I kick it until the pain in my foot is louder than the sound in my chest and then I slam both fists against it, open-palmed, the crack of my hands against the wood echoing down the empty hall.

"Let me out — open the — LET ME OUT —"

My voice tears. The screaming doesn't sound like me. It sounds like an animal in a box, which is what I am, and the screaming fills the hallway and bounces off the walls and comes back to me and nobody answers because nobody is going to answer and the screaming is for no one and the kicking is for nothing and I know this, I know it even while I'm doing it, and I can't stop.

I stop.

My hands are shaking against the wood. My ankle is throbbing. My throat is raw. The hallway is quiet again, the kind of quiet that sounds louder after noise.

I press my forehead against the door. The wood is cold. The grain of it presses patterns into my skin.

The smoke.

What was the smoke?

My mind keeps circling back to it the way a dog circles a wound it can't reach. That column of black climbing into the grey sky from the direction of Aaron's pack. Not thin. Not the wispy smoke of a fireplace or a cooking pit. Thick. Angry. The kind of smoke that means something has gone very wrong.

He didn't come.

And there was smoke.

These two facts sit inside my chest like stones, pressing against each other. Either he didn't come because he chose not to — because Garrett is right, because I was a fool, because the man who packed coconut for our sweet start was performing tenderness for a woman too stupid to see through it — or he didn't come because he couldn't. Because something happened. Because that smoke —

I can't finish the thought. I physically cannot make my brain complete the sentence. It starts to form and something in me slams a door on it, locks it, throws the key into a part of my chest I don't have access to. Not yet. Not now. If I think that thought all the way to the end, I will come apart in this hallway and there will be nothing left of me to put back together.

So I hold both versions at the same time. He didn't come because he lied. He didn't come because he couldn't. I am furious at him. I am terrified for him. Both things occupy the same space in my chest and neither one will yield to the other and the pressure of holding them together is the kind of pain that doesn't have a location. It's everywhere. It's the air in my lungs and the blood in my hands and the cold wood against my forehead and the dripping tap in the kitchen and the sound of that bolt sliding home.

I want to scream at him. I want to scream his name until he appears at the crossroads with that grin and some stupid, perfect explanation — sorry, I took the long way, I was being careful, I brought the coconut, I'm here, I'm here, I'm here.

I want to run toward that smoke and claw through whatever is burning until I find him.

I cannot do either of these things. I am standing behind a locked door in a dark hallway with mud drying on my skin and the worst part — the absolute worst part — is that even now, even standing here with Garrett's words still ringing in my skull like a bell that won't stop, even with the possibility that Aaron used me and left me and never intended to show —

I pray for him.

It rises up before I can stop it. Not words, exactly. Not anything I could write down or repeat. Just a feeling that shapes itself into something aimed upward and outward, toward whatever is listening, toward the Creator or the sky or the dark or whatever holds this world together when everything in it seems determined to come apart.

Creator. If you're listening. Wherever he is. Whatever happened. Please.

Protect him.

Even if he left me. Even if he lied. Even if every word Garrett said is true and I'm a fool who counted stars for two hours waiting for a man who was never coming.

Keep him safe.

Please.

I hate how easily the prayer comes. I hate that it's the first thing I reach for. Not anger. Not self-pity. Not the cold, practical voice that should be telling me to assess my situation and make a plan and figure out how to get out of this house. No. My first instinct — my deepest, stupidest, most stubborn instinct — is to pray for the man who didn't show up.

Anger doesn't erase concern. I know this now. I know it the way I know the creak of the third board on his mother's porch. Instinctively. Without question. Without choice.

I slide down the door until I'm sitting on the floor with my knees drawn up and my back against the wood. The hallway is dark. The tap drips. Somewhere outside, beyond the walls I can't see past, the smoke is still rising.

I press my palms against my eyes until I see stars. The kind that come from pressure and grief and exhaustion. 

Aaron must be out there somewhere, looking for me. He must be worried, anxious, thinking of a way to get to me.

I’m sure of it.

I fold my arms around my knees and I hold on. 

The night doesn't end. It just goes thin and grey at the edges, leaking light through the gap under the door, and behind the locked bolt the world keeps turning whether I want it to or not.

(Sanya’s POV)

I have not left this room in three days. I know because I have counted every meal they slid under the door — six trays, two a day, and I have eaten from four of them.

The first tray I threw against the wall. Rice and stewed vegetables hit the plaster and slid down in a slow, satisfying smear that looked exactly the way I felt. The second tray I ignored on principle. By the third I was hungry enough to stop being dramatic, and the fourth and fifth I ate sitting on the floor with my back against the bed because the chair was too close to the window and the window faced east and east was the direction of the smoke and I couldn't look at that sky without my lungs forgetting how to work.

The sixth tray is sitting by the door right now. I haven't decided yet.

