I woke up screaming.

My hands flew to my stomach, fingers pressing desperately against the flat surface beneath my nightgown, searching for something that wasn't there. The phantom pain of impact—metal crushing bone, glass shredding skin—still echoed through my body like a ghost that refused to leave.

But there was no blood. No broken bones. No life draining away beneath the cold autumn rain.

I gasped for air, my lungs burning as if I'd been drowning, and forced my eyes open. Moonlight filtered through familiar curtains, casting silver shadows across walls I knew too well. My bedroom. The Silvermoon Pack house. The pale blue walls Damian had chosen because he said they reminded him of Ava's eyes.

Not mine. Never mine.

My heart hammered against my ribs as reality crashed over me in waves. I was alive. I was breathing. And my baby—

My hand trembled against my abdomen. There was no baby. Not yet. Not in this timeline.

Because somehow, impossibly, I had been given a second chance.

I sat up slowly, my body shaking with the weight of memories that shouldn't exist. The calendar on my nightstand confirmed what my instincts already knew: it was three months before the pack run. Three months before Ava would deliberately swerve her car into mine. Three months before I would die on that rain-soaked road, my unborn pup dying with me while Damian chose to protect her instead.

The Moon Goddess had sent me back.

I pressed my palm harder against my stomach, fighting the sob that threatened to tear free from my throat. In my past life, I had been so desperate to make Damian love me, so convinced that if I just tried harder, gave more, sacrificed everything, he would finally see me as his true mate. I had ignored every warning sign, every moment of favoritism toward Ava, every time his wolf purred for her scent while barely acknowledging mine.

I had been a fool.

But I would not be a fool twice.

The phantom weight of my lost pup settled in my chest like a stone, cold and unforgiving. I made a silent vow in that moonlit room, my voice barely a whisper but carrying the weight of a Luna's command: "Never again. I will never beg for a bond that was already broken. I will never lose another child to his selective blindness."

The next morning, I stepped out of my room with my head held high, my expression carefully neutral. The hallway stretched before me, the same ornate corridor I'd walked a thousand times, always hoping to catch a glimpse of my mate, always desperate for even a moment of his attention.

Not anymore.

I froze when I saw them.

Damian stood near the staircase, his broad shoulders blocking most of the morning light streaming through the windows. And pressed against his chest, her fingers trailing along his collar, was Ava.

She was rubbing herself against him like a cat marking territory, her movements deliberate and possessive. I watched with the clarity of someone who had died once already as she tilted her neck, exposing the pulse point where she'd applied her scent-masking herbs. The same herbs her mother had taught her to use, the same deception that had stolen three years of my life.

Damian's eyes were half-closed, his wolf practically purring in his chest as he breathed in her manufactured scent. His hands rested on her waist with a familiarity that had once shattered my heart into pieces.

Now, I felt nothing but ice.

In my past life, I would have run to them, tears streaming down my face, begging him to remember our bond, pleading with him to choose me. I would have made a scene, and he would have looked at me with that confused, irritated expression, asking why I was being so dramatic when he couldn't even recognize my scent properly.

But I had learned the truth in my final moments: his scent blindness was dangerously selective. He could smell her perfectly. He always had.

I walked past them without a word, my footsteps silent on the hardwood floor. Ava's eyes met mine for just a second, and I saw the flash of surprise—and fear—that crossed her face when I didn't react. Good. Let her wonder. Let her worry.

I was done playing the desperate, broken mate.

That evening, my door opened without a knock. I didn't need to look up from the book I was pretending to read to know who it was. The Alpha presence that filled the room, heavy and demanding, could only belong to one person.

"Chloe."

Damian's voice carried that edge of confusion I'd heard so many times before. I slowly lifted my eyes to meet his, keeping my expression blank. He stood in the doorway, his dark hair slightly disheveled, his jaw tight with frustration.

"Why are you acting like this?" The Alpha command crept into his tone, the one he used when he expected immediate obedience. "You've been avoiding me all day. No texts, no visits to my office. You didn't even react when—"

He stopped himself, but we both knew what he'd been about to say. When you saw me with Ava.

In my past life, I would have crumbled under that Alpha tone, would have apologized for existing, for being inconvenient, for not being enough.

Now, I just looked at him with dead eyes.

"I'm tired, Damian," I said quietly, my voice carrying none of the desperate pleading he was used to. "That's all."

His frown deepened, his wolf clearly unsettled by my lack of reaction. He took a step into the room, and I watched him with the detached calm of someone who had already died once at the hands of his choices.

Let him be confused. Let him wonder why his mate had suddenly stopped begging for scraps of his attention.

Because while he stood there, trying to understand why I'd changed, I was already planning my exit from this pack, from this bond, from this life that had killed me once before.

I would never give him the chance to choose Ava over me again.

The full moon ceremony preparations always brought out the worst in Ava.

