Jwala:

He held my hand and kept another hand in his pocket to take something. I was sure that he would award me the worst punishment. I didn't understand the reason behind his anger at me whenever I talk to my best friend Aadarsh or any other guy.

Is Agni possessive towards me? Then why did he send me to clients? No, he is not possessive. He wanted to hurt me, and now he had a reason to do that. I blocked the vision of my Baby blue to prepare myself for the upcoming torture.

Instead of pain, I felt something slid over my finger. I opened my eyes. He smiled looking at me. It was the first time I saw his smile.

"He is very handsome when he smiles," said my heart.

No, I shouldn't fall for his charm. Inner beauty is more important than outer beauty. He might look great, but he is a demon. I should never forget it.

I looked at my hand to check what he did. He kept a ring with name "Agni" engraved on it. I didn't understand his intention.

"Don't be afraid of me. I won't let even a single scratch appear on your body until my Baby is in your womb. After your delivery, it depends on your behaviour" he said kissing my hand.

"This ring means that you are mine and only mine. Anyways remember from next time I shouldn't see you talking to any man except me. Be careful about that or I will forget that you are carrying my child" he warned me.

"Now let's talk about the punishment. If my kid is not in your womb, I would have made you starve for three days and would decorate your body beautifully with the strokes of my belt. Now I can't do that. Nonetheless, I will punish you. The punishment should be only to you but not to my Baby," he said and thought for a few minutes.

"Let's play a game."

"What?"

"From tomorrow let's act as husband and wife. You must take care of me, and arrange everything for me. Let me see what kind of a life partner you will be. Remember sweetheart; if you commit a mistake in acting like my wife, orphanage won't be your's as still our contract is on. This acting gives you a good experience to be a good wife after our marriage," he smirked.

"No, I can't do that," I said.

"Already you have done everything that a wife does. You gave pleasure to me. You are carrying my child. So I don't think it's that tough. However, I am not bothered by your opinion. From tomorrow you are going to lead a life of my wife. I will have more fun now," he said, and a haze of fear surrounded me.

"Go and take rest. I have no mood to go to the office now. So for today, there is no work for you" Agni said.

I slept in my room. I remembered Agni's behaviour after conceiving and before that.

I can't marry him or abort my child. How can I give a dignified life to my kid without marrying him? What if this child becomes as Agni who disrespects women and views them as a pleasure giving machines?

I can't trust Agni's sudden transmutation. He always insults and lacerates me. For him, I am not a human. I am just a machine which bears every torture. What can I do if he tortures me again after delivery? He loves his child but not me. I am not even expecting his love, but at least he should respect me and treat me as a human.

I don't think marriage works for us. It destroys my life more. What about my child? Agni is right; this is my Baby and sharing my blood too. I placed my hand on my womb thinking about my kid. I can't kill this child. At the same time, I can't marry a beast.

I cried till my eyes were swollen and drifted into sleep thinking about my helpless life. I opened my eyes feeling someone's touch. I found Agni kissing my forehead. He smiled at me. He sat on the bed beside me, and I moved away. Why did he come into my room after fifteen days? Is he going to take me harshly for talking to that colleague? No, I can't bear. My eyes filled with water drops.

"Hey, why are you crying? Are you suffering from a stomach ache or something? Are you fine? Why are you looking dull?" He said with genuine concern.

I was in intense shock. Does Agni worry about me? No no maybe for his child.

"I am fine," I said.

"Then?" Agni inquired.

"Why did you come into my room?" I asked.

"What? Come again. Which is your room? This is my house, Baby. I can come here anytime I wish. So, shut your mouth to save your body from bearing pain. Already you escaped punishment today as you are carrying my child," he said looking at me.

"I.. Amm.. Sorry."

"Ok fine, if you are scared of me imagining that I came to fulfil my need, you are wrong. I came to give you food," Agni said and gave food to me.

I looked at my mobile. It's dinner time. I slept for a long time.

"Have it. If you want anything to eat, you can inform maids or me."

I had my food. Agni took the plate.

"Now sleep calmly without straining your brain or heart. I promise you, Jwala; I won't hurt you. I won't touch you without your consent from now. Please at least for our child, marry me. Today, your parents called me saying next week I can come to see you. I think they will ask you to return home soon."

