Lance's POV

I heard a soft knock on my door but I ignored it. I was sure it was one of the kitchen hands coming to wake me, probably on Mum's instruction.

I had turned all night trying to sleep. I had gone through my own birthday party like a zombie. The idea that the moon goddess gave me a crazy wolf was enough to keep me awake all night. So I wasn't ready to get up that morning.

The knock came again and I ignored it, thinking the person would go away when I refused to answer. I waited for another three seconds and dosed off to sleep.

My sister's smell was all I smelled in the house now so I wasn't ready to strain myself to get who was at the door specifically.

I was drifting off to sleep when suddenly somebody jumped into my bed. The instance the person's body touched mine I knew who it was. My wolf became too alert for my liking.

'Shit, Maureen what are you doing here so early?' I shouted at my sister the instance I got on my feet.

'Lance, I have always done this in the morning,' she answered looking at me confused. She did that every time I didn't go for training. She came into my room and slept with her head on my chest. According to her, my heartbeat relaxed her. But that had to stop else we were going to commit incest.

'Look, things are different now Maureen. You coming here unannounced, you coming to cuddle with me, they have got to stop,' I shouted angrily at her. I was becoming frustrated. I knew it was not her fault but I had to stay away from her.

'Why Lance, why are you being mean to me?' She lifted her head to look at me, her eyes filled with unshed tears and my heart broke. If only she knew what battle I was fighting within me. Trying to stop my hands from grabbing her and kissing her succulent lips.

For a fifteen-year-old, my sister was beautiful. She was filled out in all the right places like every male's fantasy. And since last night I stopped feeling like her brother, I wanted her and my wolf was not helping matters. At that moment, I was going crazy in my head wanting to touch and hold her desperately.

I was angry at her for making it so difficult for me. I knew that the look in my eyes at that moment was bad enough to make anyone cringe but Maureen was never scared of me. Instead of running, I saw the tears in her eyes flow down her beautiful cheeks.

The instance I noticed the tears in her eyes running down like a tap, I turned away from her. It was for her own good.

'You know what Maureen, get out of my room, I am not in the mood for your tantrums this morning,' I said with all the patience I could muster.

'I am not throwing tantrums, Lance. But you are being so mean to me?' She stubbornly insisted.

I turned to face her again making sure that the look in my eyes was harder. 'Please Maureen go to your room.'

'This is so unfair, Lance. Are you being like this because you turned eighteen?' She asked with stubbornness still in her voice.

'Yes. Maybe when you turn eighteen, you will understand my plight,' I said rubbing my face with my hand in frustration. I was lost and frustrated.

Maureen stood up and came towards me, she stretched out her hand to touch me but I moved away as fast as I could. If she touched me I might lose the little control I had over my wolf. No training prepared me for what I was going through at that moment.

'Don't touch me, Maureen, just go,' I shouted at her. Wishing she would just let me be.

She rushed out of my room crying. I wished I could run after her but I couldn't. Any contact could become a big mess, so I let her go and my heart sank hearing her sob as she ran the length of the corridor to her room.

I knew I couldn't sleep again so I decided to get ready for the day. I had a few things to do in the company of Dominus.

I took my bath and got dressed with a mind filled with my sister. She was all I could smell in the air everywhere I turned. It was almost driving me crazy. I knew I had to get out of the house.

'Good morning Lance,' Lucia greeted me when I entered the kitchen to find something to eat before meeting up with Dominus.

'Hey Lucia. How are you this morning?' I smiled at her refusing to meet my sister's gaze.

'I am fine,' Lucia answered hanging on to every word that came out of my mouth as if her life depended on them. It was actually funny how things worked. Dominus liked her but she liked me, so for Dominus' sake I discouraged her advances all the time.

'Thanks for attending my birthday yesterday,' I said taking Lucia's hand and playing with her fingers.

