I should have left after the third martini.

Should have grabbed Maya's hand, walked out of The Vault, and gone back to the safety of her apartment where I could pretend Alexander Lockwood was just another strange encounter in a city full of them.

But I didn't.

Because twenty minutes after he walked away, a server appeared at our table with two fresh martinis we hadn't ordered.

"From Mr. Lockwood," she said, setting them down. "He's in the private booth in the back corner. He'd like to know if you'd join him for a conversation."

Maya's eyes went wide. "Are you kidding me?"

"Should I tell him no?" the server asked.

I looked at the martini. At Maya's concerned face. At the choice in front of me.

Safe or dangerous.

Hidden or seen.

"Tell him yes," I said.

"Diana-"

"I know. I know this is insane. But Maya, I need to know what he wants. Why he approached me. Why he said those things." I grabbed my clutch. "If I'm not back in thirty minutes, come find me."

"Fifteen minutes. And I'm timing you."

I followed the server through the crowd, weaving between bodies and conversations, until we reached a secluded area in the back. The booth was tucked behind a velvet curtain, private enough to be intimate without being completely hidden.

Xander sat alone, his jacket off, tie loosened slightly. He looked less intimidating without the full armor of his suit. Almost human.

Almost.

"You came," he said.

"You sent martinis. I was curious about your intentions."

"My intentions are to have a conversation. Nothing more sinister than talking." He gestured to the seat across from him. "Sit. Please."

I slid into the booth, keeping my distance. The space felt too small suddenly, the air charged with something I couldn't name.

"Your friend looks like she wants to murder me," Xander observed.

I glanced back. Maya was watching from across the room, phone in hand, looking ready to call the police.

"She's protective."

"Good. You should have people who protect you." He pushed one of the martinis toward me. "I apologize for earlier. I have a tendency to be too direct. My sister says I have the social skills of a particularly aggressive shark."

"Your sister sounds wise."

"She's a pain in the ass. But yes, occasionally wise." He took a sip of his own drink. "So. Diana. Tell me about yourself."

"What do you want to know?"

"What do you do? Or perhaps, what did you do before whatever happened to make you carry yourself like you're trying to disappear?"

I tensed. "Who says something happened?"

"Your posture. The way you scan the room. People don't move through the world like someone who's afraid of being recognized unless they have a reason." He tilted his head. "You don't have to tell me. I'm just curious what makes someone who clearly doesn't belong in places like this show up anyway."

"My friend dragged me here."

"Did she? Or did you want to prove something to yourself?"

The observation was too sharp, too accurate. I took a long sip of my martini to buy time.

"I was an events manager," I said finally. "At a high-end restaurant."

"Was?"

"Was."

"And now?"

"And now I'm figuring out what comes next."

Xander studied me with those unsettling eyes. "Let me guess. Something went wrong. Publicly. Spectacularly. And now you're unemployed and trying to decide whether to rebuild or give up entirely."

"You make a lot of assumptions."

"I'm good at reading people. It's how I've survived in business." He leaned back. "So which is it? Rebuilding or giving up?"

"I don't know yet."

"Fair answer." He swirled his drink. "Tell me about the work. What kind of events did you manage?"

"Weddings mostly. Corporate galas. Anniversary parties. High-end clients with expectations bordering on impossible."

"And you met those expectations?"

"I did. For three years, I made the impossible happen." The pride in my voice surprised me. "I turned chaos into perfection. Bridezillas into satisfied brides. Disasters into triumphs."

"So you were good at it."

"I was excellent at it."

"Past tense?"

I swallowed hard. "The industry has a short memory for success and a long memory for scandal."

"Ah. So there was a scandal." He said it matter-of-factly, without judgment. "Want to talk about it?"

"No."

"Then we won't." He shifted topics seamlessly. "What made you love it? The events work."

The question caught me off guard. Nobody had asked me what I loved about my job in weeks. Only what had gone wrong.

"The problem-solving," I said slowly. "Every event was a puzzle. A hundred moving pieces requiring precision timing. And when it all came together perfectly, when the bride cried happy tears or the CEO gave a speech about how flawless everything was, I knew. I knew I'd created something meaningful."

"You made people's dreams real."

"I made their perfect moments possible. Which sounds cheesy, but yes. I gave people memories."

"Not cheesy. Valuable." Xander leaned forward slightly. "People spend their whole lives chasing perfect moments. You created them on demand. Most people can't do something like this."