No, I should talk to my parents. But what can I say if they ask the reason for refusing Agni? In society, Agni had a good reputation. Only very few know his original character. Everyone thinks Agni is admirable and loves him. But I am the one who saw his cruelty. I hate him. I am sure after delivery; he will start his torture again.

"Jwala, I may not be a good person but not a bad guy too. I had my reasons to become like this. I have no respect towards women because my life got spoiled because of a woman."

"I am not interested to know your past. A woman might have spoiled your life, but you have no right to ruin my life. As you destroyed my life, do you mean I should hate every man?"

"Don't worry you will never get a chance to love or hate any man. Because either it's your hate or love, it belongs only to me," He said smirking.

My phone rang.

"I think it's your dad," he said.

He is right.

"Hello, Dad."

"How are you, Jwala?"

"I am fine, dad."

"Jwala, you got a good alliance. He is rich in heart and status. We know we are not suitable for him. But, he said he loved you seeing you in a college program. His name is Agni. We talked to him. We felt he is right for you.

We asked him to come to see you. You need to reach our village in the next week," my dad said.

"Dad, I want to study more. I didn't want to marry," I said, and Agni passed an angry look towards me.

"Jwala, you see him and talk to him. If you like him, only then we will settle the marriage. Otherwise, we won't force you. Don't worry; we respect your opinion," dad said.

"Ok dad, I will come," I said and disconnected the call.

"Jwala, you can study even after our marriage but after delivery. I won't stop you."

Why is he so stubborn to marry me? How can I break this marriage?

"I love someone else" I lied to make him cancel the wedding.

Jwala:

"I love someone else" I lied to make him cancel the marriage.

Agni turned red with fury. My heart was beating fast with fear. What if he hurts me now? Why will he do that? He doesn't love me. Does it matter to him if I love someone?

"Did you stop only at love or did you sleep with that someone else?" He asked, and the uninvited guest, i.e., tears arrived immediately.

How can he talk like that? It may be easy for him but not for me.

"Is it my child or someone else's or don't you know the father of the child?" Agni said holding my hairs.

"Shut up, Agni" I shouted for the first time at him.

Agni is killing me with his words. He sat on the bed beside me. I tried to get up from the bed, but he held my wrist tightly which made me feel that blood circulation may stop to my hand at any time.

"Agni, leave me," I said, but he didn't listen.

With another hand, he touched my belly.

"Is it my child or not?" He said and started tightening the grip on my stomach.

I was scared of his tight grip on my stomach. What if something happens to my child? I slapped Agni. He looked at me and left hold on my wrist and stomach.

"Are you insane? Are you trying to kill my Baby?" I fumed at Agni.

Agni smiled seeing me touching my stomach as if trying to soothe the unborn kid.

"I know you love our child. This child is precious to you too as for me."

I didn't say anything. Till now, I too didn't know that I love child of this beast, but it's quite obvious because a mother can never stop herself from loving her child.

"Till now I tortured you so much, but you never dared to slap me. Today just for tightening grip a bit on your stomach, you hit me. It means you are ready to do anything for our child."

Really? Am I that attached to my child? I touched my stomach with my hand to feel my Baby. If it's my kid, why do I think that she/he may become like Agni? My child may become like her/his mother when I raise my child in the absence of this beast.

"Look Jwala; I am not a fool. Do you think without knowing about you, I decided to marry you? No way, Baby. I know everything about you. You are never in love with anyone. Though you have friends in boys and few guys in your college proposed you, you never cared for them as you have deep respect towards your family. I don't like you befriending men at your college. However, I will take care of it after marriage. I am the only person in your life from now, keep this in your mind, or I will make you remember it in my harsh way," he said kissing my lips softly which I never felt until today.

He used to kiss me harshly all the time as if he wants to show his hatred towards me, though I never knew, the reason for his hatred. Does Agni inquiry about me? But why? Why is he interested in me when I am nothing but a whore to him?

"Honey, the only thing I didn't understand is why did you forget the respect towards your family when you slept with me before marriage? Is it just for a girl who is not less than a sl*t who sell her sincerity and honesty for money or for those old people and orphans who have no relationship with you? What will you get in return for this Jwala? If that sl*t Vigna or those orphanage people know about our relationship, they won't understand your sacrifice rather they blame your character. Why can't you understand this?"