I smiled when I saw her blush furiously. I just wished she liked my friend as well. Dominus and I were banking on the fact that when she finally got her wolf she would let go of her crush for me.

'You don't have to thank me, Lance. I practically live in this house. It is not as if I can just stay in the room and not attend,' Lucia said looking so happy

'Thanks all the same,' I said smiling at her and I let go of her hand.

'Your wolf was so beautiful. What is his name?' Lucia asked. I knew both she and Maureen had been dying to know his name so I answered.

'Marshall,' I answered trying my best to concentrate on our discussion because my sister's smell bombarded my senses and was torturing me with a restless wolf.

'It was so big and beautiful. Can I see him again soon?'

'He is not a pet Lucia, he is a wolf and a Beta for that matter. He will be unpredictable like any wolf with a strong bloodline,' I said in a firm tone. I had to, I can't afford to let my wolf out around my sister.

'I guess that is true. I was scared when he tackled Maureen to the ground yesterday, I thought he would hurt her but when Maureen laughed under him, I breathed a sigh of relief.' Lucia rolled her eyes and dramatically raised her hands as if she were trying not to scold my wolf.

At her mention of the previous night's incident, I could feel my spine go rigid. I had to get out of there fast. The anger in me came to the surface and I tried to control it.

'Maureen is his sister, he would never hurt her. He has to protect her as her Beta and that is exactly what he would do,' I said looking into my sister's eyes as if I was trying to convey the information that nothing was ever going to happen between us.

I made sure I emphasized 'sister,' trying hard to remind my wolf who Maureen was and warn Maureen off too. But then she knew nothing about my inner turmoil.

'I will be out with Dominus. You girls should not wait up for me,' I said breaking eye contact with my sister. I stood up and left the house.

The moment I stepped out I decided I was going to avoid the house as much as I could, for the sake of my sanity.

I refused to go pick up my sister from school as I usually did. She had called me several times but I refused to pick up. She had a special ring tone so I don't bother when my phone is playing that particular song. I tried sleeping to while away time besides I was tired from the morning training. After turning for several minutes I fell asleep only to be woken up by my phone ringing.

'Hello,' I asked sleepily.

'Em em hello Lance,' Lucia's voice came from the other side. If I had checked the caller ID I wouldn't have picked up her call but then the worried part of me would have picked up the call.

'Hello are you there Lucia, is 'Everything ok? I asked when she fell silent.

'Yeah, everything is fine. I was just wondering if you would be coming for Maureen or if you would be sending Dominus,' Lucia rushed everything in one breath.

I was silent for a while. I didn't want to say anything out of tune.

'Are you there?' Lucia asked. I guess my silence was disturbing.

'Yes, I am here. Are you with her right now,' I asked.

'No. I left her believing you would be there,' Lucia lied. I could hear two people breathing from her end.

'She is no longer a child Lucia, she can take care of herself,' I said knowing fully well that she was listening to the conversation.

'When did your baby suddenly become so grown up? Because you turned eighteen?' Lucia questioned me, obviously defending her friend.

'You won't understand Lucia, there is a lot I am trying to process right now,' I sighed into the phone.

'Maureen has been calling your number all day but you are not picking,' Lucia accused me.

'Tell her to get herself home or better still sleep in school if she wants.' I had to make her hate me. It was the only way out.

'Tell her yourself I am not with her.'

'You underestimate me, Lucia. Have you forgotten that I have my wolf now? I heard two people breathing on the phone,' I said to her so she would realize that they couldn't fool me.

'What?' I heard the two of them say.

'My ears are four times sharper now than before as well as my sight. Imagine your sight better than what it already is now,' I explained with a smile playing on my lips.

'Lance?' I heard my sister call me on the phone. Her voice sounded like a soothing balm but I knew I couldn't let the feeling unsettle my now very alert wolf.

'See you around Lucia,' I said and quickly cut the call. I knew I was hurting her but that is the only way I could do it. I was hurting too.