"Most people don't have everything stripped away when one thing goes wrong."

"One thing? Or someone?"

I looked at him sharply. "What makes you think someone was involved?"

"Because bad things don't just happen to competent people. Someone usually makes them happen. Incompetence, malice, or occasionally both." He took another sip. "You don't strike me as incompetent. Which means someone made your life difficult on purpose."

"You're perceptive."

"I'm observant. There's a difference." He set down his glass. "Tell me something. Before everything went wrong, what was the best event you ever managed?"

I found myself smiling despite everything. "The Ashford wedding. Two years ago. The original planner had a nervous breakdown three weeks before the ceremony. Everything was chaos. The bride was hysterical. They brought me in last minute to save it."

"And you did."

"I did. Eighty guests, four-course dinner, orchestra, custom florals. I coordinated seventeen vendors, mediated a family feud, and convinced a Michelin-starred chef to create an entirely new dessert course in forty-eight hours." The memory was bittersweet now. "I barely slept for three weeks. But when the bride walked down the aisle and everything was perfect, when she hugged me afterward and cried and said I'd given her the most beautiful day of her life, I knew. I knew I was good at this."

"You loved it."

"I did. I loved every impossible, chaotic, exhausting moment of it."

"So why did you stay at one restaurant? Why not start your own company?"

The question hit a nerve. "How do you know I didn't?"

"Because you said 'was' an events manager. Not 'am' a business owner. And because someone with your talent and passion would have gone independent by now unless something held you back."

"Someone," I said quietly. "My ex-fiancé. He said it was too risky. Said I should build more experience before gambling on something unstable."

"And you listened to him."

"I was young. Stupid. In love. Pick your excuse."

"Those aren't excuses. They're reasons. There's a difference." Xander's expression softened slightly. "But you're not with him anymore."

"No. I'm not."

"So now you're free to take the risks he wouldn't let you take."

"I'm also blacklisted, broke, and living on my best friend's couch. Not exactly prime entrepreneurial conditions."

"Some of the best companies in the world were started by people at rock bottom. Nothing left to lose makes you dangerous." He studied me. "Are you dangerous, Diana?"

"I used to be competent. I don't know what I am anymore."

"You're sitting in a private booth with a stranger in an exclusive club, having a conversation you probably shouldn't be having. I'd say there's still some danger left in you."

Despite everything, I laughed. It surprised me, bubbling up from somewhere I thought had died. A real laugh, not the polite sounds I'd made for years at Leo's dinner parties.

Xander smiled, the expression transforming his face. "There it is."

"What?"

"The first genuine emotion I've seen from you all night. Everything else has been armor. But something like this was real."

"Maybe I don't like being analyzed."

"Maybe you're tired of people who don't bother to look beneath the surface." He signaled the server for another round. "Tell me something nobody knows about you."

"Why would I tell you anything?"

"Because I'm a stranger. Because this conversation ends when you walk away. Because sometimes it's easier to be honest with someone who has no stake in your life."

He was right. There was something freeing about talking to someone who knew nothing about me beyond what he'd observed.

"I wanted to study hospitality design in Europe," I said. The words came out before I could stop them. "Paris. Milan. Learn from the best. Come back and build something no one had seen before. Events as immersive art experiences, not just dinner and dancing."

"What stopped you?"

"Life. My father. Leo. The usual excuses people make when they're too afraid to chase what they want."

"And now?"

"And now those excuses are gone. But so is everything else."

"Not everything. You still have the dream. Dreams are the only things worth having when you've lost everything else."

We talked for another hour. The conversation flowed easier than it should have between strangers. He asked about my mother, and I found myself telling him about the accident, about growing up with a father who remarried too fast and a stepsister who made my childhood a war zone.

He told me about his own family. A mother who valued appearance over substance. A sister who rebelled by becoming an artist. A father who died when Xander was twenty-two, leaving him an empire and expectations he'd spent a decade exceeding.

"You're not what I expected," I said finally.

"What did you expect?"

"Someone colder. More calculating. You came over like a predator, all intensity and analysis. But you're..."

"Human?"

"Surprisingly easy to talk to."

"I'm only cold with people who bore me. You don't bore me." He checked his watch, a platinum piece more expensive than my former rent. "It's late. Your friend is probably ready to storm over here and rescue you."

I glanced toward where Maya had been sitting. She was standing now, phone in hand, looking worried.

"I should go."