"I don't care. I just did what I felt right. If sacrificing my life can make more people happy, then I am ready to do it."

"Sweetheart, being selfless will be your biggest mistake in life if I leave you with a child without marrying you. Anyways I am not saying that I am saving you from humiliation or something like that by marrying you. Because only to marry you, I impregnated you," he said.

What does he mean? Did he impregnate me intentionally? When I asked him after knowing that I am pregnant, he lied to me saying that he always used protection but somehow it was broken and I became pregnant.

"Didn't you use protection?" I asked hesitantly.

"Now you got it, not bad. You are smart. Yes, I never tried to take precaution. I want to make you as my wife, but I know you will surely reject me. So, I impregnated you through which I can marry you easily."

Disgusting! How can he be that cunning? What a man he is? No, he is not human, he is a beast. He betrayed me in every way possible.

"I am not going to marry you at any cost. Instead, I will kill myself along with our child," I shouted at him with tears.

"You must marry me, Jwala. Sacrifice your life for our child and me, Baby" he said sarcastically.

"I hate you. You are a jerk. You are a beast. You have no right to live."

"Aww my Baby, are these the mood swings during pregnancy which was told by the doctor?"

"You never opened your mouth before me except to moan when I give pleasure and plead when I give pain. Today, you are scolding me, but I love you opening your mouth only on those two occasions."

He said and came close to me pushing me to bed. He came on top of me. He started kissing my cheeks and forehead.

"I want to give pain which makes you plead for scolding me. But, now I can't-do that because of my child. So, let me make you moan the whole night by giving you unbearable pleasure which is a pain too," he said.

No, I didn't want him to touch me. I hate him. I tried my best to speak, but no words came out of my mouth due to fear and his kisses.

"By the way, I asked the doctor. He said as you are in early stage of pregnancy, I can take you," he said and moved his fingers around my neck and bosoms.

He started playing with my breasts.

"Agniiii," I said closing my eyes and biting my teeth to control myself.

He kissed my bosoms and stomach in a different manner making me moan. He stopped and left me.

"These are the sounds which you should make when you open your mouth or better shut it up," he said.

"I am not going to make love to you until you accept me. This is just a small punishment for scolding me and lying to me that you love someone else. Now take rest," he said while leaving the room.

"What if I had a crush on someone but never revealed? What if I want to marry someone and melt in his love forever? What if I have already dreamt my love and married life with the one whom I love?" I asked to see his reaction.

Does he change? Does he love his child or is he trying to trap me for that property of twenty-five crores? What if he blackmails me saying he will kill the child if I didn't give up on that orphanage?

Jwala:

Agni came towards me and gripped my jaw.

"Didn't I tell you to shut your bloody mouth? I think you won't listen to me as you know well that I won't hit you. But Baby, with one phone call, I can create tremors in your family. You know well that I can do anything using my influence and money. Just a call is enough to bring your whole family onto streets. Do you want to see my reaction to your words" he said and took his mobile.

"Agni, please please I am sorry" I pleaded him.

"You want to provoke me, isn't it? Now celebrate the consequences of your bullshit. Just a call and you will see your family on streets."

"Agni, I am sorry," I begged with tears.

"Remember you can never win the fight over me unless I choose to lose for you. Rarely I do that, and for now, we didn't develop such a strong bond between us."

"I swear I won't provoke you and I didn't want to win over you. Please, leave my family," I said.

"Stop crying, it hurts my Baby," he ordered, and I wiped my tears.

He sat on the bed.

"Good, now move aside. Let's share the same bed today," Agni said, and I moved as I can't dare to argue with him again.

"My dear sweetheart, I told you that we are playing a game of husband and wife, do you remember? My legs and hands are aching badly. My dear fiance, come on help me to get relieved from the pain."

"How?" I asked.

"Press my legs and hands until I sleep," he said lying on the bed and pecked me on the lips.

"You are an addiction, Baby. I experience ecstasy when you are with me. I hate sending you to the clients, though I want to kill your self-respect for becoming an obstacle in my way. Now, my Baby gave complete control over you," Agni said smirking.

I massaged his legs for about half an hour.

"Why did you stop, Baby? Continue till I ask you to stop," he ordered.

I resumed my work again. My hands were aching. Stupid! I scolded Agni in my mind. He noticed me looking at my hands.