Lance's POV

'Lance stop, let her go,' Dominus shouted at me, his voice piercing the haze covering my senses. I dropped her and started shivering.

I couldn't believe I almost killed my sister. I had warned her to stay away from me. I avoided going home because of her. I was going crazy and my wolf was not helping matters. He yearned for her like a pervert. I was going to go mad if care wasn't taken. I had to stay as far away from her as possible until my crazy wolf got back to his senses.

I had found her sleeping in my room days before, I had to strip the bed of every layer of clothing on it just to get rid of her chocolaty scent. It was bad enough that her smell hung around the house, even in the surrounding bushes.

I had cried on Mum's bosom that morning too overwhelmed with wanting her and trying to stay away from her. I was not about to commit incest because some stupid wolf thought nothing of it. If he was crazy, I was sane.

It was an endless war between me and my wolf. In the middle of the night sometimes, my wolf would wake me and demand to see her. I had reminded him several times that she was my sister but he seemed determined to bring us to ruin.

I had almost thought the moon goddess hated me enough to grant me a pervert for a wolf. A wolf that thought nothing of claiming his sister as a mate.

When my sister touched me that morning while I was crying, I nearly shifted into my wolf from the cheer and excitement of my wolf. I had to turn what I felt into enough anger to ask her to take her hands off me at that moment.

I never would have guessed that she would follow me into the forest. She was making my life difficult by being stubborn. I was trying to save us from embarrassment and disgrace but she was making it more difficult for me to do.

The human part of me was getting angrier at her for being so stubborn. The hurt I saw on her face that morning actually broke my heart but I knew it was for the best. Maybe if she stayed away for long enough, my wolf would be able to realize what our true relationship was.

After I had shouted at her to take her hands off me that morning, our parents had been very surprised. They knew how much I loved my sister. They knew my life revolved around her. Seeing me shouting at her like that shocked them to no end.

'Lancelot, why did you shout at your sister like that?' Mum had asked that morning looking bothered.

'It is nothing, Mum, she is just becoming too annoying for my liking,' I had replied trying to look nonchalant.

'Son, are you sure your sister has nothing to do with your mood?' Dad asked looking at me as if he was trying to read my mind.

'No Dad. She is just too young to understand what I am going through right now. I want her to stop disturbing me,' I answered with my heart beating fast.

I knew I had to be careful, my dad was too smart to be lied to. And I knew I had to get out of my dad's presence fast before he could question me further.

'I need to go have my bath, I will see you guys later,' I said and quickly left them before Dad could read me. He was a good negotiator because of his gift of reading people. It was nothing supernatural, he just could do it. The last thing I want is for him to find out that my wolf was crazily lusting after my sister.

I got into my room and found Dominus flipping through a magazine while sitting on the loveseat.

'Are you ok now?' He asked looking worried. Dominus was not just my friend and Alpha. He was my brother. What we shared was brotherhood and not friendship. I had not told him about what was going on but I knew I had to tell someone, or else I would run mad.

'I am not fine Dominus,' I answered and sat on the edge of the bed. Dominus stood up from the loveseat and sat down beside me on the bed.

'What is eating you up Lance, you know you can talk to me?'

'It is really bad Dom, really really bad.'

'You have to talk to somebody about it at some point. I see the way you train these days as if you want to kill yourself. The light is no longer in your eyes and you rarely smile anymore.'

I sighed deeply and looked at Dominus, I could hear his heartbeat increase and smell the worry rolling off him in waves. I knew he loved me and what affects me, affects him.

'What is the worst thing that I could do that would make you hate me?' I asked him.

He stood up and started pacing in front of me, a frown on his handsome face. He was obviously in deep thought. He suddenly looked up as he seemed to get an idea.

'Did you sleep with Lucia?' He asked his eyes bulging.

'What? I would never betray you like that,' I shouted looking surprised that he would think in that direction.