"Before you do, I have a question. Have you ever seen a Rothko up close?"

The sudden shift confused me. "The painter? No. Why?"

"I have a private collection. Upstairs. Three Rothkos, two Pollocks, a Basquiat, and several pieces from contemporary artists most people haven't heard of yet." He stood, extending his hand. "I'd like to show you."

Every alarm bell in my head started ringing. Private collection. Upstairs. Alone with a man I'd met two hours ago.

"That's not-"

"I'm not propositioning you, Diana. I'm offering to show you art. The collection is in a gallery space The Vault maintains for members. There are security cameras everywhere. Your friend can come if you want. But the Rothkos are extraordinary, and you strike me as someone who appreciates beauty."

I should say no. Should thank him for the drinks and the conversation and walk away before this went somewhere dangerous.

But when I looked at Xander, I didn't see danger. I saw someone who'd made me laugh for the first time in weeks. Someone who'd asked about my dreams instead of my disasters.

Someone who looked at me and saw more than shame.

"Okay," I said. "Show me the Rothkos."

His smile was slow, satisfied. Like I'd just passed some test I didn't know I was taking.

"Follow me."

He led me out of the booth, his hand barely touching the small of my back. The contact sent electricity through the silk of Maya's dress.

I caught Maya's eye across the room and held up my phone, mouthing "fifteen minutes."

She shook her head, looking terrified. But she didn't stop me.

Xander guided me toward a private elevator in the back corner of the club. The doors opened silently, revealing mirrored walls and soft lighting.

We stepped inside.

The doors closed.

And I realized I'd just agreed to go somewhere private with a man who'd dissected parts of my soul with careful questions and made me want to show him more.

"The gallery is beautiful," Xander said as the elevator rose. "Most people never see it. But I think you'll appreciate it."

"Why?"

"Because you understand the value of things appearing one way on the surface but revealing themselves to be something else entirely when examined closely."

The elevator stopped. The doors opened.

And I stepped into whatever came next, equal parts terrified and exhilarated.

Not knowing this moment would change everything.

The gallery space stretched before us, and despite everything, despite the warning voices screaming in my head, all I felt was alive.

For the first time in weeks, Diana Pembroke felt alive.

The gallery was breathtaking.

Floor-to-ceiling windows overlooked the Manhattan skyline, the city glittering like scattered diamonds against black velvet. The space itself was minimal, white walls and polished concrete floors, designed to let the art breathe.

And the art was extraordinary.

A massive Rothko dominated one wall, blocks of deep crimson and orange that seemed to pulse with their own light. Beside it, a Pollock exploded in controlled chaos, black and white splatters frozen in motion.

But it was the sculpture in the center of the room that stopped me cold.

Two figures, bronze and intertwined, caught in a moment of desperate intimacy. Their bodies pressed together, limbs tangled, faces hidden in each other's necks. The craftsmanship was exquisite, every muscle defined, every curve deliberate. It was beautiful and raw and profoundly erotic.

"That's 'Dissolution' by Philip Owen," Xander said, coming to stand beside me. "He's relatively unknown, but I think he's brilliant."

"It's..." I couldn't find the words. The sculpture radiated hunger. Not just physical desire but emotional need, two people trying to lose themselves in each other.

"Honest?" Xander supplied.

"Yes. Honest."

We stood there in silence, both staring at the bronze figures. The air between us felt charged, electric. I was acutely aware of how close he was standing. Close enough that I could smell his cologne. Close enough to feel the heat radiating from his body.

"What do you see when you look at it?" Xander asked, his voice low.

"Two people trying to forget."

"Forget what?"

"Everything. Who they are. What they've lost. The world outside." I swallowed hard. "Using each other as an escape."

"Is that what you want? To escape?"

I turned to look at him. His eyes were dark, pupils dilated. The intensity from earlier had returned, but now it was laced with something else. Something dangerous.

"Yes," I whispered.

"From what?"

"Everything. My life. My failure. The weight of being me." The martinis had loosened something inside me. Or maybe it was him. Maybe it was the way he looked at me like I was a puzzle worth solving. "I'm so tired of carrying it all."

"Then put it down."

"I don't know how."

"Yes, you do." He stepped closer. Not touching, but close enough that the air between us disappeared. "You know exactly how. You're just afraid to take it."

My heart was hammering. "Take what?"

"What you need."

The sculpture seemed to pulse in my peripheral vision. Two bodies tangled together, seeking oblivion.

