ELENA

I’d spent the past few days pondering so hard on everything that’s happened recently, and the crazy web of fate I’d found myself tangled in, with the Grants.

Just why in the flying fuck was all this happening?

First it was Braden, the one I actually loved.

Then it was Luke. The bastard that deceived and seduced me just to steal from me.

Now, it was Atlas. The drop-dead gorgeous, six feet tall, striking-blue-eyed man I’d impulsively had a night-stand with.

All of them fucking Grants.

How did I get here?

No matter how much I thought about it, the blame kept falling to Braden. Yes… he was the reason I was in this mess.

I mean, if he hadn’t kept me away from his family, shielded me away, I most probably wouldn’t have been in this mess. Because then, I’d have been able to tell what kind of person Luke was, and also know he had another gorgeous man for a brother.

True, Braden had always told me his family were all bad people, and didn’t want me involved with them. It was only now I understood why he’d always been so secretive…

After Atlas had made the ridiculous proposal, and I’d pondered and pondered, without getting anywhere, I’d turned to my borderline crazy and nice friend.

“You already fucked the three brothers, Elena,” Emily had said with a ridiculous smirk on her lips. “So why not fuck with them even more?”

I’d shrugged off her words, together with the urge to slap her out of her messed up head, lamenting the poor luck I had getting entangled with three brothers.

Married two and had a one night-stand with one.

But Emily had been unrelenting with her absurd advice.

“Listen,” she’d continued, “what they did to you was purely horrid, but I have to tell you, sobbing over spilt milk, or drowning in self pity isn’t really the way to go. Trust me.”

“If Atlas Grant is offering you such a sweet deal, a way to take to take it all back from them, then you should fucking take it. I bet opportunities like this don’t come your way twice.”

I’d sighed heavily, shaking my head. “Atlas isn’t necessarily a good person, Emily. Believe me. He doesn’t even care to pretend to be one, and I think he’s going to screw me over. What happens then?”

Emily had gone ahead to slip me the contact of her lawyer, doing her best to assuage my fears.

“Contact him,” she’d said, “and he’ll help you draft a contract that can protect you in case things go south. You get me?”

Now I was seated across from the drop-dead gorgeous, blue-eyed man in this restaurant, watching him go through the contract I’d eventually drafted.

The terms had been perfectly tailored to my tastes.

How I would like to get paid.

How I intended to get back all that was stolen from me, and humiliate and expose Luke Grant for the fraud he was.

How I intended to clear my name and reveal who was really behind the manslaughter I was accused of.

How my involvement with this hunk of a man—Atlas Grant—would be strictly professional.

How I intended to gain immunity from whatever shady stuff he planned to delve into or was in, already.

The terms in the contract were fucking genius.

After long minutes of silently going through the contract, Atlas pulled his striking blue gaze up to me, a smirk on his lips, causing an electric bolt to zap through me.

What was it about those eyes? It was nothing like Braden’s. Or Luke’s.

Much colder. Much more captivating.

“What do you think of me?” His gruff voice pulled me out of my thoughts, causing me to jolt slightly. “A shady dealer?” He added, cocking a brow, then leaned forward. “Is that really all you think of me?”

There was a hint of amusement in his tone that annoyed me.

I folded my arms across my chest so I could look a little tough. “I know there’s more to you than meets the eye, Atlas Grant. You can’t fool me, you know.”

“And just so you know,” I leaned forward also, matching his intimidating gaze, “I really wouldn’t want to know that part of you.”

He chuckled then, a deep timbre that instantly sent a bit of heat between my thighs.

What. The fuck. Is wrong with me?

Why was I reacting to the sound of his laughter?

“You’re smart, Elena Carlson,” he said, leaning back and still watching me with that intense gaze. “I’ll give you that.”

“Well,” I lifted my shoulders in a nonchalant shrug, “spending years in prison will teach you a thing or two. Undoubtedly.”

