"Deep hole bitch!" I whispered. I was on the railings of our building, building of tourisms students. I currently staring at Rad with a girl clinging on his arms. Why do I love this kind of man?

"Hey! Who are you looking down at?" Loisa said and looked down.

"Gawd! Don’t shock me like that! "

"OA?!" She growled back at me. I looked again at what I was looking at below.

"Ay! Do you have a crush on him?!"

"Nope." I totally refused.

"I can see it."

"Think what you want, I don't care."

I pouted and looked down again. I never asked Rad what we really were. I was afraid to know, I was afraid to be hurt. For now, this is enough for me. We have no status. No label, just make out. We are just fuck buddies .. Fuck it!

"Come on! We're going to Starbucks girl! I Treat you." She invited me.

Trying to composed myself and hid the pain of my heart.

"Okay." I said. Cassy is no longer there because she is in another section. They have a tour in Korea. There's some

tours that I haven't been with, I just don't feel.

We are in the third year of College. Loisa and I have the same class while Cassy is in another section.

We're going to Starbucks.

But I think the destiny was playing with me coz' I saw Rad and Clinton are in the alley. Rad with a woman I don’t know. Next to Clinton is the one I already know in the Business Ad building,Kylie is probably the name, she’s beautiful. I always see her here with his two other beautiful friends.

When we passed I saw Rad looking at me. I shot my brows heavenwards and rolled my eyes.Damn you, fucker.

He whistled as he saw me. I saw Kurt enter the alley. Kurt is my gay bestfriend. In his body you will not notice that he is gay because I am the only ones who know that. It is hidden from everyone because his family thinks he is a pure man. They didn't know that my friend was a girl by heart.

Far away, Kurt's smile was sweet to me. A great idea bulged out in my head!

"Hi babe." I greet him sweetly and kissed his cheeks. It was enough for Rad to hear and see. Because my friend was so naughty, he really rode on my trip. This is what I like from him, he’s just always cool.

"Hey, babe! You're really beautiful." Gosh! I almost laugh at his masculine voice.

Loisa was almost stunned by what she heard. "Hey! Wait a minute, Is this your boyfriend Frixx?" Loisa asked in surprise. Kurt burst out laughing!

"Not yet,but soon." My answer. I want to make Rad mad. I saw how his jaw clenched! Success! I know he’s angry. His thick eyebrows met.

Kurt cleared his throat.I glared him deathly. Saying that, 'you ride on my plan, bitch '.

"I'm courting her." Kurt said and smiled. Goodjob!

"Wow! I'm not updated. Let's go to starbucks there and we'll talk." Loisa pulled us over there. I never glanced at Rad again. But I know he's mad.

My phone beep inside my bag.I took it out and read it.My hear hammered so fast when I read who texted.

From Rad: One more Frix, I will destroy your man's face. Try me.I warned you.

What the heck?! You're so unfair Rad. So unfair.

**

Assholes! He was with another woman! Then can he tell me like he's the one I will follow? I was so annoyed! Ugh!

We sat at the round table here at Starbucks. Loisa ordered food. Kurt, on the other hand, is just fidgetting something on his phone that I can't pay attention to. I was nervous that Rad might be true to what he said.

I typed a reply to him.

To Rad: Fuck your ass, Rad! There you are with your woman! Asshat!

"You're stuck on your cellphone, aren't you?" What’s your problem?" Kurt commented to me.

"Nothing."

"And what did you say earlier? That you're about to make me your boyfriend? Hey, I have to remind you..we're not match! I have a soft heart!" he said to me ,almost in a whisper because many people were looking at us. I almost choked!

"Duh? As if I want to? No, it's just a kidding."

"Uh-uh? Thanks to me that I took your trip but it's not free." my eyes narrowed to look at him.

"Huh? There's a fee? Alright, how much? Price it." I said. He is serious?

"Stupid! I have a lot of money. I mean, come with me to the bar tonight. Bring your friends so we can have fun!"

"Just that? Alright.”

"Okay then."