"I don't know what I need," I said.

"Liar." His hand came up slowly, giving me time to move away. I didn't. His fingers brushed my cheek, feather-light. "You need to stop thinking. Stop carrying. Stop being the good girl who does everything right and still gets destroyed."

"And how do I do something like this?"

"You let go."

His thumb traced my lower lip. The touch sent fire through my veins.

"Xander-"

"Tell me to stop." His voice was rough. "Tell me you don't want this and I'll take you back downstairs. We'll forget this happened."

But I didn't want to forget. For the first time in weeks, I felt something other than pain. I felt alive. I felt wanted. I felt like someone other than the girl who'd lost everything.

"I don't want you to stop."

The words had barely left my mouth before his lips were on mine.

The kiss was nothing like Leo's careful, controlled affection. This was hunger. Raw and desperate and consuming. Xander's hand tangled in my hair, tilting my head back as he deepened the kiss. His other hand found my waist, pulling me against him.

I gasped against his mouth and he took advantage, his tongue sliding against mine. The taste of gin and something darker, something uniquely him. My hands found his chest, feeling the hard muscle beneath the expensive shirt.

He walked me backward until my back hit the cool glass of the window. The city sprawled below us, millions of lights and lives, but all I could feel was him. His body pressed against mine. His mouth moving from my lips to my jaw to the sensitive spot below my ear.

"Tell me if you want me to stop," he breathed against my neck.

"Don't stop."

His hands slid down my sides, mapping the curves of Maya's borrowed dress. When he reached my thighs, he gripped them, lifting me effortlessly. I wrapped my legs around his waist, gasping at the friction, at the hardness I could feel pressing against me.

"Not here," he said, his voice strained. "Come home with me."

"Where?"

"The Peninsula. I have a suite."

I should have said no. Should have pulled away, straightened my dress, returned to Maya and the safety of making good decisions.

But I was so tired of good decisions.

Good decisions had given me Leo. Had given me a career that imploded. Had given me a life where I tried to be perfect and ended up with nothing.

"Yes," I said.

Xander set me down gently, but kept one hand on my waist like he was afraid I'd disappear. "You're sure?"

"I'm sure."

He pulled out his phone, typing something quickly. "My car will be downstairs in two minutes."

We took the elevator down. The descent felt both too fast and agonizingly slow. Xander stood close but didn't touch me, like he was giving me space to change my mind. But I could feel his eyes on me, burning.

The main floor of The Vault was still pulsing with music and bodies. Maya spotted us immediately, rushing over.

"Di, are you okay? Where did you go? I was about to-" She stopped, taking in my flushed face, my swollen lips, the way Xander's hand rested possessively on my lower back. "Oh."

"I'm going with him," I said.

"Diana-"

"I know what I'm doing."

"Do you?" Maya grabbed my hand, pulling me aside. Xander stepped back, giving us privacy. "Di, you just met him. You don't know anything about him. This isn't like you."

"Exactly. Being like me got me nowhere. Maybe it's time to be someone else."

"This is the alcohol talking."

"Most likely. Or maybe it's me finally doing something I want instead of something I should." I squeezed her hand. "I'll be careful. I promise."

"Text me when you get there. And in the morning. And if anything feels wrong, call me immediately and I'll come get you."

"I will."

I hugged her, then returned to Xander. His expression was unreadable.

"Your friend is right to worry," he said as we walked toward the exit. "You don't know me."

"Do you want me to change my mind?"

"No. But I want you to be certain."

I stopped, forcing him to look at me. "I'm certain I want to forget tonight. I'm certain I want to feel something other than miserable. I'm certain I want you. Is something like this enough?"

His eyes darkened. "More than enough."

A black car waited outside, sleek and expensive. The driver opened the door and we slid into the back seat. The privacy screen was already up.

The moment the door closed, Xander pulled me onto his lap. His mouth found mine again, hungrier this time, less controlled. My dress rode up as I straddled him, silk pooling around my hips.

His hands roamed my back, found the zipper of the dress. "Can I?"

"Yes."

He pulled the zipper down slowly, the sound loud in the quiet car. The dress loosened, and I shrugged it off my shoulders, letting it pool at my waist. I wasn't wearing a bra under the dress. Hadn't needed one with the fitted bodice.

Xander's breath caught. His hands came up to cup my breasts, thumbs circling my nipples. The sensation shot straight through me and I arched into his touch.

