"With their trucking connections," he goes on, "we'll be able to start shipping weapons across state lines, under the radar. It's a win-win."
"Damir," I call across to him. "Your efforts would be better spent finding a woman for the night. Preferably one who will help you forget how to speak."
He glares at me. I almost leap across the room and smack him in the mouth for his insolence. Oleg is looking at him sideways, as though wondering what on earth he's thinking. It's a sentiment I relate to.
"I could make the call right now," he says, ignoring me. "Five minutes, it would take. A new arrangement that would make us all rich."
"You are richer than you have any right to be," I say calmly. "Be happy with what the Bratva provides."
"A man can always get richer."
"A man can forget his place, too, it seems." I put my hands on the edge of the table. "Are you sure you want to have this conversation, Damir?"
He glances around the room, down at his feet, and then pushes his glasses up his nose as though the vodka has infused him with courage. "Fyodor would not hesitate because it makes him queasy," he sneers. "Fyodor would-"
"Enough," I say flatly.
"Enough," Damir echoes like a schoolboy, shaking his head. "Yes, I believe I have had enough." He rises to his feet, grabs his bottle, and swaggers drunkenly from the room.
I make to follow him, fire raging through my veins at the disrespect. Anatoly places his hand on my arm. "Erik," he says quietly. "You will only widen the gap between those who support who and those who ..."
He does not need to say it: those who support Fyodor. That gap has been causing me sleepless nights of late. A widening rift, with dire consequences if I let it worsen.
Yet, Fyodor is still my second, and has shown no signs of disloyalty. I am still very much the boss of this Bratva. Time to assert my authority.
"Fyodor," I growl.
He glances up from the woman he has been talking with. He did not look up during the exchange, even when his name was mentioned, though I've no doubt he caught every word.
"Damir needs a lesson in discipline. Make it clear that he will not mention the Aryan Pact again."
Fyodor rises to his feet swiftly, but still with that inscrutable smile on his face. He inclines his head. "Of course." He nods at the woman. "If you'll excuse me."
I watch as he disappears after Damir. "If that happens again," I murmur to Anatoly, "there will be blood."
"It is only right," he agrees. "But give the drunken fool a chance. An execution is no small thing."
"Neither is a soldier who thinks himself a general."
Anatoly is about to say something else when Alena climbs up the steps and slides into my lap. She is the woman I have been fucking these past couple of weeks, nothing more significant than that. Tall, with legs that can wrap around a man and make him forget, for a few hours, the weight of the world. Her eyes are glassy with liquor as she throws her arms around my shoulders.
"Should we get out of here?" she whispers seductively in my ear.
"Woman," I snarl, shifting so she falls onto the chair beside me. "You just interrupted your superior."
Anatoly raises his hands with an indulgent smile. "If a pretty girl cannot interrupt me, who can? I am done anyway, my boy. Emily is waiting up for me." He rises to leave.
"Well?" Alena whispers, sliding her hand up my thigh. "Seeing as it's just the two of us ... You could even take me home. Back to your place."
"No," I say at once. "If we leave, it will be to a hotel."
She makes a catlike whining noise, but knows better than to argue the point. She knows I am not ready-will never be ready-to invite her into my personal sanctuary. I feel nothing for her except the pulsing at the base of my manhood.
But it would be good to forget, just for a little while.
"COME ON, BABY," Alena breathes, tugging on my shirt.
She seems distracted this evening. Usually she throws herself at me as though her life's goal is to make me love her, eyes burning into me, tugging and sighing and moaning. But now she is glancing at the door. And then she compensates by being far pushier than usual, her hands tightening to fists on my clothes.
"Come on."
I grab her by the shoulders and shove her back onto the bed. She falls with a giggle, though it sounds somehow off. I do not know Alena as well as she would like, but my senses have been honed through years of filthy, bloody work.
Something is wrong here.
Or is it perhaps that the night has made me paranoid? Fyodor and the treacherous game of politics that is leadership in the Bratva, Damir and his stomach-churning desires to forge alliances with racist monsters, the remnants of the Italian mafia still nipping at the edges of my territory... it's enough to drive a weaker man insane.
But I was born for this.
Alena tilts her head up at me, trying to look cute. It is like she is playing a part. But of course she is. She has been playing a part ever since we met-loyal fuck toy, mindless distraction.
So why is there a pit in my belly?
I ignore my gut instinct as I climb on top of her. We throw ourselves into the foreplay, but again there is something amiss in Alena's moaning. It is even more overdramatic than usual.
Then, just as we are about to start having sex, she gives me a little kiss on the cheek and stops us.
"One second, baby," she says. "I've got this new toy I want to try. Do you mind?"
Before waiting for an answer, she slides from beneath me like a serpent. She makes toward her bag. My breath catches in my throat; my gut churns.