Loisa arrived at the same time with a tray of food.

"Oh there it is." Loisa placed our orders. Kurt's posture changed and he seemed to be a male model. My phone beep, so I let them talk.

From Rad: Really huh? You really pissing me off huh?

Dammit! Suddenly my cellphone rang and I was surprised when Rad was the caller.

"What?" I irritated answer so Kurt and Loisa looked at me.

"Who's that Frix?" Kurt asked. Rad muttered a curse. I hushed 'Kurt to stay quiet.

"And you're really still together huh?" Rad growled at me on the other line. "Fuck," I heard him slap something on the other line."Parking lot now, Frix or else, I'll destroy your man's face and I'll drag you there." He added and dropped the call. My hand trembled as I hid my cellphone and carried my bag.

"I'll be go first."

"Oh why so sudden?"

"I'm going somewhere else, I'll see you on Twilite bar later?"

"Okay." They both said in unison. I immediately left there and went to the parking lot.

When I arrived at the parking lot I turned around because I could not remember what car he was driving!

"My God !!" I was stunned when the car parked in front of me suddenly blew it's horn. I rushed to the door of his car. I opened and I sat down.

"What! What do you need? Tell me! I still have an errands!" I immediately spat at him.

"Where are you going? To your man? Then you're not going anywhere. You're grounded in my unit."

My eyes widened at what he said. He started his car and pulled it over.

"Damn you! I don't want to! Take me to my house!"

"Uh-uh! I'm so jealous Frix," He's still jealous? Then what was I when I saw him with a woman?

"Are you really the one who wants to say that? How's the woman you flirted with earlier huh?"

"She's just asking about the chart! Frix!" He explained

"And so? There's more to come? Fuck your ass Rad! Fuck boy move huh?"

He glared at me. We parked now and I really wasn’t delivered home!

He smirked devilishly. "Fuck my ass? What if I fuck your ass huh? Lets see." He said dangerously.

Heck, what did I get into?

"What ?!" I shouted at him. But I could not hear him because he got out of the car and opened the door for me on the other side.

He carried me bridal style!

"I'll make sure, you can't walk tomorrow. You can't leave my unit." He whispered in my ear that gave shiver down my spine.

He kissed my neck and smirked as he bit his lowerlip.Damn, I'm in a very big trouble right now!

"H-Hey!!" I screamed as Rad laid me down on his long sofa. We grabbed many attention earlier because I was slapping his chest and face. But it seemed like he just didn't mind it. It looks like my hand is still red from beating him.

"You're really shameless!" I growled at him and pushed him away.

He groaned with pain.

“Shit!" I cursed because he was strong he immediately wrapped his hand around me and pushed me on his sofa!

"Damn, I didn't know you were brutal." he said teasingly.

"Baby your face! Let me go !" I shouted . He could hardly fit on the sofa as he was not long enough. I couldn't do anything because my hand was pinned over my head.

"No, who's Kurt huh? Lover?" He said,he suddenly became serious.

"What you care?!! I'm still going somewhere!"

"I said, you're not going anywhere. You stay here!" He said in an emphatic tone.

"And who told you that? You asshole!"

"Me, so you can't do anything." he brought his face close to mine and bit my jaw. Fuck, my knees shook at what he did. I could smell his breath dizzying and addictive.

He kissed my neck and traced it using his lips.

"R-Rad, heck!" I stuttered in protest because my chest almost came out from the beating of my heart. As long as I'm with Rad, this is how my heart beats.

"Uh-uh." He said ignoring what I said and kissed the edge of my lip. One of his hands was already traveling to my thigh. Because I'm wearing a skirt in our uniform so he's free to undress me.

I sighed when he took off the necktie of my uniform and tied it in my hands that were above my head.

"Rad, what are you doing?"

"You're grounded. You won't meet your man or anyone. You are mine Frixxie." He said emphatically and crushed me with a kiss.

Damn, even though my lips seemed vulnerable I tried to reciprocate him with a kiss.