I stood in the pack house's ceremonial hall, arranging white lilies in crystal vases alongside the other unmated she-wolves. The Omegas chattered nervously around me, their hands fumbling with ribbons and candles as they prepared for tonight's run. In my past life, I would have been desperately trying to make everything perfect, hoping Damian would notice my efforts.

Now, I just wanted to get through this without incident.

"Oh, Chloe." Ava's voice dripped with false sweetness as she glided into the hall, her fingers trailing along the decorated tables. "Still stuck on flower duty? How... quaint."

I didn't look up. My hands remained steady as I adjusted a lily stem, my face carefully blank.

The Omegas fell silent, their eyes darting between us like spectators at an execution. They were waiting for the show—waiting for me to break down, to scream, to finally snap under the weight of being the mate no one acknowledged.

Ava moved closer, and that's when I saw it.

A moonstone necklace hung around her throat, the pale gem catching the afternoon light and scattering it across her collarbone. It was exquisite—ancient pack heirloom quality, the kind of gift an Alpha gave to his chosen Luna. The kind of gift Damian had never given me in three years of being mated.

"Do you like it?" Ava's hand rose to caress the stone, her movements deliberately sensual. "Damian surprised me with it this morning. He said the moonstone reminded him of my eyes under the full moon. Isn't that romantic?"

She tilted her head, exposing more of the necklace, more of the scent-marked skin beneath it. In my peripheral vision, I saw the Omegas holding their breath, waiting for my reaction.

In my past life, this moment had destroyed me. I had screamed at her, tears streaming down my face, while she'd smiled that victorious smile. Damian had arrived to find me hysterical and Ava crying, claiming I'd attacked her out of jealousy. He'd believed her, of course. He always did.

I set down the lily I was holding and reached for another one.

"It's lovely," I said, my voice perfectly calm. "The white flowers complement it nicely, don't you think?"

Ava's smile faltered. Just for a second, but I caught it—that flash of confusion, of frustration that her weapon had missed its mark.

"That's... that's all you have to say?" Her voice rose slightly, the sweet facade cracking. "Your mate gave me an heirloom necklace, and you're talking about flowers?"

I finally looked at her, meeting her eyes with the dead calm of someone who had already lost everything once. "What would you like me to say, Ava? Would a scene make you feel better?"

The Omegas gasped softly. One of them dropped a candle.

Ava's face flushed red, her fingers tightening around the moonstone. "I don't know what game you're playing, but—"

"I'm not playing anything." I turned back to my flowers, dismissing her as easily as she'd dismissed my pain for three years. "I'm just doing my duty to the pack. Isn't that what we're all here for?"

I felt her fury radiating across the space between us, hot and desperate. But I didn't give her the satisfaction of looking up again. After a long, tense moment, her heels clicked sharply against the floor as she stormed out.

The Omegas stared at me like I'd grown a second head.

Let them stare. Let them all wonder what had changed.

That evening, as the full moon rose over the Silvermoon territory, the pack gathered for the ceremonial run. Wolves of all ranks shifted under the silver light, their howls echoing through the forest as ancient instincts took over.

I hung back from the front lines, my white wolf keeping to the shadows while the ranked members led the charge. In my past life, I had always tried to run beside Damian, desperate to prove I belonged at his side.

Now, I knew better.

Through the dense trees ahead, I caught flashes of movement—two wolves, larger than the others, their bodies pressed close in a way that had nothing to do with the ceremonial run.

Damian's massive black wolf, unmistakable in his Alpha dominance.

And Ava's sleek gray form, rubbing against him with possessive intimacy.

I watched through the branches as his wolf nuzzled her neck, as she rolled onto her back in submission—the kind of submission a mate offered, the kind I had never been allowed to give because he couldn't "recognize my scent properly."

The lie of it all should have broken me.

Instead, I felt nothing but cold clarity.

I turned away, my paws silent on the forest floor as I padded in the opposite direction. There was no dramatic confrontation, no howl of betrayal. Just a quiet, deliberate choice to walk away from something that had never truly been mine.

Behind me, I felt rather than heard the moment Damian's wolf went still.

Something shifted in the bond between us—a sharp, inexplicable pang that made his wolf's head snap up, searching for a scent that was already fading into the night.

But I didn't look back.

I was done looking back.

The forest grew quieter as I moved toward the border territories, away from the main pack run. The other wolves' howls became distant echoes, and for the first time in three years, I felt something close to peace.

Then the night exploded into chaos.

Snarls erupted from the direction I'd just left—feral, wrong, carrying the distinctive stench of rogues who had lost their humanity to madness. The pack's ceremonial howls turned into warning cries as the border breach alarm shattered the moonlit calm.

My wolf's instincts screamed at me to run toward my pack, to help defend the territory.

But I forced myself to move carefully, strategically, back through the trees.

I emerged into a small clearing just as the defensive line broke.