I tell myself to relax. Surely, I am wrong. Merely a man on edge, imagining monsters under the bed when there is nothing to fear.
But when she veers for the door and flings it open, everything I suspected presents itself in cold, savage reality.
I leap to my feet and pull up my pants, cursing myself for a fool. My pulse is pounding in my throat. My whole world has shrunk into one question:
What is on the other side of that door?
When Radovan steps through with the pistol, my heart almost stops.
But I don't have time for emotion. There is only raw survival, or death. Nothing more. So I force the sorrow down into my gut.
If I am going to die here tonight, I will do it as a man.
Alena disappears behind Radovan's broad back, shielding herself.
"You two make quite the pair," I say calmly.
"I told you I didn't have any wits," he says, sounding almost sad.
But that doesn't stop him from raising the pistol.
I charge. Bang. The room erupts as the gun flash winks. He fires again and lava pours into my shoulder, pain flaring.
"Traitor!" I roar, throwing myself on top of him.
Alena batters my back with balled-up fists as Radovan tries to wrench the barrel into my neck to get off a shot that will end my life. I wrestle with him, my muscles straining so hard that veins bulge on my forearms. I knock him with a quick elbow. His mouth fills with blood. He makes a groaning sound as I finally get ahold of the gun.
Alena smashes a glass over my head.
I stumble.
Radovan leaps for the gun.
But it is too late. I fire right between his eyes, killing this man who has been loyal to me for years.
He crumples back, eyes rolling into the back of his head. Blood seeps into the carpet.
I turn to find Alena diving at me with a knife.
"No!" I roar, raising the gun. She doesn't stop. Maybe she loved Radovan; maybe she needs the money from whoever is paying for this hit job. Something like grief mixes with the fury in her face.
I make to drop the gun to wrestle the knife from her, but then Radovan twitches behind me, not quite dead. Men never die as quickly in real life as they do in the movies.
Mayhem consumes us and I end up firing three more shots: one into Radovan and two into Alena's belly.
"Shit," I mutter, standing up as Alena slumps on top of the big brute. My shoulder throbs in agony.
I glance down at them as Alena bleeds to death. I wonder if I should call the cleanup crew. My chest is heaving in shock and white-hot rage as blood pulsing from my shoulder stains my shirt.
But I can't call the crew, because that would mean letting the Bratva know about the murder. It would make me look reachable, vulnerable to those who wish to do me harm. And like Anatoly said, that would only make the rift between me and Fyodor worse.
I need to deal with this myself.
I give Radovan a kick in the side, shaking my head. "I thought we trained you better than this," I sigh. "You should've waited until we were fucking."
2
CAMILLE
"I
'll be sure to pass on the message immediately."
I'm using my polite receptionist's voice-cheery, enthusiastic, and literally the exact opposite of how I feel right now. I'm so tired I could just collapse onto the desk, but Dr. Delson expects professionalism above all else, and I can't afford to lose this job.
"Yes, thank you. Have a pleasant evening!"
I hang up and let out an end-of-the-day sigh. Not that this is really the end of the day for me. The glory of my second job, working the overnight shift at the stockroom, is calling to me as soon as I finish up here.
Out of the frying pan and into the fire. Ugh.
I gather up my things and walk across the office to Dr. Delson's office.
"Ah, Camille," he says with that shifting smile as I knock and peek in. He's a tall older man whose light green eyes often flit down to my shirt. Which is strange, because I make sure to have zero cleavage while I'm here. Or while I'm anywhere, actually. "Are you done for the day?"
I nod. "Just heading out. Is there anything else you need?"
He glances at the window, pitch-black except for the pale glow of the streetlights. "No, but please, let me walk you to your car. We can never be too careful."
"Oh, you don't need to do that," I protest. "I should be okay."
"Oh, nonsense." He claps his hands together. "I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened."
He climbs to his feet and hurries us out the door. The parking lot is empty and my car not more than thirty feet from the exit. But Dr. Delson walks close to me. I shift away, trying not to be too obvious about how uncomfortable I feel. We end up doing a weird shuffle-dance on the way to my beaten-up Honda Civic.
"I just wanted to say that, Camille, you are doing great work. Really excellent." His smile is moist, reflecting the streetlamps.
His praise seems a little over-the-top for answering calls and booking appointments, but I incline my head in acknowledgment. "Thank you, Dr. Delson."
He puts his hand on the car, trapping me. I take a deep breath to calm my nerves. If he tries to do anything to me, I'll implement the two-step plan I learned from a women's self-defense class that a crazy ex-boyfriend dragged me to years ago:
Number one, knee to the groin.
Number two, go for the pepper spray in my handbag.
"Please, Camille, call me Nelson."