"Damn, you've driven me crazy." he said again and kissed me. He even tilted my head to kiss me nicely.

I would have put my hand on his nape but I forgot I was tied.

"R-Rad."

"Don't move, I'll make sure no one else would give you like this." he huskily said.

Why are you doing this Rad? If you say you love me, I will still understand but no..you just want me just to fill your lust.

I felt him move away and one by one he took off my shoes and socks. I heard the zipper open on my skirt and go down to my cycling shorts and he took them off me. Only my panties are my bottom.

"Fuck."

He's so cursing machine. I've noticed since then that he's really curse a lot. He is obviously used to swearing. Ugh!

I felt him kiss the top of my panty. I could feel his breath there. My toes were almost twisted because of his breath there.

"Rad, please." I almost cried, I didn't know why I would cry. In delight? Because of the situation? Because I love him. Too much, even though I look stupid.

"I don't know what you did to me, baby. I guess I'm smitten at you, Damn!"

It's almost music to my ears. Hopefully Rad. I hope I drive you crazy so that you love me.

He violently took off my panties and he parted my legs widely. Heck!

"Your little p*ssy only belongs to me. Did you get it?" I could hardly hear what he said. My shoulders went up and down with the heat I was feeling.

"Did you get it, De leon?" He said emphatically again.

I sighed and nodded. "Yes Rad".

He laughed softly and he placed my two thighs on his shoulders. Until I could feel him breathing between my thighs. I sighed when I felt his kiss there.

"Oh my gosh." I said and clasped my hand in delight. I also bit my lower lip so as not to scream. I feel the bite and movement of his tongue there.

He just got better at it.

Gosh! I know Rad is really an expert on this thing. I was thrilled to feel his finger enter there. It's not just one but two.

"Oh! Rad please, make it faster." I moaned when his two fingers thrust inside me. I was almost overwhelmed when he dug his finger deep inside me and accelerated the plunge.

My breathing became fast! Rad didnt fail me, in this thing.

I didn’t know where to turn my head and my hands remained clenched.

Every corner of this room filled with my moans. He’s just push a fingers to make me satisfy! He just chuckled everytime I screamed or moaned his name.

"Oh my Rad! Oh god!" I moaned loudly when he sucked my jewel. He moved his hand even faster on me. He didn't stop sucking about my jewel. He's sucking it like a lollipop! One of his hands ripped off my upper uniform!

What a multi tasker.

"Ahhhh! Fuck!"

Rad caught it all. He sucked my release and licked my middle and missed not even a grain.

"Mmmm, Rad please."

He chuckled again and kissed me. My eyes were still close as I kissed him back. He dropped his kiss on my chest again and sucked it alternately.

"After that, you won't find anyone else." He huskily said almost a warned.

I'm so weak. He untied the rope from my hand and I immediately took off his uniform.

He unbuckled his belt and unzipped his black slack and took it off with his boxer. I almost dropped my jaw when I saw his c*ck.

Damn, so big and thick. How does that fit me? He might break me!

"Done, staring?" He noticed my look there. I almost blushed at what he said. I frowned and slapped him.

"I might die! Why the size is so big?!"

He burst out laughing because of what I said.

"I'm really going to blow you away, baby." He said while grinning.

"Fuck you!"

He leaned over me again and he spread my legs wider.

"Yeah, I am really an animal when it comes to fuck." he answered me sarcastically. I would have answered but I was just shock when he entered me!

"Oh my God." I almost lost consciousness as if my intestines had been reached because of his length!

He groaned. "Fuck it!" The sofa almost shook when he push me. I just clung to his arm and almost sank my nail there.

"Ahh! Oh my Gosh! Rad!"

We are both sweaty. I have reached heaven almost a few times. But he still did not stop! He don’t know the word stop and tired??

I love this man so much.

He ended up taking me four times. My whole body was tired. Until I fell asleep because of exhaustion.

I hugged myself when the cold wind hit my skin. It was six o'clock in the afternoon and it's getting dark.

