The chemo left me entirely empty. I walked out of Cedars-Sinai and stopped on the sidewalk. My legs felt like lead. The Los Angeles sun was blinding today. It hurt my eyes. My stomach rolled with severe nausea. I just wanted to go back to my dark room and sleep.
I walked slowly to the parking lot. Before I could unlock my old car, a black town car pulled up. It blocked me in. The back door flew open.
Luella Grant stepped out. Her face was pale and drawn, but her eyes burned with rage. She looked thinner. I knew she had ended up in the ER yesterday. Kolson’s assistant had accidentally let it slip when I called to cancel my health insurance. A panic attack.
Brynlee stepped out right behind her. She held Luella’s arm gently.
"You murderer," Luella hissed. Her voice cracked. She wasn't just angry. She was grieving.
I leaned against my car door. I didn't have the strength to stand straight. "Luella—"
"Don't speak to me!" she screamed. People in the parking lot turned to look. She didn't care. "You killed my grandchild! You destroyed our family's future because you couldn't handle Kolson having a friend. You did this out of pure spite!"
I looked at Brynlee. She stood slightly behind Luella. Her face was a perfect mask of tragedy. She had fed Luella this story. She took a grieving mother and pointed her like a loaded gun right at me.
"Luella, please," Brynlee said softly. She rubbed Luella’s back. "Don't upset yourself. Remember your heart."
"She has no heart!" Luella cried out. Her hands shook violently. "You are nothing but a cold, vindictive woman, Selena. You never deserved my son."
I didn't defend myself. I didn't tell her about the cancer. What was the point? They had already written my story.
Brynlee stepped forward. She let go of Luella and moved close to me. The scent of her heavy floral perfume made my stomach turn again. She reached into her designer tote bag and pulled out a thick manila envelope.
She slid out a stack of papers. A divorce agreement.
"I'm so sorry it has to be this way, Selena," Brynlee said aloud. Her voice was pure sympathy. But her eyes were dead.
She leaned in close. Her lips were right by my ear.
"This is the kindest thing you can do for him now," she whispered. Her voice was like venom wrapped in silk.
She pressed a heavy gold pen into my hand.
I looked down at the papers. Kolson’s name was already printed at the top. I felt a sharp ache in my chest. But I was so tired. I was tired of fighting for a man who didn't want me.
I turned around. I placed the papers flat on the hot hood of my car. The metal burned my skin. My hand shook, but I pressed the pen down. I signed my name.
I handed the papers back to Brynlee. I didn't say a single word. I got into my car, locked the doors, and drove away. I left them standing in the sun.
***
Kolson sat at his desk in his downtown office. The city stretched out below him, but he wasn't looking at the view. He stared at his phone. No calls. No texts. Just silence from Selena.
The office door opened softly. Brynlee walked in. She wore a soft beige dress. She looked angelic. She walked to his desk and gently placed a manila envelope in front of him.
"What is this?" Kolson asked.
Brynlee sighed. She reached out and touched his hand. "I went to see her, Kolson. With your mother. I tried to talk to her. I really did."
Kolson opened the envelope. He pulled out the divorce papers. He saw Selena’s signature at the bottom. The ink was dark. The lines were shaky and uneven.
"I told her to think it over," Brynlee said softly. A single tear slipped down her cheek. "But she just... grabbed the pen. I think she's been wanting this for a long time, Kolson. Maybe she never really loved you."
Kolson stared at the signature. His chest tightened. Selena never did anything without thinking. She was careful. She was steady. She left the porch light on every night. This messy signature looked like a cry for help. Or a final, desperate surrender.
He looked up at Brynlee. She was wiping her tear away. Her expression was perfectly sad.
But something was wrong.
He watched her eyes. They were completely dry, except for that one perfect tear. Her voice was gentle, but it sounded rehearsed. There was a slight lag between her sad words and the coldness in her gaze. It was too precise. Too flawless.
For ten years, Kolson had kept Brynlee on a pedestal. But right now, sitting in his office, a hairline crack appeared in the marble.
"Sign it, Kolson," Brynlee whispered gently. "Let her go."
Kolson looked down at the pen on his desk. He didn't pick it up. He felt a sudden, sharp panic in his gut. The image of Selena standing alone in their kitchen flashed in his mind. He pushed his chair back and stood up.
"Kolson? Where are you going?" Brynlee asked. Her perfect mask slipped for a split second. Her voice was suddenly sharp.
"I'm not signing this," he said coldly.
He grabbed his jacket and walked out the door. He had to find his wife.
The nausea from the chemo came in relentless waves. My Koreatown apartment smelled of old dust and cheap lemon cleaner. I sat on my narrow bed, sipping flat ginger ale and waiting for the room to stop spinning. My phone buzzed violently against the thin mattress. I looked at the bright screen. It was Derek Holt, Kolson’s business partner.