“I see,” he replied, then glanced down at the document. “So, about this last part,” he lifted his head again, a smug smile playing on his lips, “isn’t it a bit too much?”

I cocked a brow, wondering what he was talking about because I couldn’t really remember what that last part was about. “What do you mean?”

He pushed the document to the side and leaned forward. “What if I want to get reacquainted with the taste of you?”

Instantly, I remembered what was in that last part, and I swallowed hard, a memory of this blue-eyed hunk tasting my wetness flashing through my mind.

A blush creeped into my cheeks and I averted my eyes from his, adjusting in my seat so I could calm the vicious throbbing in my panties.

I cleared my throat. “That clause is just as important as the rest in the contract, Atlas,” I replied as bluntly as I could, “and if you sign the contract, we have to keep this strictly professional. No sexual contact.” I paused, adjusting in my seat as he wouldn’t stop looking at me in that way that made me feel uncomfortable and good at the same time. “And didn’t you say you don’t do relationships?”

He shrugged, leaning back. “I did say that,” he replied, “but it still doesn’t mean I wouldn’t do a lot of unspeakable things to you, Elena.”

Goosebumps scattered across my skin as he said those words, and I suddenly couldn’t even regulate my own breathing, or articulate my fucking thoughts, or think of anything to say in response.

The way he says my name. God.

Just what kind of man was I about to sign a deal with?

And even most importantly, why wasn’t I appalled by the thought of him doing whatever unspeakable things he had in mind to me?

Worse, I feared I looked forward to the day he did those things. Again..

ELENA

I watched as Atlas picked up the document and threw it down in front of him, keeping his gaze fixed on mine all the while.

His gaze was electrifying, and somehow rid me of every saliva in my mouth, making me squirm in my seat.

“Are you going to sign that or not?” I croaked out, sticking out my tongue and running it across my lower lip.

He cocked a brow as his fingers skimmed the document to the last page. “Did I say I wasn’t going to?” He shot back, his voice low and husky, his eyes dark and droopy.

I adjusted again in my seat, clearing my throat as I suddenly felt small under his intimidating gaze. “Well, uhm,” I licked my lips again, my teeth grazing it a bit, “you’re just wasting a lot of time, so I think m-maybe you don’t want to. Because if you’re cool with the terms, you would have—“

He scoffed in a surprisingly polite manner, cutting me off, then bent his head and scribbled his signature at the bottom of the page. “You didn’t think I was simply mesmerized by your beauty?” He asked after a while, and my breath caught in my throat.

Did he just casually call me beautiful?

Why was he flirting so openly? What made him so fucking audacious? And tempting?

“W-what?” I stuttered when I finally found my voice, and he pulled his gaze to me, mischief playing behind those blue eyes.

“Don’t act so modest, Elena,” he said as he reached over to drop the document next to my hand on the table, his fingers brushing mine and leaving sparks. “You’re fucking beautiful. Own it.”

I swallowed, a red hotness creeping into my cheeks, and I found that weird because people called me beautiful all the time.

Braden used to call me that all the time.

But I couldn’t deny the fact that it never made my heart flutter the way it was doing now, looking at this mysterious man with a mischievous smirk on.

As I took the pen from him and pulled my gaze to the document, I could feel his gaze hot on my face, and it made my heart race even faster.

What was he thinking?

“I can’t wait to explore you, Elena,” he added after moments of heated silence, and I quickly whipped my gaze to his face, hot all over.

“What did you say?” I demanded, my breath raspy.

“Sorry,” he smirked, “I meant I can’t wait to explore with you.”

Was he playing with me? Teasing me?

Well, the truth was, I knew what he was doing. And I hated that I was indulging him, being all flushed and fevered, instead of shunning him.

Pathetic…

Lost in the depths of his blue gaze, I struggled internally to calm my thrashing heart, wondering why the fuck I was reacting to him this way.

Did he have some kind of hold on me? Would it be wise to sign this contract?