Dominus sighed and his shoulder relaxed visibly. ' What then could you have done that will make me hate you? Even if you do that I know you would not have done it intentionally.'

'It is not what I did Dom, it is what I am.'

'What you are, what do you mean by that?'

'My wolf is crazy Dom.'

'Crazy? How?' Dominus asked confused.

'My wolf thinks Maureen is his mate.'

'Which Maureen?' He asked looking at me suspiciously.

'My sister,' I answered looking sad.

'What?' Dominus asked looking comical with his big eyes almost removing from the sockets.

'It started the eve of my birthday.'

'I remember seeing your wolf tackling her to the ground. I thought nothing of it because I thought he was just happy to finally meet his sister.'

'He simply followed her scent, the fool.'

'Don't call your wolf a fool Lance.'

'What then do I call all this? Maureen is his sister,' I said throwing my hands up in surrender.

We both fell into silence, each person to his thoughts. I was very angry with the whole situation.

'The moon goddess can't be mistaken in peering us, Lance.'

'The moon goddess can't be mistaken right? Accepted. But why will she peer me with my sister, that is incest.'

'There must be an explanation somewhere,' Dominus said thoughtfully.

'I need the explanation as soon as possible before I go mad.'

'Why don't you explain this to your sister instead of treating her the way you do?

'You know I treat her somehow?' I asked surprised he noticed.

'You think I didn't notice? I know you have been avoiding her and your house generally and I heard when you shouted at her. She cried while coming upstairs you know?'

'I can't possibly sit her down and tell her that my wolf wants her besides she is not supposed to know she is my mate until her wolf recognizes mine as hers.'

'Then let us wait till she turns eighteen and see if her wolf will choose yours. Whatever happens then we will know whether to involve our parents or not,' Dominus reasoned.

'This fool here,' referring to my wolf, I pointed at my head, 'would have made me mad by then. We are talking of three good years here.'

'I know. Maybe it is time to go for that training at Royal White with me. We would be gone for almost three years by the time we get back, things might have straightened out.'

'I didn't want to go because of Maureen. Mum and Dad are ever absent. Who would take care of her?'

'Have you taken a good look at your sister these days?'

'More than I am proud to say.'

'Then you must have noticed that she is no longer a baby, she can take care of herself. Besides you need the time away before you do something you would regret.'

Dominus made a lot of sense but being separated from my sister was the last thing I wanted. But with the way my wolf was going about it, something bad might happen soon.

I thought of it deeply for a while. 'You know what? Let me have my bath and we go for a run.'

Dominus started laughing at me and I wondered what I had said that might be funny.

'Why are you laughing?'

'Are you sure this whole situation is not affecting you?' He finally answered after laughing to his contentment.

'What do you mean?' I asked still not getting his point.

'You are sweaty already. If you have your bath now, you go for another run, won't you be sweaty again? What is the essence of your bath?' Dominus explained smiling at me.

I smiled and scratched my head.

'Ok fine. Let's go and hunt our breakfast then,' I smiled and removed my shirt.

We headed for the forest. Hunting that morning on my part was difficult. If I had gone alone, I might have returned more frustrated than I left because I would not have caught anything.

I get lost in thought most of the time and lose track of whatever I am hunting.

'Hey, are you alright?' Dominus asked through the mind link.

'Yeah. I am fine. I think we should head back now. I need to rest.'

'You can sleep in my house you know, if that will give you some peace.'

'I would appreciate that.'

'Ok let me get our hunt together. I will meet you at the spot where we dropped our shorts.'

'Ok,' I said and closed the link.

I made my way towards the edge of the forest where we dropped our shorts. I could smell my sister in the breeze. It was really annoying that I couldn't seem to escape her.

Suddenly I heard her call out to me. Every word that came out of her mouth was like a sword thrust deep into my heart. I tried to stop my wolf from acting stupid to no avail. Immediately I took over the anger I felt for my wolf, it overwhelmed me and I almost killed my sister.