My phone was the first thing they took. Before the bolt even slid home, Garrett's hand was out — flat, open, patient, the way you'd ask a child to hand over something they shouldn't have. I gave it to him because the alternative was watching him take it, and I wasn't going to give him that satisfaction. Without it, the silence has no cracks. No way to reach anyone. No way to know if anyone is trying to reach me.

Three days in a room I've slept in my entire life, and it has never felt this small. The walls are the same faded yellow they've always been. The ceiling still has that water stain shaped like a crooked hand. My books are still on the shelf, lined up in the order I arranged them when I was fourteen — alphabetical, because fourteen-year-old Sanya believed that if everything had its proper place then the world would behave accordingly.

Fourteen-year-old Sanya was an idiot. But I miss her confidence.

The silence is the worst part. Not the locked door. Not the trays. Not even the fact that my brothers have turned this room into a cell with a bedspread. It's the silence. Three days of it, pressing against the walls like something physical, filling the space where sounds should be — footsteps on a path, a mallet against wood, the clink of a teacup being set down on a railing.

His footsteps.

I catch myself doing it on the second morning. My body goes still in the middle of reaching for the water glass, my head tilted toward the door, my ears straining for a sound that isn't coming. Footsteps on the hall floorboards. His particular rhythm — unhurried, even, the walk of a man who has never needed to rush because he trusts himself to arrive exactly when he means to.

I'm listening for Aaron.

I curl my fingers into my palms and press. Hard. The nails dig into the soft part below my fingers and the pain is small and sharp and specific, and it gives me something to focus on that isn't the door. White crescents appear in my skin. Four on each hand. I stare at them until they fade, and then I press again because the silence is still there and my ears are still tilted toward the hallway and I cannot — I will not — listen for a man who did not come.

He did not come.

Those four words are the only furniture in my head now. They sit in the centre of every thought like a table I keep walking into. I wake up and there they are. I eat and there they are. I lie in the dark and count the cracks in the ceiling and there they are, waiting, patient, immovable.

He did not come.

Garrett's version is simpler. Cleaner. He never planned to come. Men like him use women like you to pass time. It's a tidy sentence. It wraps the whole thing up in a bow — no loose ends, no questions, no room for the kind of doubt that eats you from the inside. If I believed Garrett's version, I could be angry. Angry is clean. Angry has edges you can hold onto.

But there's the smoke.

That column of black climbing into the grey sky from the direction of his pack. I keep seeing it every time I close my eyes — thick and wrong, the kind of smoke that doesn't come from accidents. And the question that lives underneath Garrett's tidy sentence, the one I can't stop circling: if Aaron never planned to come, then what was burning?

The silence doesn't answer. The silence does what my brothers' words couldn't. It takes Garrett's sentence and plants it in the quiet the way you plant a seed in wet earth, and three days of nothing — no Aaron, no message, no explanation, no footsteps on the hall floor — give it time to grow roots.

By the third evening, the seed has become something I can almost believe. Not completely. Not all the way down. But enough that when I press my nails into my palms, I'm not sure anymore whether I'm stopping myself from listening for him or punishing myself for still wanting to.

On the third evening, the bolt slides back.

I hear it from the bed where I've been lying on my side staring at the wall, which is a deeply productive use of my time. The click of metal and then the creak of hinges and then Garrett's voice, careful and measured, as if the words have been rehearsed: "Come downstairs."

I don't move right away. Not because I'm being defiant. Because my body has spent three days in a space the size of a closet and it has forgotten that other rooms exist.

"Sanya."

"I heard you."

I sit up. My hair is a disaster. My clothes are the same ones I wore to the crossroads — mud still on the hem, dirt still under my nails from when I clawed at the ground while they dragged me. I look like a woman who has been locked in a room for three days, which is exactly what I am, so at least my appearance is honest.

The kitchen table is set with tea and cups and a plate of biscuits arranged in a careful circle, as if the presentation of snacks can make whatever is about to happen feel civilised. Derek sits on one side. Garrett on the other. The chair at the head of the table is empty. The chair at the foot — the one that used to be my mother's — is pulled out, waiting for me.

I sit. I don't touch the tea.

Derek opens his mouth and Garrett puts a hand on his arm — a small gesture, barely visible, but I see it and I understand it. Derek is not allowed to go first. Derek will make this worse. Garrett is the one with the script.

"We've made an arrangement," Garrett says. He doesn't look at me when he says it. He looks at the table, at the biscuits, at his own hands folded in front of him. "Alpha Tyron Stone of the Blood Moon Pack has expressed interest in a union."

The words land in the kitchen like stones dropped into still water. I feel the ripples spread outward through my chest, through my stomach, through the backs of my knees where something goes cold and liquid.

"A union," I repeat. My voice sounds like it belongs to someone else. Someone calmer. Someone who is watching this happen from across the room instead of sitting in the chair with her dirty nails and her mud-stained hem.

"He's an Alpha," Derek says, and Garrett's hand tightens on his arm but Derek pushes through it the way he pushes through everything — with force and no finesse. "A real Alpha, Sanya. Blood Moon Pack. That's power. That's protection. That's a future that actually means something."