As we held each other’s gaze, the air between us electrified, he started to lean forward, his hand snaking forward, and just as his fingers skimmed my wrist, my pinged loudly and I jumped.

He drew back, smiling, as I glanced down at the screen of my phone to see a text from Luke.

~•Come get your stuff yourself, bitch. I’m not your fucking errand boy.

I let out a frustrated sigh, the tension worn off already, as I scribbled my signature on the document.

I’d asked the thieving bastard to send my stuff to me. Things I couldn’t just let go of. Valuables I couldn’t stand losing. Things I’d shared with Braden.

Things that had been part of my life before the Grants fucked me over.

I wanted them back…

I pushed the chair backwards and rose to my feet, pocketing my phone. “Well,” I started, glancing down at Atlas who seemed puzzled by my sudden movement, “I guess we’re done here.”

“But—“

“So I’ll be on my way now,” I quickly interrupted whatever he was about to say, suddenly impatient. “I have somewhere to be right now,” I explained as I started to walk away, “so I’ll probably mail over your own copy of the contract. See you around.”

Before he could say a word, I was already out the door and flagging down a cab.

The cab pulled over to the curb and I got in, spilling the address to the driver quickly.

As the car went into motion again, I leaned my head against the headrest and let out a deep sigh.

Thinking about it now, I’d been through hell. And why the hell do I deserve all this?

From losing the love of my life to the cold hands of death, to ending up in jail for manslaughter, and realizing afterwards, that I’ve been deceived by the sly fox, Luke, all this time.

Now I was getting tangled in yet another web with Atlas.

What did I do so wrong to be dealt so ugly a fate?

Almost thirty minutes later, the cab pulled up in front of Luke's imposing penthouse, which had once been home to me. What a lie my life has been.

“Thank you,” I said to the driver, tipping him off, then I turned around and took a deep breath, before taking careful, calculated steps up to the front gate.

I rang the doorbell twice, and shortly after, the butler appeared at the gate.

“Ms. Elena,” he acknowledged me with a slight tilt of his head as he opened the gates, letting me in, and I nodded at him in response.

Just as I stepped into the penthouse, a woman with piercing green eyes, high cheekbones and blond-almost-white hair came strutting down the stairs, her sly gaze on my face.

She was the lady from the engagement… The same one Luke was divorcing me for..

His wife-to-be…

I stopped myself from rolling my eyes as I went up the stairs, and just as I walked past her, her voice rang out behind me.

“Elena Carlson, right?” Her tone was just as condescending as her expression, laced with mockery, and even though I tried hard to ignore her, I still found myself turning to face her.

“Hello,” she added, the smirk on her lips stretching.

“Yes,” came my stiff response, as I wasn’t interested in indulging her. I just wanted to smack that cockiness off her face.

“I’m Sophia,” she introduced, folding her arms across her chest. “Luke’s fiancée.”

“I see.”

She gave me a quick once over, then scoffed. “Elena, you know you don’t belong here, right?”

“Well I’m just here to get my things, Ms. Sophia,“ I bit back almost immediately, “so if you—“

“So be fast about it, then,” she interrupted, spreading her palm in an arrogant gesture, “because you would have to leave town soon.”

I paused, my eyes drilling holes into her face.

“Everyone knows you’re an ex-convict now,” she added with a shrug, “so it’s best if you just leave, to save face, you know.”

I let out a derisive scoff and closed the distance between us. “And you think I’ll just leave town because of that? Or because you said so?”

When she said nothing in response, only staring up at me with a smug smile, I shook my head. “You should be careful, Ms. Sophia,” I spat, taking a step back from her, “because I was once where you are right now, and I know what it feels like being there. Thinking you have it all.. They’re going to use you, trust me. That’s what they do.”

Without another word, and ignoring her suddenly fearful and curious expression, I turned around and walked up the stairs to my room.

I didn’t need to seek anyone’s permission to get into my own room, because I once lived here and knew my way around.