As I watched Dominus kneel beside her tending to her my heart broke and I did the only thing I could do at that moment. I ran.

Lance's POV

'Lancelot tell me it is a lie,' my mum fumed immediately I entered the pack's hospital room where my sister laid hooked to a machine. I walked towards my mum holding my hands in front of me as if I was praying.

That day after I ran, I stayed away from home. It's been two days. Only Dominus knew where I was. I couldn't face my parents, look them in the eye and tell them I almost killed their daughter. Despite the fact that they weren't that close to Maureen, I knew no parent would want their child dead.

I walked towards my mum carefully, unsure of how emotionally stable she was. She was after all a Beta wolf. No amount of love she has for me can stop her from hurting me if her wolf decided to punish me for what I did and I was sure my wolf would not lift a finger in defense because of two things. One, she was my mother, two, it would be an opportunity for my wolf to see me punished. He has been going mad in my head for the past two days.

'Mum, I am really very sorry. You know how much I love Maureen and I would never intentionally harm her,' I said trying to calm her down a little because when I came closer to her, I saw her eyes flashed in colors, going from her regular eye colour to her wolf's then back again. I knew at that moment that I had to be extra careful because things could turn in the wrong direction at any moment. I didn't want her to do what she would later regret.

I knelt down in front of her with my head bowed in submission. I knew with my future status I was not supposed to kneel like that for anyone except my mate and my Alpha. At that moment I didn't care, I just wanted my mum to listen to me.

'I am truly sorry mum. Maureen is the center of my world and you know it but something is wrong with my wolf and...'

'Nothing is wrong with your wolf Lancelot. Your wolf will never harm your sister. Dominus said it was you not your wolf.' My mum cut into what I was trying to say. She was talking at the top of her voice not caring that we were in a hospital room.

'It was me mum but it started with my wolf,' I said, gently looking up into her face. Trying as much as I could to let her see the state of my heart through my eyes.

'What do you mean?' She asked, the volume of her voice going down a notch.

I sighed. 'There is something I need to discuss with you and dad.'

'What you want to discuss is what is causing all this?' Mum asked looking at me solemnly.

'Yes.'

'Ok then. But it had better be good enough an explanation because I do not understand why you would hurt your sister this much.'

'I am sorry mum, I didn't mean for things to turn out this way,' I said looking as apologetic as I could muster.

'Get up from that floor, you look ridiculous kneeling in front of me like that,' mum said with a very unladylike snort. 'If you kneel like this for me what will you do for your mate?'

'You are my mother, I don't care what the rules say. I should worship the very ground you walk on.'

Mum kept quiet and looked at me for some seconds. 'You are like your father in so many ways Lancelot. I sincerely hope you will get over whatever it is that is making you act like this.'

'I hope so too mum.'

'Get up from that floor before someone comes in and meets you there. It is bad enough as it is. I don't want to add another gossip to the present situation. I do not know what this will likely cause if pack members should hear about it.'

I got up from the floor and stood beside my sister's bed. I dare not touch her. I looked at her pale face and lips and I felt so guilty. Maureen was the center of my world. I was always protective of her, too protective. No one who knew us would believe I was the one who hurt her.

The beeping of the machine made my guilt worse. Her mouth was slightly opened because of the tube inserted in her mouth. According to Dominus I had almost crushed her neck so much that if she were not a wolf she could have died. When he told me that, I had cried the whole night.

'You should not make a habit of crying like this Lancelot,' mum said bringing me out of my thoughts.

I didn't know I was crying but when she spoke, I realized there was salty liquid in my mouth. My mum moved closer and embarrassed me. For the second time that week, I cried in her arms like a baby.

'It is ok Lancelot. You need to man up and deal with whatever it is that is breaking you down like this,' she said after I had calmed down . I nodded at her because at that moment I couldn't talk I could only nod, I was beyond exhausted.