"For whom?" The question slips out before I can stop it, and I see Garrett's jaw tighten the way it does when a conversation is departing from the script.

"For this family," Garrett says quietly. "For our parents' legacy. For the reputation they spent their lives building. This is what they would have wanted."

Our parents. He's invoking our parents.

My mother who planned her own wedding and chose her own dress and ate last at her own reception but never — not once, not for a single day of her life — lost her posture. My father who served her first at every meal. My parents who loved each other with the kind of steady, unperformative devotion that didn't need an audience.

And Garrett is sitting at my mother's kitchen table telling me that they would have wanted their daughter sold to a stranger because their sons couldn't be bothered to ask her what she wanted.

I look at Derek. I search his face for the boy who carried me on his shoulders through the market when I was five. The boy who made up songs about dragons and taught me to whistle with two fingers. I look for him — really look, the way you look for something you've dropped in the dark, on your hands and knees, running your fingers across the floor.

I find nothing.

I look at Garrett. I search for the boy who read to me when I couldn't sleep. The boy who braided my hair on school mornings because our mother was already at work and he was the only one with the patience to get the parts even.

Nothing.

These are not my brothers. These are men who wear my brothers' faces and sit in my brothers' chairs and invoke my parents' names to justify decisions that my parents would have burned this house down before making. These are strangers with authority over my life, and they are using it with the calm, administrative efficiency of men filling out paperwork.

"You've never met him," I say. It's not a question.

"I have," Garrett says. "Briefly. At a council gathering. He's — impressive."

"Impressive."

"Powerful. Well-positioned. The pack is strong."

"And what am I in this arrangement? The dowry? The signing bonus?"

Derek's face flushes. Garrett's doesn't change. Garrett's face never changes. He has spent twenty-seven years practising the art of looking like nothing affects him, and he has perfected it to the point where I sometimes wonder if he's actually feeling anything behind those flat brown eyes or if the machinery has simply replaced the man.

"You're the Luna," Garrett says. "You'd be his Luna. That's not nothing, Sanya."

"I didn't say it was nothing. I said I'm a person, not a contract term."

The kitchen is very quiet. The tap drips. A floorboard settles somewhere overhead. The biscuits sit in their careful circle and nobody eats them.

I could fight this. I could scream and throw the tea and refuse and make it ugly and loud and dramatic, and at the end of it I would still be sitting in this chair because I have nowhere else to go. My brothers control the pack structure. No other pack will take in a she-wolf who publicly defies her guardians — that's not courage in this world, it's contamination. I have no allies, no money of my own, no way to reach Aaron even if I knew where he was. Even if he was still —

I stop the thought. Press my nails into my palms. The crescents are deeper this time.

If this is my life now, then I will live it the way my mother lived hers. Not with joy. Not with belief. But with posture. My mother scrubbed floors in her early marriage. She cleaned and cooked and served and endured, and through all of it she kept her back straight and her chin level and she never — not when the money ran out, not when the neighbours whispered, not when the world told her she was less — she never let them see her fold.

I will not fold.

If I am going to walk into a marriage I did not choose, in a pack I have never seen, beside a man I have never met, I will do it with my chin up and my shoulders back and whatever is left of my dignity held between my teeth like a blade.

"Fine," I say.

One word. It leaves my mouth and the air in the kitchen changes — something settles, something tightens, something closes. I feel it the way you feel a door shutting in a house you're standing inside. Not the slam. The click.

Derek exhales. The relief in it is so obvious it's almost funny. He's been holding his breath, I realise. Genuinely holding his breath, as if the possibility of my refusal was something his lungs couldn't accommodate. He reaches for a biscuit and bites into it and the crunch is offensively casual.

Garrett nods once. That's all. One nod, as if I've confirmed a delivery time or agreed to a meeting, and the transaction is complete.

I push back from the table and stand. My legs are steady. My hands are not shaking. My face is the blank, carefully composed face I have been practising since I was old enough to understand that showing a man your feelings is the same as handing him a weapon.

I walk back to my room. The door is open now — they didn't lock it behind me. How generous. A cell with visiting hours.

I sit on the edge of the bed. The water stain on the ceiling is still shaped like a crooked hand. The books are still alphabetical. The sixth tray is still by the door, untouched.

And somewhere behind my ribs, behind the blank face and the straight posture and the single word that closed the door — somewhere in the part of me that I have just locked from the inside — there is a porch. A crooked porch that leans to the left. A mallet against wood. A cloth bundle with shaved coconut packed tight. A cup set down first, without being asked.

A grin. Shy and proud at the same time.

A sweet start.

I close that door. I turn the lock myself. Not because the memory deserves to be shut away, but because carrying it into whatever comes next would break me, and I have already decided that I will not break.

Alpha Tyron Stone of the Blood Moon Pack.

My future husband.

A man I have never met.

I pull the sixth tray toward me and eat the rice cold, because she-wolves eat last and I might as well start practising now.