As I stepped through the doors, I breathed in the familiar smell of my room, which caused a flurry of memories rushing into my head.

Sighing, I snapped out of my reverie and pushed towards the closet, pulling out the large box which I'd used to store most of my stuff.

A few seconds into looking through the box, the door pulled open behind me, and I whirled around to see like striding in like he owned the fucking room.

“What do you want?” I demanded immediately, eyeing him as I rose to my feet, and he smirked, looking at me in that way that would have turned me on before I found out he was an asshole.

“You didn’t miss me?” He asked with a slight shake of his head, his eyes raking over me hungrily.

“Never,” I spat, “and you know that.”

“Okay,” he scoffed. “Did you miss how I used to fuck you, then?”

I cocked my brows, rolling my eyes. “Don’t be ridiculous, Luke. You were nowhere near—“

Suddenly, he closed the distance between us in two quick strides, pinning me up against the closet and crowding me in.

“Don’t think I don’t own you, Elena, just because we’re divorced,” he warned. “I own all of you. Every part of you.”

Unable to stop myself, I opened my mouth wide in a hysterical laughter, my head falling backwards.

Then I pushed him off me with one hard shove. “I would rather die than be with you again, Luke. You better get that into your thick skull.”

“Also,” I slapped his hand away, “you should know I plan to fuck you over. So brace yourself.”

His brows furrowed in a frown. “Is that a threat?”

“No,” I spat. “It’s a warning.”

ELENA

I had barely gotten any farther away from Luke, not even close to the door, when he suddenly grabbed my wrist from behind, whirling me around to face him.

I glared up at him, forcing myself to not wince from the pain of being held so tightly. Roughly. Viciously.

“What?” I snapped when he wouldn’t say anything, staring down at me with a mix of confusion and rage on his face.

Almost like he couldn’t figure out how I’d gotten so gutsy…

“So,” he started, his tone cold, “you’re gutsy enough to give me warnings now, huh?”

I shoved his wrist off, shrugging. “Well, you could say, ‘more self aware’.”

I scoffed as his pupils dilated in even more surprise, and I flipped my hair backwards. “Stay the fuck away from me, Luke.”

As I turned around again, he followed me still, out of the room and down the stairs, howling threats at me.

“Think you can come into my house and give me warnings?” He yelled, his voice straining with agitation. “I’ll fucking ruin you, Elena! Don’t you dare me!”

Completely ignoring him, I stormed towards the door that was held open by a grinning Sophia, and I paused at the entrance, turning to glare at her.

“What?” She demanded, cocking a brow. When I didn’t say a word, she chuckled softly, shaking her head. “Cat’s got your tongue now, huh? Well, for your information, dear Elena, you’re not welcome here,” she swept her arm around the house in a wide gesture. “At all. So you better make sure you don’t show your face around here, again, else you’d be asking for trouble.” She snickered, squaring her shoulders. “I know you feel jealous, and you want your spot back already, but—“

I scoffed derisively when it seemed like she was yapping too much in my ears, shaking my head. “All I feel for you, is pity, Sophia.”

Ignoring the look of hurt and confusion that crossed her features, I whirled away from her and walked out the door, without a second glance at Luke, who had stood there with his gaze burning into my face all the while.

Burning with rage, I stormed to a stop just outside their gate, panting heavily.

I’d whipped out my phone to call a ride to Emily’s place, but on second thought, I didn’t think her borderline energy was anything I needed around me now.

Now, I had only one other place I could go to whenever I felt so overwhelmed.

I tapped a few numbers into the phone, and a few minutes later, a cab arrived at the gate.

I slid into the backseat and gave the cab driver the address, resting against the headrest and snapping my eyes shut in exhaustion.

“Can we stop by Molly’s on our way there?” I asked in a clear voice moments later, my eyes fluttering open to see the cab driver peeking at me through the rearview mirror. “I need to pick up some flowers.”

“Sure,” he replied, nodding. “It’s just going to attract a few extra dollars.”