"Wow." I was amazed to see Rad's Resort. It have had a variety of Resto previously covered by the Resort. There are also bars around. In front of the sea are rows of elegant bungalows for rent to vacationers.

I also saw foreigners. Many are just vacationing here huh?

"Eat first. Aren't you hungry?" Rad hugging from behind me.

We are here on the veranda of his room. This is not a bungalow, this is actually his house here inside the resort. He said he has a care taker if he can't visit here.

I pouted. "I'm still full."

I am Enjoying the feeling when we are like this. Without hiding. We hold hands in front of other people. We are free to do whatever we want. I'm not just his secret affair.

After we ate , we got dressed because Rad and I were going to a bar later.

When I came out of the bathroom the first thing I saw was Rad’s perfect face.

He's wearing a 'black shirt and a sweat short so I can see his rocky chest. He was still holding a black cap.

He was like a cliff, If you look at him,he looks like a beautiful cliff and you want to try to jump but once you jump, you will really drown. You will drown because of him and there is no hope of getting up.

I remembered the first time we've meet. I was in a hurry because I was late until we bump with each other and we actually fell to the floor!

He was still on top of me and my lips were still parted because of the shock that the person I bump with was so handsome!

But the bastard kissed me without hesitation! I remember how he angled his head to kiss me hard and put his tongue in my mouth!

My first kiss was really awful then. And since then, he has never stopped me.

Until I got used to his presence and I just found myself kissing him.

I get hurt every time I see him with a woman. I wanted to criticize him then. I want to be angry with him..but I have no right. We just kissed and fucked. But I don't know what we have. I'm afraid to ask about it because it might just hurt me. I know his reputations, he's afraid of commitments.

For now, I just want to unchain all the pain away and embrace this moment with him. Not minding what will happen when we go back in the City.

"Don't wear too much revealing baby, hmm." He said and hugged my waist so I could sit on his lap.

"Rad I'll get dressed. Let go." I groaned and violently pulled his hug away from me.

I took from the cabinet a white strappy top and a pair of shorts. I also took a cardigan against the cold outside.

"Okay let me dress you up." He said in a serious voice and he himself took my panties and bra. What the heck?

My cheeks flushed with embarrassment! "You're crazy! I can wear it !I'm not a baby, Rad. "

"But you're my baby." He was serious and took my clothes in my hand. I was stunned when he made it difficult for me to sit on the dresser.

"Rad, I can do it." I insist. He is wise. He will wear it to me so he can see my body. What will I expect living with Rad in a one damn roof? He's a coy!

"Let me." He said to me and ripped the towel off my body."Beautiful." He mumbled and leaned closer to kissed my forehead.

He wore my bra on me. He's so good at it huh? After my bra ...he kissed my neck.

"R-Rad," my breathing became hitch. He kissed my chest that went down to my abdomen down to my womanhood.

He kissed me there three times. I think I am going to faint!

I just grabbed the end of the dresser and clenched my fist due to various emotions. He chuckled and put on my panty.

I just quietly combed my hair because it was still early. Eight more of us will go there. But Rad was just behind me sitting on the bed and staring at my every move. I winced when he hugged my back.

"Rad, what are you doing?" I sighed as it dripped a kiss on my neck.

"Kissing what's mine." Damn it. "There, so they know you're mine." He smirked after he put love bites on my neck. Damn Rad!

***

Loud music filled my ears.

We are now inside a bar that is often visited by foreign tourists. Wild people 'scattered everywhere! There are still women who can hardly walk properly due to drunkenness.

It's obvious. Even from a distance, Rad's eyes directly looking at me.

Well, Rad, obviously hot and handsome in all angles. I don't think I can find anything ugly in him.Rad, possesively wrapped his big hand on my small waist. He led me into a VIP space with a wide sofa and table in the middle.

"No alcohol for you, baby. Juice will do." He said to me as the waiter put down Rad's drink. Rad gave me some juice.

I pouted and bit my lip.

"Frixxie." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"Stop pouting! Some assholes gawking at you" He's said and I seem to want to keep laughing.