"Beautiful," he murmured, before lowering his head to take one nipple into his mouth.

I gasped, my hands fisting in his hair. He sucked and licked and bit gently, giving the same attention to each breast until I was grinding against him, desperate for more friction.

His hand slid between us, pushing aside the silk of my underwear. When his fingers found me, slick and ready, he groaned.

"So wet already."

"Please."

"Please what?"

"Touch me."

He did, his fingers circling and stroking with maddening precision. I buried my face in his neck, trying to muffle my moans as he built the pressure higher and higher.

"Don't hide," he commanded. "I want to hear you."

His thumb found my most sensitive spot and pressed, and I shattered. The orgasm crashed through me, leaving me shaking and gasping in his arms.

"We're here, Mr. Lockwood," the driver's voice came through the intercom, carefully neutral.

I scrambled off Xander's lap, pulling my dress back up. My face burned with embarrassment. The driver had definitely heard.

Xander seemed completely unbothered. He helped me zip the dress, then pressed a kiss to my shoulder. "Come."

The Peninsula was understated elegance. We crossed the lobby quickly, Xander's hand on my lower back, guiding me to a private elevator. He swiped a key card and pressed the button for the top floor.

The moment the doors closed, we were on each other again. Xander pinned me against the wall, his thigh pressed between my legs as we kissed with desperate intensity.

The elevator stopped. We stumbled out into a private hallway. Only one door. Xander fumbled with the key card, finally getting it open.

The penthouse was stunning. Floor-to-ceiling windows, modern furniture, a view of Central Park lit up in the darkness. But I barely registered any of it because Xander was already unzipping my dress again, sliding it down my body.

I stood before him in nothing but heels and a scrap of lace underwear.

"Bedroom," he said, his voice rough.

"Where?"

He lifted me effortlessly, my legs wrapping around his waist as he carried me through the suite. The bedroom was dominated by a massive bed, white sheets and too many pillows. He set me down gently on the edge.

Then he stepped back, loosening his tie.

I watched as he undressed. The tie first, then the shirt, revealing a body of hard muscle and smooth skin. He was beautiful in a way models were beautiful, all lean strength and perfect proportions.

When he reached for his belt, I stood. "Let me."

My hands were shaking as I unbuckled his belt, unzipped his pants. I pushed them down along with his underwear and he stepped out of them.

He was hard, impressive, and the sight of him made my mouth go dry.

"Your turn," he said, reaching for my underwear. He slid the lace down my legs and I stepped out of it, completely bare except for the heels.

"Leave those on," he said.

He walked me backward until my knees hit the bed. I fell back and he followed, covering my body with his. The feeling of skin on skin, nothing between us, was overwhelming.

"Tell me what you like," he said, kissing down my neck.

"I don't know."

He pulled back, looking at me. "You don't know?"

"Leo was... conventional. Missionary. Lights off. Quick."

Something dark flashed in Xander's eyes. "Then we're going to find out what you like."

He kissed his way down my body, paying attention to every sensitive spot. Behind my ear. The hollow of my throat. The curve of my breast. The soft skin of my inner thigh.

When his mouth finally found me, I cried out. Nothing had ever felt like this. His tongue moved with the same precision as his fingers in the car, but the sensation was entirely different. Wetter. Hotter. More intense.

He used his fingers too, sliding them inside me while his mouth worked my most sensitive spot. The combination was devastating. I gripped the sheets, my hips lifting to meet him as he pushed me higher and higher.

"Xander, I'm going to-"

"Come for me, Diana."

I shattered again, the orgasm even more powerful than the first. Wave after wave of pleasure crashed through me until I was shaking and gasping his name.

He kissed his way back up my body, settling between my legs. I could feel him, hard and ready, pressing against me.

"Condom," he said, reaching for the nightstand.

I watched as he rolled it on, then positioned himself at my entrance. He pushed in slowly, giving me time to adjust. The stretch was intense, almost too much, but not painful.

"Okay?" he asked, his control clearly costing him.

"Yes. Move."

He did, pulling out almost completely before sliding back in. The rhythm was slow at first, measured, but as I met each thrust with my own movement, it became faster. Harder. More desperate.

I wrapped my legs around his waist, taking him deeper. He groaned, burying his face in my neck as he moved. One hand found my breast, kneading and pinching. The other slid between us, finding where we were joined.

The dual sensation was too much. I came again, clenching around him, and he followed moments later with a guttural moan of my name.