He's used the same line on me before, but I've never taken him up on the offer. Partly because I want to do everything I can to keep him from running wild with his hot young secretary fantasies, but mostly because I don't trust myself not to laugh in his face. Nelson Delson! His parents must've hated him.
"Well ..." I take my keys out of my handbag and give them a jingle. "I better get going."
"Yes, of course." But he doesn't remove his arm.
I'm picturing my two-step maneuver as he eyes me hungrily. My nerves are jittery. I almost turn and just climb into the car, but there is something unsettling about Dr. Delson. I'm not sure what he'd do if I turned my back.
"Do you mind?" I say at length, nodding at his arm.
His mouth tightens as though I've just offended him. "I actually wanted to talk with you, Camille," he says tersely.
"Oh?"
Get me out of here, I beg silently to whoever might be listening-God, my guardian angel, fairy godmother, anyone. I know where this is going. He's hinted at it before, but until now I've always been able to dance around his advances.
But my prayers go unanswered. This time, he's not leaving me any loopholes.
"There's a function next Saturday for all the doctors in the area," he says. "And I'm allowed to bring a plus-one. I was wondering if you would come with me."
I am shaking my head before he's even finished talking. "I'm really sorry," I say, as apologetically as I can muster, "but I can't. I'm too busy with nursing school and taking care of my mom. You understand."
"Do I?" He makes a face somewhere between a sneer and a leer. It's an unflattering combination.
He sucks in a slow breath.
"You know, I've been very patient with you, Camille." He arches his eyebrow. I can't stand the way he says my name; it makes my skin crawl. "It's the least you could do. It would be a real shame if you were forced to find another position ... especially with your mother being so sick."
That does it. I snap without thinking. "Forget it, Dr. Delson. If you're going to try and blackmail me, I quit."
He takes a step back, laughing cruelly.
"We were downsizing anyway," he says breezily, not at all the kind man who interviewed me a few months ago, or even the lecherous creep who was pinning me against my car just thirty seconds prior.
Now, he's just a cruel beast with a poor girl at his mercy. I wonder if this was what he wanted from me all along.
He waves a hand.
"So be my guest. Quit. Good luck out there, Camille. It's a dog-eat-dog world."
ROB IS HUNCHED over in front of the TV when I storm into the house, heart still pounding from the exchange with Dr. Delson.
My brother's lank black hair hangs over his stoned eyes, which are fixed on the basketball game. From the way he's tap-dancing his fingers on the backs of his elbows, I know he must have money wagered on the outcome. Our small two-bedroom apartment reeks of cigarettes and whiskey and weed.
I repress a sigh. Just because Dad walked out the year you were born, I snapped at him once in an argument, it doesn't mean you get the right to make us live in hell. You need to get a handle on your shit, Rob.
But he never has, and it's been years. He barely looks at me as I walk across the apartment to Mom's room. Her caretaker, Jackie, is walking down the hallway with an awkward twist to her lips.
"Camille," she calls to me, "I'm so glad you're home!"
"Why? Is something wrong with Mom?"
I glance in apprehension at her bedroom door. Her multiple sclerosis is still in its relatively early stages, but it hasn't been getting better. I live in constant fear that something catastrophic will happen when I'm not here to comfort her. Leaving the house every day for work practically gives me an anxiety attack. Every time my phone dings unexpectedly, I jump out of my seat behind the desk at Dr. Delson's-or rather, I used to. Guess I won't be doing much of that anymore.
"Did you check her blood pressure? How have her moods been? Has she been sleeping too much? Too little?"
"No, no!" Jackie says quickly. "It is not that. Your mother is fine. She is sleeping right now, but no more than usual. No, it is just that I am still out two weeks' pay. I wouldn't bring it up, you know, but my rent is due tomorrow and ..." She looks around the room, embarrassed.
"Oh." I bite my lip. But inside, I'm screaming. That'll be the last of my cash.
But what else can I do? I'm not the only person in the world with problems.
"Of course, Jackie. Don't worry. I'm really sorry about that."
I reach into my purse and take out the money, leaving a pitiful three dollars crumpled at the bottom.
"Here you go."
She takes it and folds it efficiently. "I'll see you tomorrow." She starts to leave, then pauses, studying my face. "Hey, are you all right, Camille?" she asks cautiously.
I nod, wearing what I hope is a convincing smile. "Always," I tell her. "You just worry about my mom. I'll be fine."
"Angela is a strong woman." She puts her hand on my shoulder. "Same time tomorrow?"
"Yes, see you then. Have a good evening."
Once she's left, I crack the door and peer in at Mom, sitting up in her chair, snoring softly. She looks peaceful. At times like these, I can almost forget about her illness.
"Shit!" Rob roars from the other room. I sigh, smooth the hair back from her forehead, and leave as quietly as I can.
He's on his feet when I return to the den, pacing up and down.
"Your team lose?"