"Are your hands aching?"

"Yes!"

"Okay, stop it and sleep."

I slept turning another side. Agni pulled me towards him by wrapping his hands around my waist. Our eyes met explaining unrealised feelings.

"From tomorrow I will show you how I will treat my wife. Then decide whether you will marry me or not. Jwala, I am not acting. I will give orphanage building to you," he said looking into my eyes.

"Jwala, your family is not in a good position now, but they are not telling you," he said.

I looked at him suspecting him as the reason behind the misery of my family.

"No, I didn't do anything. Your father kept surety for someone who is his friend, for a bank loan of fifty lakhs. That friend cheated on him. The bank manager sent the legal notice to your father saying they will seize your house and field if your dad fails to clear the loan. Your dad is a farmer, and if they take over the field, he can't-do anything except committing suicide."

My eyes became wet. I know my father kept surety for his close friend. How can he cheat my father? My brother never helps him with anything. Now, how will dad handle this? It's impossible for him to pay the loan. He is a farmer and knew only agriculture. How can I help him?

"Jwala, please stop crying," he said wiping my tears.

"I cleared the loan."

His words shocked me. Why did he clear the due? Is he planning something against me?

"What?"

"Yes, but I am not demanding you to marry me for that because you didn't ask me to help. I did it voluntarily. So we have no deal for that. But marry me for our child."

"I want to give a good life to our child. I want my kid to experience parents' love unlike me. Jwala, I saw hell in my life. I don't want our child to suffer. I know you are scared of me. But frankly, I won't hurt you ever after our marriage until you respect me and my words."

That's the problem Agni. I have to sacrifice my dreams, freedom, and everything if I marry you. Otherwise, you will punish me mercilessly. I will be a puppet who play as you wish but not as an individual who has feelings.

"Do you know what I expect from my husband?" I asked Agni.

"I am sure you are not beyond money because if you expect money, you would have agreed to our marriage by now. Maybe Love or caring."

"No, loyalty and sincerity."

"Do you think I am not loyal?"

"Agni, many times I saw you naked in bed with girls. As you are not my husband, I bore it. But if you are my husband, I would have died with heartbreak. I can never feel for you. I feel so disgusted when you touch me. I assume myself as garbage for allowing you to reach me. I am nothing but shit to you. You finally succeeded in making me too to feel that I am a shit.

If I marry you, I will lose my confidence forever. Please, leave me. Injuries that you made to my body will cure soon. But the scars that you've done to my heart can never be erased. I can't live in tension lifelong thinking whether my husband will sleep with other girls or will send me to other clients for deals."

He slapped me harshly showing his true self.

"Just shut up. If one more word comes from your mouth, I will kill you today. Sleep right now" Agni said dangerously.

I held my cheek and closed my eyes with tears. He never changes. He slapped me even now, but he says he will never hurt me in future. I didn't say anything wrong. I just said what he did.

In the morning I woke up and he got ready at that time. I was about to get up, but he threw the documents on my face. He threw my luggage on the floor. I checked the papers. They were orphanage building documents which he transferred to my name with immediate effect. I looked at him.

"You can leave to your hostel now. I handed over those documents to you. Now the orphanage is all your's. I am never going to come into your life again. Abort our child if you want. But, if the child is alive, I have right on my kid to see him and responsibility to give love to my child. You can raise the child allowing me to visit him and take care of him or can hand over the child to me forever and you can visit whenever you want. Decide yourself," he told me.

I got ready and about to take my luggage.

"Wait, the maid will help you," he said.

He called the maid and ordered her to keep my luggage in his car. He dropped me at my hostel. I got down. He kept my bags down. I am looking at him, but he left in his car without looking at me.

I went to my room and closed the door. I am happy. I am free from Agni. I am free from that hell. I remembered his torture. Finally, God saved me from his clutches. Thank God!

Suddenly, I realised tears were rolling down from my eyes. Why am I crying? Is it for Agni? No, I don't miss him. I should be glad for becoming free from his stupidity. But, am I really happy? What happened to me? Am I worried about my unborn Baby?

This Baby is innocent and doesn't know anything about his/her father's cruelty. I can't kill this innocent soul who wants to enter into the world with many dreams. What should I do now? I am sure if this child grows up in beast guidance; he never respects women and becomes a threat to this society. What should I do now?