We lay tangled together, breathing hard. Sweat cooled on our skin. The city glittered outside the windows, oblivious to what had just happened in this room.

Xander shifted, pulling out carefully and disposing of the condom. Then he returned, pulling me against his chest.

We lay in silence for a while. His hand traced lazy patterns on my back. Outside, sirens wailed. Inside, I felt something I hadn't felt in weeks.

Peace.

"What are you thinking?" Xander asked.

"I'm not thinking. For the first time in weeks, my brain is quiet."

"Is this what you needed?"

"Yes." I tilted my head to look at him. "Was this what you needed?"

"I needed to see if you felt as good as I imagined."

"And?"

"Better."

He kissed me again, slow and deep. His hands roamed my body, relearning curves he'd already memorized. The kiss deepened, grew more heated.

I felt him hardening against my hip.

"Again?" I asked.

"If you want."

I did want. I wanted to lose myself in sensation. Wanted to forget who I was and what had happened to me. Wanted to be someone new, someone who took what she wanted without apology.

"Yes," I said. "Again."

This time was slower. He took his time exploring my body, finding spots I didn't know were sensitive. Behind my knee. The small of my back. The curve where my neck met my shoulder.

He positioned me on my hands and knees, entering me from behind. The angle was different, deeper, hitting spots the first time hadn't reached. His hand fisted in my hair, not painfully, but possessively.

"Is this okay?" he asked.

"Yes. God, yes."

He moved with controlled power, each thrust deliberate. His other hand reached around, finding where I needed him most. The combination of sensations built to an impossible peak.

When I came this time, I screamed. The sound was raw, primal, nothing like the quiet gasps Leo had coaxed from me.

Xander followed, his grip tightening on my hips as he shuddered through his own release.

We collapsed onto the bed, limbs tangled. My body felt liquid, every muscle relaxed in a way I hadn't experienced in years.

"Water?" Xander asked.

"Please."

He returned with two bottles, and we drank in comfortable silence. The sheets were a mess, tangled and damp. Neither of us cared.

"I should let you sleep," he said.

"I'm not tired."

"Neither am I."

His hand slid up my thigh, possessive and exploring. My body responded immediately, warming to his touch despite having just been thoroughly satisfied.

"How many times can you go?" I asked.

"With you? Let's find out."

The night blurred into sensation. His mouth on my body. My nails down his back. The slide of skin on skin. The sound of our breathing, our moans, our whispered encouragements.

We explored each other with the freedom of strangers who owed each other nothing. No expectations. No history. No future.

Just now.

By the time exhaustion finally claimed us, the sky outside was lightening with the first hints of dawn. We lay wrapped around each other, skin cooling, breathing synchronized.

"Diana," Xander murmured, already half asleep.

"Mm?"

"I hope I made you forget everything."

"You did."

I meant it. In this moment, tangled in expensive sheets with a man I barely knew, I meant it.

For now, Diana Pembroke had found her escape.

And it had been worth every dangerous choice.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

I woke to sunlight streaming through floor-to-ceiling windows and the unfamiliar weight of an arm draped across my waist.

For a moment, I couldn't remember where I was. Then it all came rushing back. The Vault. The gallery. The sculpture. Xander.

Oh God. Xander.

I turned my head carefully. He was still asleep, his face relaxed in a way it hadn't been last night. Without the intensity of his gaze, he looked younger. Almost vulnerable.

My body ached in places I'd forgotten could ache. Pleasant soreness, the kind that came from being thoroughly used. The sheets were tangled around our legs, and I could see marks on my skin. Bruises on my hips where his fingers had gripped. A faint bite mark on my shoulder.

Evidence of what we'd done.

Multiple times.

My face burned with a mixture of embarrassment and something else. Something I didn't want to examine too closely.

I needed to leave. Now. Before this became something complicated. Before he woke up and we had to have the awkward morning-after conversation.

What was this? What are we doing? Should we exchange numbers?

No. This had been exactly what I needed. One night of forgetting. Of feeling something other than misery. Of being someone other than Diana Pembroke, disgraced events manager.

But it couldn't be more than this.

I carefully extracted myself from his arm, holding my breath when he shifted slightly. But he didn't wake. Just rolled onto his back, one arm flung above his head.

I slid out of bed as quietly as possible, my feet sinking into plush carpet. My dress was somewhere in the living room. My underwear scattered across the bedroom floor. My shoes by the bed.