“I’ll pay, let’s just..go.”

The ride was quiet and kind of soothing, as if the driver knew what kind of mood I was in, and put on some soft jazz that seeped into my nerves and lightened my mood a bit.

We stopped by Molly’s about ten minutes later, and I picked up a bouquet of white carnations. He’d always loved them, for some reason.

We were soon en route again, and shortly after, the car pulled to a stop just at the foot of a large grassy area that had a number of gravestones planted a stone-throw away from each other.

I got out and held out a few dollar notes to the cab driver, who thanked me with a nod and sped off a second later.

Inhaling deeply, I slowly turned around to face the yard, knots of longing and remembrance twisting deep in my chest.

I lifted my foot and took an unsteady step forward, my palms gripping the white carnations like they were going to disappear, and soon, I walked into the yard, past several other gravestones, my eyes fixed on just one a little mile ahead.

With each step I took, drawing me closer to him, my breath grew shorter, and the memories came flooding back.

Memories of him. Memories with him.

And with the memories, came a heavy rush of sadness, awakening the grief I’d long tried to bury.

I pulled to a stop in front of his grave, my legs quivering beneath me, my palms sweaty, my vision blurry with hot, stinging tears.

“Braden,” I whispered, the ache in my chest spreading further, to every other part of my body, and soon, I slid to the floor, weak with emotions.

And resting my head against his gravestone, I weeped long and hard, snot and all. Tears of pain and regret. Anger and confusion. Longing… Despair…

Tears I’d somehow managed to keep locked up in a steep well, waiting to combust like a bag of ions.

The white carnations were crushed in my palm all this while, and when I’d eventually cried to my heart’s content, I managed a clumsy attempt to smoothen the creases and laid it on the gravestone.

“Braden, baby,” I started in a voice hoarse with emotions, and lots of rain, “I’m sorry I haven’t visited all these while.”

I sat backwards, pulling my knees up to my chin. “It’s just…been a lot happening with me, since you know,” I shrugged, “since you left.”

Heaving a deep sigh, I reached forward and pulled the box I’d carried from Luke’s house close. Then I reached inside and pulled out a bottle of gin I’d kept hidden away in my room back then, and two glasses.

“It’s just been a lot,” I continued, pouring the gin into the glasses and clinking them together, “and somehow, my visits trailed to a patter, and I stopped showing up entirely.”

I twisted my lips in a small, sad smile, then lifted the glass to them, taking a sip.

“Don’t get me wrong, Braden,” I continued in a soft voice, the voices of guilt inside my head ringing out as his, “I’m not trying to make excuses for not coming to visit you for a long time. I’m just here to say I’m sorry.”

Sighing, I stared down into the glass, past the clear-as-day content, the knot in my chest twisting around harder.

“You know,” I continued, twirling the glass in my fingers, “I’ve been doing lots of thinking lately.”

“About how you’d come into my life like a knight in shining armor,” I chuckled softly, shaking my head, “when it was all bleak and lonely, a typical orphan’s world. And then you’d added so much color, Braden,” I added in a whisper. “So much that I thought that I’d finally stumbled onto some real blessing.”

I chuckled again, the gin suddenly too bitter in my mouth. “But it turns out life had some other plans for me.” My eyes slid down to his name engraved in bold letters, running the tips of my fingers across them in a soft caress. “For us.”

“And I discovered finding you might not be a blessing after all, but a curse,” I added, my voice breaking, and

sniffing, I reached up to wipe at the drop of tear that had slipped down my cheek.

“I miss you, Braden,” I continued in the smallest, withered voice, and just then, in the midst of my sorrow, I heard the faint scrunching of footsteps behind me.

Startled, my heart skipping a few beats, I whirled around to see a man standing there, his tall frame blocking the sunlight, so I couldn’t see his face.

But when he eventually stepped a little to the side, the sun hitting his face slightly, my jaw hung open in a silent gasp.