I almost didn't answer. Derek was Kolson’s closest friend. But Derek had always been kind to me. I swiped right.
"Selena," Derek said. His voice sounded heavy and tired. "Are you okay?"
"I'm surviving," I said quietly.
Derek sighed. "Kolson just called me. He was frantic. He wanted me to agree with him. He wanted me to say you were just being vindictive. That you left to punish him for Brynlee."
I gripped the plastic bottle. I didn't say anything. My chest felt tight.
"I didn't give it to him," Derek said firmly. "I told him the truth. I told him he’s been so busy with his ex that he hasn't once asked himself why you actually left. I told him flatly—that’s not jealousy, Kolson. That’s a woman who’s done."
A small, hard knot in my chest suddenly loosened. Someone finally saw it. "Thank you, Derek."
"He's looking for you, Selena," Derek warned. "He’s tracking down mutual contacts. He's going through your old credit card statements. He wants to find you."
"Let him," I whispered. "It doesn't matter anymore."
I hung up. The room was too quiet. I felt weak, but I knew I had to eat. My body was fighting a brutal war, and it needed fuel.
Dr. Ramos had texted me earlier. *You need real food. Meet me at the diner in Silver Lake. I'm buying.*
I put on a thick gray sweater. It used to fit perfectly. Now, it hung off my shoulders. My collarbones felt sharp and brittle under the wool. I wrapped a scarf around my neck and drove my old car to Silver Lake.
The night air was cool. The restaurant was a small, quiet place tucked between a bookstore and a closed laundromat. It smelled like roasted garlic and warm bread. I slid into a red vinyl booth in the back.
Carmelo was already there. He wore a plain black sweater. His stethoscope was gone. He looked less like a doctor and more like a human being who actually cared.
He pushed a warm bowl of chicken broth toward me.
"You look terrible," Carmelo said bluntly.
"You really know how to flatter a girl," I replied. My voice was raspy. My throat felt like sandpaper.
Carmelo didn't laugh. His dark eyes watched me carefully. He picked up a spoon and handed it to me. "Eat. Just three bites. Start with that."
I took the spoon. My fingers were stiff and cold. They trembled slightly. Carmelo didn't offer fake sympathy. He didn't look away in pity. He just poured me a glass of water and set it near my hand. His care was quiet. It was steady. It was the exact thing I had spent three years waiting for Kolson to give me.
I took a sip of the broth. It was warm and salty. I forced it down. I took a deep breath. For three years, I thought if I was just quiet enough, good enough, patient enough, he would finally see me. I thought my devotion could rewrite his past. I thought if I made his life perfectly smooth, he would forget Brynlee's sharp edges. But sitting here, feeling my body wage war against itself, I finally understood. You cannot love a man into loving you back.
I was sick. I was weak. But I was finally free. I wasn't waiting for the porch light anymore. I wasn't competing with a ghost from London.
I looked out the large glass window next to our booth. The streetlights cast long, yellow shadows on the pavement.
Then, a black car slammed to a halt at the curb.
It was Kolson.
He stepped out onto the sidewalk. His dark suit was wrinkled. His tie was pulled loose. He looked frantic. He had tracked my phone, or maybe my car. He stared through the glass. His eyes scanned the room and locked onto me.
Then, his gaze shifted. He saw Carmelo.
Carmelo was leaning across the table. He was holding out a paper napkin for me. It was a simple, harmless gesture.
But to Kolson, it was a spark in a powder keg.
I watched Kolson’s face change. The frantic worry vanished instantly. His jaw locked tight. His shoulders stiffened. His eyes darkened with pure, blinding jealousy. He didn't see a sick, dying woman sitting with her oncologist. He saw his property sitting with another man.
He stormed toward the entrance.
"Selena?" Carmelo asked. He noticed my sudden stiffness. He turned his head and followed my gaze to the window.
The bell above the restaurant door chimed violently. The heavy glass door slammed shut against the brick wall. A few diners jumped in their seats.
Kolson marched down the narrow aisle. His heavy footsteps echoed on the checkered floor. His fists were balled tight at his sides. The air around him felt thick and dangerous.
He stopped right at the edge of our booth. He didn't look at my pale, sunken face. He didn't notice how my sweater hung off my frail shoulders. He glared straight down at Carmelo.
"Get up," Kolson growled. His voice was low, cold, and lethal.
Carmelo didn't flinch. He slowly placed his hands flat on the table. He looked up at Kolson with absolute, unhidden disgust.
"Kolson," I said softly.
Kolson snapped his head toward me. His eyes were burning with rage. He looked at me like I was a stranger. "You packed your bags and killed my child for this?" he hissed. He pointed a shaking finger at Carmelo. "For him?"
I stared back at him. My heart didn't race. I didn't feel the urge to cry. The girl who used to cry over his late nights was dead. I just felt a profound, overwhelming exhaustion.
"You have no idea what you're looking at," I whispered.