I gathered my clothes quickly, moving like a thief. Which was ironic, considering what I'd been accused of.

In the bathroom, I caught sight of myself in the mirror and froze.

I looked destroyed. Makeup smeared. Hair a tangled mess. Lips swollen. The bite mark on my shoulder visible above the neckline of Maya's dress. And my eyes, bloodshot from lack of sleep but also something else.

They looked alive.

For the first time in weeks, I looked like a person instead of a ghost.

I cleaned up as best I could with a washcloth. Fixed my hair into something approximating presentable. There was nothing I could do about the dress, wrinkled beyond redemption, or the unmistakable look of someone who'd spent the night having sex.

Maya was going to have questions.

I slipped back into the bedroom. Xander was still asleep, his breathing deep and even. For a moment, I stood watching him, this stranger who'd made me forget, who'd seen my rage and my need and matched both with his own intensity.

I should leave a note. Something. But what would I say?

Thank you for the best sex of my life?

Last night was a glorious mistake?

Please don't call me because I can't afford complications?

In the end, I left nothing. I grabbed my clutch from the nightstand where I'd dropped it at some point during the night. The business card he'd given me at The Vault was still inside.

I should throw it away.

I slipped it into an inner pocket instead.

The penthouse was silent except for the hum of the air conditioning. I let myself out quietly, closing the door with barely a click.

The elevator ride down felt eternal. I kept expecting someone to stop me, to ask what I was doing leaving a penthouse suite at seven in the morning wearing last night's clothes. But the lobby was mostly empty. Just staff moving quietly, preparing for the day.

I walked out into the bright morning, immediately regretting the heels. My feet screamed with every step. I pulled out my phone and ordered a car, waiting on the corner like someone doing the world's most obvious walk of shame.

The driver who picked me up was mercifully silent. I slumped in the back seat, exhaustion crashing over me now that the adrenaline of escape had faded.

What had I done?

I'd slept with a stranger. Multiple times. In ways I'd never slept with Leo in three years of being together.

And I'd liked it.

More than liked it. I'd craved it. Every touch, every kiss, every moment of losing myself in sensation instead of thought.

But it couldn't happen again. Men like Xander Lockwood didn't want women like me beyond a single night of entertainment. And I couldn't afford distractions. I needed to focus on rebuilding my life, finding a job, proving I wasn't a thief.

Last night had been an escape. A beautiful, necessary escape.

But now it was morning, and reality was waiting.

The car dropped me at Maya's building. I climbed the three flights of stairs slowly, dreading the interrogation waiting for me.

Maya was awake, sitting on the couch with coffee and her laptop. She looked up when I walked in, and her eyes went wide.

"Oh my God."

"Don't."

"Diana. You look like you got hit by a sex truck."

"I don't want to talk about it."

"Too bad. We're talking about it. Sit." She patted the couch beside her. "Coffee first. Then details."

I collapsed onto the couch, accepting the mug she thrust at me. The coffee was strong and hot and exactly what I needed.

"Did you at least text me like you promised?" Maya asked.

I checked my phone. Dead battery. "My phone died."

"Diana."

"I'm fine. I'm here. I'm alive. Nothing bad happened."

"Except you had sex with a billionaire you met six hours ago."

"I needed to forget for a while. He helped me forget."

Maya studied my face. "Was it good?"

Despite everything, I felt myself smiling. "It was incredible."

"Okay. Okay, I can work with incredible. Are you seeing him again?"

"No."

"No? Di, the man looked at you like you were the only person in the room. And clearly the sex was good. Why not see where it goes?"

"Because I don't have the bandwidth for complicated right now. I need to focus on finding a job. Rebuilding my reputation. Getting my life back on track."

"Or, hear me out, you could let yourself have something good for once."

"Good things don't happen to me, Maya. Good things get taken away. Leo. My job. Everything." I set down the coffee. "Last night was perfect because it was one night. No expectations. No promises. No disappointments. I'm not ruining it by trying to make it more."

Maya looked like she wanted to argue, but she just sighed. "Fine. But for the record, I think you're making a mistake."

"Add it to the list."

I showered, washing away the evidence of the night. The hot water stung the bite mark on my shoulder, and I found myself touching it gently, remembering.

Then I forced myself to stop remembering.

I needed to move forward, not backward.

After the shower, I changed into comfortable clothes. Top. Jeans. Hair in a neat bun. Makeup carefully applied to hide the exhaustion. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw Diana Pembroke, events manager.

