Chapter 4

My mom was waiting outside the house, you know that part where you kinda already know what you are gonna look like when you are much older? Well, that's my mom.

People say I do look so much like her, although she's a bit chubby while I'm skinny, but when you look at me, you could possibly tell she's my mother.

Although sometimes I don't really see it, whenever I take pictures with her, I end up seeing the older version of me to be honest.....

"There she is, how was your trip?" She asked as she carefully examined me to make sure I was looking fit since I hardly eat food. "It was amazing as always," I said. I took my bag and we both went inside while my dad went to park in the garage.

Immediately I walked inside, my siblings (Two older girls and two younger boys) came out from their rooms, I figured they didn't hear the sound of the car so they had no idea I had returned

Our eldest daughter Jennifer is 17 at the moment, she is almost about to graduate from high school, you can tell from her attitude because she knows she is about to become a full grown adult, while the second daughter Monica, she is 16 years old, she is so beautiful that she was the first to have a boyfriend even before our eldest daughter, but what can I say boy likes good things don't they?

Don't even get me started on our first son, although he's just 13 years old he's so annoying, you know that one sibling that you just feel like murdering not killing you know like, they just pissed you off because of how annoying and silly they can be, that was my brother Jordan, and I know I'm not the only one who feels like killing him, my two sisters do too, although he gets along with Monica than all of us he's still annoying and doesn't know when to stop, the one thing I appreciate is how helpful he can be at times other than that please spare me the love your blood nor matter what.

Lastly is Kelvin, he's 9 years old, the baby of the house, when you talk about an angel, that's Kelvin so sweet and fun, he's my favorite and sometimes I feel like I'm his favorite as well, he gets so much love from everyone that it seems hard to him to have a favorite, even though Jennifer wouldn't let anyone into her room but not Kelvin he's always welcomed, although he can be stubborn when he wants to be but I bet you he's so sweet that you just can't see him do anything wrong.

When you talk about bonds, remember when I told you that I wasn't really anyone's favorite, while you already guessed, Jennifer and Monica kinda get along or let's say Jennifer loves Monica a lot more than all of us, while Jennifer and I we kinda don't connect so well but she's my sister, not like we hate each other but she wouldn't let me borrow any of her things but Monica can, even when I asked for permission she wouldn't give me but Monica can have it without asking.

Monica and I connect well but that's because she finds me way cooler than Jennifer, she would tell me things and ask me not to tell anyone, and she shared secrets with me more than anyone else, so she's always around me you know wanting to know what's going on with me while she shares her secrets and updates with me and personality I appreciate it, only because I feel good than she trusts me more than she trusts Jennifer even though she loves her more than all of us.

You already guessed Jordan and I don't go a day without wanting to kill each other; he's so annoying that he plays stupid and risky pranks on you. One time he touched a leaf that scratched the shit out of him, he brought it home and asked me to rub it on my body after lying to me that it brings out water, out of curiosity I did and it was brutal I was scratching myself to dead while he stood there laughing so you know why I don't really trust him, he's so mischievous, although sometimes we gist and talk you know he's your blood and all.. but boy is annoying.

"Flat ass, you are back," Jennifer teased. "Welcome home," she said and walked inside; I simply smiled and wasn't expecting anything more anyway. Monica hugged me. I could tell she had lots of secrets to share with me "Grannie's baby, how are you?" She asked; I told her I was doing great.

"Ooh, I thought you were going to live with Grandma forever?" Jordan asked, no hello or welcome but I wasn't even bothered. I mean, his being too nice was going to be weird anyway, so it's better that way. Plus, I'm already used to it.

Monica helped me carry my bag as she began asking me loads of questions about Florida and if I met any cool boys there; before I could say anything or answer her questions, she began telling me about this new guy she added on Facebook and how cool and handsome he was

Chapter 5

"Guys, hurry up, you are gonna be late, but it's not like I have any other choice but to go. "Did you see my wristwatch?" Monica asked, standing at the door looking a bit anxious, "No I haven't, I wasn't even around remember?" I said, she sighed, and walked away

Just then my phone buzzed, I picked it up and saw a message notification from my bestie, Felly "You won't believe the gist I have for you, I have waited so long to finally tell you this" The content read

I smiled and put my phone away, although I became curious what it was going to be, we spoke throughout the holiday and I could tell she was hiding something because of her constant posts on her status and her always being busy, I felt she was hiding something but I'm glad she just wanted to tell me in person

"Hey Anna, please can I borrow your black hoodie, please, please, I haven't washed mine," Jordan pleaded with me.