A massive rogue, easily twice the size of a normal wolf, crashed through the undergrowth with foam dripping from its jaws. Its red eyes locked onto the clearing ahead—where two she-wolves stood frozen in their human forms, having just shifted back.

Ava, still wearing that moonstone necklace.

And me, standing less than ten feet away from her.

The rogue's muscles bunched as it prepared to lunge.

And in that split second, I knew exactly what was about to happen—because I had lived this moment before, in a different time, in a different way.

Damian would have to choose which one of us to save.

The rogue's red eyes gleamed with feral hunger as it coiled its massive body, preparing to spring.

Time slowed to a crawl. I saw every detail with crystalline clarity—the foam dripping from its yellowed fangs, the way its hackles rose along its spine, the madness that had consumed whatever humanity it once possessed.

Ten feet to my left, Ava stood frozen in her human form, that moonstone necklace glinting at her throat.

Behind us both, I heard the thunder of paws hitting earth—Damian's massive black wolf, racing toward the clearing with desperate speed.

The rogue lunged.

Not at me.

At Ava.

Damian's wolf crashed into the rogue mid-leap with the force of an Alpha's fury. They went down in a tangle of snarls and snapping jaws, rolling across the forest floor in a blur of black and matted gray fur. Damian positioned his body between the rogue and Ava, his fangs tearing into the attacker's throat with brutal efficiency.

I should have felt relief. Should have felt gratitude that my mate had arrived to protect the pack.

Instead, I felt the whisper of movement behind me—too late.

A second rogue exploded from the underbrush, its jaws aimed directly at my exposed back.

My wolf's instincts kicked in before my human mind could process. I dropped and rolled, my hand flying to the silver dagger I'd strapped to my thigh before the run—a precaution I'd taken after dying once already, after learning that no one would protect me when it mattered.

The rogue's teeth snapped shut on empty air where my neck had been a heartbeat before.

I came up in a crouch, the dagger glinting in my palm as the rogue whirled to face me. Its eyes were completely red now, no trace of rational thought left in them. Just hunger. Just violence.

It charged again.

I sidestepped and slashed, the silver blade catching it across the shoulder. The rogue howled, the sound echoing through the trees as smoke rose from the wound. Silver burned rogues worse than regular wolves—their madness made them more vulnerable to the blessed metal.

But it also made them more reckless.

The rogue came at me again and again, each attack more frenzied than the last. I dodged and parried, my movements precise and controlled despite my racing heart. I'd learned to fight in my past life, after Damian's protection proved worthless. I'd learned to survive alone.

Finally, I found my opening. As the rogue overextended on a lunge, I drove the silver dagger up through its jaw and into its brain.

It collapsed at my feet, twitching once before going still.

I stood there, breathing hard, blood—not mine—splattered across my arms and chest. My hands shook as I pulled the dagger free, but my mind was eerily calm.

Behind me, Damian's fight had ended too. I heard his wolf's heavy breathing, heard the soft whimpers of concern he made as he shifted back to human form.

"Ava. Ava, are you hurt? Did it touch you? Let me see—"

His voice was frantic, desperate, filled with the kind of concern I'd begged for a thousand times and never received.

I turned slowly.

Damian knelt beside Ava, his hands running over her arms and shoulders, checking for injuries with single-minded focus. She clutched at him, tears streaming down her face as she buried herself against his chest. The moonstone necklace caught the light as she trembled.

"I was so scared," she sobbed. "If you hadn't been there—"

"Shh. I've got you. You're safe now. I'll always protect you."

He didn't look at me. Didn't ask if I was injured. Didn't even acknowledge that I'd just killed a rogue single-handedly while he'd been too busy saving his chosen mate to notice I was in danger.

The dead rogue lay at my feet, silver dagger still embedded in its skull.

And my mate held another woman, promising her protection he'd never offered me.

Something inside my chest—something that had been cracked and bleeding for three years—finally shattered completely.

I pulled the dagger free and wiped it clean on the rogue's fur. My hands were steady now. My mind was crystal clear.

In my past life, this moment would have destroyed me. I would have screamed, cried, begged him to see me.

Now, I just felt cold certainty settling into my bones.

Damian Rogers would always choose Ava Gordon over me. He would always be a threat to my survival. And if I ever carried his pup again, he would choose her over our child too.

Just like he had before.

I turned and walked away from the clearing, leaving my mate to comfort the woman he truly wanted. Behind me, I heard him finally notice the second dead rogue, heard his confused question—"Who killed this one?"

But I was already gone, disappearing into the forest shadows.

Because tomorrow, I would do what I should have done three years ago.

I would reject him.

Formally. Publicly. Permanently.

And this time, nothing—not his Alpha command, not his confused wolf, not even the mate bond itself—would stop me from walking away.

The moon hung heavy overhead as I made my way back to the pack house, my decision settling over me like armor.

I was done dying for a bond that had never been real.