Not Diana Pembroke, woman who'd spent the night screaming a stranger's name.

I spent the rest of the morning on my laptop, applying to every job I could find. Event coordinator at a hotel chain. Catering manager for a corporate firm. Wedding planner assistant at a boutique agency.

By noon, I had fifteen applications submitted.

By two, I had three rejection emails.

By five, I had twelve.

Thank you for your interest, but we've decided to move forward with other candidates.

We appreciate your application, but your qualifications don't match our current needs.

After careful consideration, we've decided not to proceed with your candidacy.

The rejections all said different things, but they meant the same thing: We heard about Veridian. We don't hire thieves.

"Nothing?" Maya asked, looking over my shoulder.

"Nothing. It's like I've been blacklisted industry-wide."

"Have you tried reaching out to former clients? Someone who knows your work?"

"And say what? 'Hi, remember how I managed your perfect wedding? Please ignore the theft allegations and hire me?'"

Maya winced. "Okay, maybe not. What about something outside events? You have transferable skills. Project management. Client relations. Budgeting."

"I've been applying to those too. Same result."

My phone buzzed. Another rejection email. This one from a position I'd been excited about. Events director at a museum. Perfect blend of culture and logistics.

We regret to inform you...

I closed my laptop before I threw it across the room.

"I need air. I'm going for a walk."

"Di-"

"I'll be fine. I just need to clear my head."

I grabbed my jacket and walked out before Maya could stop me. The afternoon was cool, autumn settling over the city. I walked without direction, letting my feet carry me through Brooklyn streets.

Former colleagues passed on the other side of the street. I recognized a woman I'd worked with on the Morrison gala, the one before everything went wrong. She saw me, and her eyes widened. Then she quickly looked away, pretending she hadn't seen me.

The message was clear. I was tainted. Toxic. Someone to avoid.

I found myself in Prospect Park, sitting on a bench watching people jog and walk dogs and push strollers. Normal people living normal lives, unburdened by scandal and shame.

My phone buzzed again. I almost didn't check it, assuming another rejection.

But it wasn't a rejection. It was a text from an unknown number.

"You left without saying goodbye."

My heart stopped.

Xander.

I stared at the message, my thumb hovering over the keyboard. I should delete it. Block the number. Maintain the boundary I'd set this morning when I snuck out.

But I found myself typing instead. "I didn't want to wake you."

The response came immediately.

Xander: "I would have appreciated the chance to make you breakfast."

Me: "I needed to get home."

Xander: "Or you needed to run."

The observation was too accurate, too sharp. Just like everything else about him.

Me: "It was one night. A good night. But one night."

Three dots appeared, disappeared, appeared again.

Xander: "If you say so."

Me: "I do."

Xander: "Then I won't bother you again. But Diana, for what it's worth, I don't regret last night. I hope you don't either."

I stared at the message. I should tell him I did regret it. Should lie and create distance and make sure this ended cleanly.

"I don't regret it," I typed. "But it can't happen again."

Xander: "Understood. Take care of yourself, Diana Pembroke."

The conversation ended. No arguing. No trying to convince me otherwise. Just acceptance.

Which was exactly what I wanted.

So why did it feel like losing something I'd barely had a chance to hold?

I walked back to Maya's apartment as the sun set, painting the sky in shades of orange and pink. My phone stayed silent. No more texts from Xander. No more rejection emails.

Just silence.

Back at the apartment, Maya had ordered Pizza. We ate while watching trashy reality TV and not talking about the fact my life was a disaster.

"Tomorrow will be better," Maya said, though she didn't sound convinced.

"Tomorrow I'll keep applying. Someone will give me a chance eventually."

"What if they don't?"

"Then I'll figure something else out. I always do."

But lying in Maya's guest bed that night, staring at the ceiling, I wondered if I was lying. I'd always had a plan. Always had structure. Always knew the next step.

Now I had nothing. No job. No prospects. No path forward.

Just the memory of one perfect night when I'd forgotten to be broken.

And the business card still tucked in my clutch, a reminder of the man who'd made me feel alive.

I fell asleep thinking about gray-green eyes and the way he'd said my name like it was something precious.

Fell asleep telling myself I'd made the right choice.

Fell asleep trying to believe tomorrow would be different.

But deep down, I knew the truth.

Nothing was going to change until I changed it myself.

And I had no idea how to do something like this anymore.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​