Seeing how serious and anxious he was, I decided to say yes, plus I just got back, and he hasn't done anything yet to piss me off, so he's still in my good book for now. I signaled him to go grab it from my wardrobe. "Thank you! Thank you so much, " he excitedly said and went to my wardrobe and took it, thanking me one more time before making his way to the door.

We were all already to leave, I was the last one to get downstairs, only to find out that my dad left with the rest of them without me "What? Didn't you leave with them?" She asked as she looked surprised. Don't worry this is not the first time they have forgotten me and the worst part is that none of my siblings could speak up and say I wasn't around

I just made my way to the door without saying anything to my mom, as she already understood how disappointed I was whenever my dad and siblings did things like this. Normally I would go over to the neighbor's house and plead with him to drop me off since his office is close to my school. "You know what? Just hold on, I will drop you off, darling," my Mom said before I opened the door. She quickly went to the table looking for her key. Seeing how determined and sorry she was, I decided to wait for her.

"Let's go, hun," she said as soon as she grabbed her key. We both left the house, making our way to the car I got into the car I was furious. This was the first day of resumption, and I couldn't afford to be sad or upset.

I began imagining how disappointed my dad would be in himself if he realized he did it again and maybe even yell at my siblings and tell them how much of a terrible siblings they were and maybe Jennifer might get upset and tell him if he would have been a good father he wouldn't have forgotten any of his kids and on a second thought I figured it was gonna cause a big problem for the family so I quickly stopped imagining such ridiculous things I already know my dad isn't gonna be affected that much so it was fine.

"Hey, I know how disappointed you are when this keeps happening over and over again, but I'm truly sorry for that, and don't you worry, I will be dropping you off from now on, okay?" She said as she placed her hands on mine. I don't even know what to say to her "I guess that's fine at least I won't be bothered by being left behind" I said and she chuckled although I wasn't trying to be funny but I guess she was just trying to cheer me up

Just then her phone started ringing, I figured this was definitely gonna be my dad when he figured he had done it again, my Mom at first refused to pick up which made me a bit happy but after the third ringing she decided to pick up "John?... Why? I thought you always take them to school.... I don't know.... I said I don't know, why don't you check your car, maybe she's hiding somewhere..... Whatever bye" she disconnected the call and hissed

I felt a bit relieved seeing he got scolded, at least I can't tell him what's exactly on my mind but now I feel happy at least, few minutes later we arrived at the school my dad and siblings were standing outside I guess they were waiting to see if the neighbor would drop me off as usual but surprisingly to them it was Mom, as soon as we got down from the car, my Mom went to Jennifer

"What kind of behavior is it, young lady? You are the eldest, can't you at least notice your sister wasn't with you? Can we explain that it always has to be her who gets left behind? This is not the first time it has happened. It's not pleasant at all. At least check on your sisters before leaving the house. How many times do I have to tell you that?" She yelled at her not minding the attention she was drawing to herself and Jennifer.

I believe we all know that part when we try not to get emotional about things but when someone tries defending you and puts it in a way you didn't even view it in, then you begin feeling emotional to the extent of crying, that's exactly what happened to me, tears began rolling down my eyes as I heard her say "why do I always get to be the one that it's left behind" I could see her sympathetic face, although I didn't want her to see me crying but I could not help it I might have over stored my tears, making it overflowing "I'm sorry darling okay, don't let it get to you it's not your fault, I will see you later" she said and walked away, I decided I was definitely not speaking to them, so I walked away as well without saying anything

Chapter 6

I was about to turn to the next page when he walked in, Fred, it's been three years since I saw him but my heart was saying something different, I thought I had moved on from whatever it was we shared but I was wrong, no amount of time we did not spend together would erase the memories we shared

Fred was my savior and he had no idea I included him in my book. I mean why wouldn't I? He's my first love and everything I didn't know I wanted in a man, Fred, my sunshine. I still remember our first kiss like it was yesterday, but I was no longer 18 years old, I'm now 21 years old.