'Go home and have your bath. Not to make you feel bad, but you stink. Where have you been though?' Mum asked with her hands on her hips.

'In the forest,' I lied. Only Dominus knew where I was. I was in one of the abandoned huts close to the house. We played there when we were small. It was our little secret hide out, even Maureen had never been there.

'Very well then go and freshen up, call me when you are ready. But I should be home as soon as the maid gets here.'

'Ok mum,' I kissed her softly on the head, looked at my sister's helpless form briefly for some seconds before exiting the room.

I made my way out of the hospital room with my mind preoccupied with the discussion I was going to have with my parents. I couldn't answer those that greeted me on the way home because my heart was very bothered.

I was about to tell my parents the biggest lie ever. Dominus and I went over the lies again and again throughout the night to make sure there were no loopholes that my dad could see through.

We leave for Royal White in two days. My parents had always wanted me to go after my eighteenth birthday but I told them I couldn't leave Maureen all by herself since they both clearly were rarely around.

I opened the door with my mind still preoccupied with the discussion I was going to have with my parents.

'See what the cats dragged in. The almighty Beta Lancelot, murderer of his own sister,' my dad said.

I looked up to see him standing at the bar with a cup of wine in his hands and anger in his eyes.

'She is not dead dad,' I said remorseful.

'She could be,' he said with anger in every syllable.

'I am sorry dad, I didn't mean to hurt her.'

He nodded gently. 'Your mother mind linked me. She said you wanted to discuss something with us.'

'Yes dad but first I need to freshen up, I stink.'

'Good you know. Come to the study in an hour. Your mum and I would be waiting.'

'Ok dad,' I said and headed upstairs to have my bath and prepare myself for the discussion.

As I entered my room, the first thing that caught my eyes was the yellow hand woven shawl on my couch.

It was an early birthday gift from Maureen. According to her, she didn't want her gift to mix up with others.

She had done the weaving herself not allowing anyone to see it until it was done.

I had been surprised when she gave it to me. I had not expected it to be that good. At the center of the shawl, she had woven two wolves. A white wolf and a black wolf. She had said they were us. According to her I was going to get dad's black wolf and she would get mum's white wolf. Only she was wrong I got the white wolf.

I held the shawl to my chest and cried. The way I was going about it, I might not have tears to shed anymore in years to come.

When I was sure I could muster the strength, I had my bath, changed into another set of clothes and waited for another thirty minutes before heading to my father's study.

I knocked on the door and mum's voice asked me to come in. I opened the door to meet my mum seated on dad's seat while dad sat on the couch.

I sat in the chair opposite mum. I preferred it that way. It was a good thing that dad was not sitting on his chair. I didn't want him to have a handle on my mood and expression.

''What is it that you wanted to discuss with us son,' mum asked.

'My wolf has been ridiculously restless. He wants to visit other packs in search of his mate. He has this insane idea of the fact that she is in danger. And he thinks it is Maureen that is keeping us here.' I explained quickly without even stopping for breath in between and I didn't look at either of my parents.

There was total silence after I stopped talking. I looked up to realize that my parents were mind linking. I knew they couldn't see me so I rolled my eyes.

'When are you leaving?' My dad asked after sometime.

'In two days,' I answered feeling really nervous.

'Nobody was holding you back son, you were the one giving all sorts of excuses,' mum said and I sighed with relief.

Dad got up and gave me a squeeze on the shoulder before leaving and so did mum.

Two days later I stood in front of our house and sighed deeply. My bags were already in the car while Dominus waited impatiently in the driver's side.

My parents already said their goodbye before heading to the hospital. They said the doctor called that my sister was awake. I couldn't go there. It was for the best.

I knew it seemed like running but I knew it was time to go at least for a while. I sighed again and headed for the car. As we rounded the corner and couldn't see the house in the side mirror again, I settled in the seat properly. It was going to be a very long three years.