"What!? That's normal." I said and sipped on my juice.

He only looked at me like I'm the only one here in the bar.

I dropped the juice on the tabe. "Is this bar yours too?" I started a conversation with him. But that distracted me because of his warm palm caressing my thigh,the other one was behind me. He almost invaded my personal space!

"Yes." he was caressing few strands of my hair from my face. Damn, I couldn’t focus on my juice, I was suddenly embarrassed.

In my side vision, I saw him drink the tequila and bit the lemon. He's so sexy with that simple gesture. I saw how his adams protruded and his muscles flexed. Damn! His body was obviously taken care of in the gym. His body was very matured to look at compared to his age of twenty three. How much more if he grows even bigger?

"Are you bored here?" He asked.

I shook my head and saw the group of women at the other table,muttering and giggling looking at Rad.

I sipped my juice again because my throat felt dry.It's like I want to keep drinking. I suddenly remembered that my cellphone taken by Rad and it was turned off since we left .I don't know if anyone texted me.

Rad didn't tell me anything. I don't know if it will be checked on me because he took it because he was jealous of Kurt that he didn't know was gay!

I almost broke the glass of juice because the woman who was at the other table was approaching. Approaching Rad now, I mean....to us.

Rad, on the other hand, doesn't know anything because of the smell of my hair.

"Umm, hi Rad!" soft voice of the woman when they get close to us.

Rad looked up. He's shocked for awhile to seem to have met the woman.

Damn, I need to calm myself!

"Hello," Rad greeted back.

"I'm Dianne, still remember me ?" Wow! As in wow. Girls now adays. The girl next to her kicked her slightly and pointed at me."Oh, I'm sorry you're with someone." Dianne girl added.

"As you can see he's been with me for a while. It's impossible you haven't seen me since earlier." I felt Rad squeeze my thigh.

"Frix." he warned me and turned to Dianne. "Ah, It's nice to see you here but I'm here with my girlfriend." He said sternly.

Dianne girl seemed so shocked. "Woah really! As far as I know A Montemayor's don't do the girlfriend thing?" She said seemingly annoyed.

"I'm sorry Dianne but not anymore." Rad's answer seemed annoyed.

It's like I just want to go back to our bungalow. I didn't know there was such a crazy woman here because of Rad!

Dianne looks tipsy. She's pretty without a doubt so she became Rad's ex-fling. I don't know but I feel like I'm going to explode in anger.

"Ah is that so, what a pity .. Ay!" I was shocked when she fell on Rad's lap!

"Damn! Are you okay?" Rad asked her worriedly.

Shit! Won't he ask me if I am okay? I was almost submerged on the table because of this woman! Obviously she meant it.

"Rad.." I called him.

"Get off now, Dianne." He said but Dianne is a bitch.

"No, I wont." She said and pulled Rad for a kiss.

What the actual fuck ?! I can't believe this. This girl is crazy! I saw how Rad pushed her but is she that strong that Rad can't push her?

"Fuck you!" I shouted at her. I got the crowds attention so they looked at us. My lips and hand trembled in anger!

I am fuming mad. I grabbed her hair so she was shocked!

"Oh my! Let me go!" She screamed.

"What? Let go of your face!" I rubbed her face on the table with Rad's drinks.

"You're a bitch! You deserve that !!" I could feel Rad holding my arm and pulling me.

"Baby, stop." He said to me. I reluctantly let go of the woman and faced Rad.

I slapped him hard. My palm was almost numb because of my slap! Well, he deserved it!

I saw how his face reddened.

I'm angry, he's a man! He could push that bitch!

"Damn you! Let's break up!”

He stiffened and I saw how his jaw clenched and his aura became dark.

But I ignored that and marched out of there! I'm so stupid! Why did I even yell at him that we break up?! ,in the first place we are not in relationship! I was even more hurt. I'm assumed too much.

My tears kept flowing. I don't know why I reacted like that. But I just can't really handle the pain I'm feeling.