But I still feel like running into his arms, into the arms of the man who saved me from my nightmare, who stood by me through it all. But I know why he's here, do I? First his family said we can't be together, they said I was taking advantage of him and kindness, I mean who wouldn't think the same, he took care of half of my bills, even though I couldn't afford living comfortably in a huge city like New York but he assured me that I couldn't lack anything and he kept his words, I never did and maybe that's why his family assumed I was with him because of his money but that wasn't true, I really loved him with everything in me.

I could see the way, Josh was looking at me, he was giving me signal, as though he was trying to communicate something, I stared in curiosity, but then I noticed I have been quiet for a while now, while my audience were gazing at me, "I'm so sorry, got a little carried away" I said not meaning to be funny but they laughed, trying to ease the tension.

"Well, let's continue then" I said as I turned to the next chapter of my book

I can't say my family hates me but I mean the treatment I got was a little bit doubting if they didn't, I didn't say anything else, simply waved my mother goodbye and walked in while my siblings followed suit.

Immediately I stepped into the school premiere, I felt sick to my stomach, I guess I wasn't prepared but like I said earlier I don't have a choice

It was as though she knew I needed someone to cheer me up and there she was, Felly my best friend, unlike me she is a bit tall, slim, and beautiful sometimes I wonder why she even chose to be my friend, Felly was from a wealthy home, the kind of family that would often gift her friends, expensive things. Her dad is a well-known movie producer, while her mother owns a cosmetic brand in Florida. My first laptop was given to me by her mom, the first time she had introduced me to her mom as her best friend. Three months after the introduction, Felly celebrated her birthday, and her mother gave me the laptop as a thank you for the package. In all of this, Felly was down to earth, too humble to be noticed and too quiet to underestimated because you can never tell what's on her mind but whatever she was around me, she becomes a baby, despite being a wealthy kid, she goes to the same high school as the average kids, well the actual reason was because her grandmother together with her father built this school, so Felly and her siblings all attend the same use with us. "How was the holiday?" she asked, smiling. I smiled back, forgetting everything that had happened that morning.

"Nothing new but it's was exciting as usual" as the words were escaping my lips I noticed her attention wasn't on me, she was busy staring at Sam, and surprisingly he was staring right now, the kind of eye contacts that tells you there is definitely something going on, he smiled and then I saw it, he just winked at her, seriously? I whispered, though I thought I said it out loud, she didn't frown when he did that instead she blushed.

It all began to make sense, the mind-blowing stuff she texted me about this morning, it's all Sam, I mean, how come? Don't get me wrong, I'm not jealous or anything, but it's surprising, you know that one person you just don't associate with simply because your best friend told you they weren't good people? It was Sam.

Although I never had an encounter with him personally even before Felly and I became friends but I could tell he was not the quiet or simple kind of guy, Sam was somehow a show off, there's no way Sam would do something big and it would die down with him, everyone knows, sometimes we would be eating in the cafeteria, Sam and his guys would be laughing while they would be cheering for him over God knows what, Felly would look over at their corner with nothing but irritating eyes, sometimes I do laugh, she would then turn and say to me "God! I just hate that Sam is a guy, thinking he's always better than everyone, what a show off" I would always smile whenever she made those comments. It wasn't anything new.

And if I'm not wrong, they were both smiling at each other, before I could demand an explanation or maybe confirm my doubts, he walked up to us, "Hey Anna," he said, without waiting for a response, he shifted his attention to Felly, "So I will see you during lunch?" He asked in a flirty manner. Felly nodded her head. He smiled and walked away.

The school bell rang, indicating classes were about to begin," Seriously? I guess this is my mind-blowing surprise, huh?" I said and walked away, I wasn't mad or jealous. I mean, I never looked at Sam in that way, not even for once, but I know it wasn't right, especially when she's the one who told me to avoid him.

As soon as I entered the class, I intentionally sat down next to someone else so she wouldn't have the opportunity to sit beside me, like she always does. Felly quickly walked in and since the seat beside me was already taken she decided to sit at my back.......