The room spun around me.
I sat on the edge of my narrow mattress in the servants quarters. My hands gripped the thin grey sheets. Every breath felt like inhaling broken glass. The rejection was not just emotional. It was physical. The severed bond felt like an open wound in the center of my chest that bled invisible blood.
I could still hear the bass of the music from the main house. It thumped against the walls. It was a cruel heartbeat that mocked my own.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
Up there they were celebrating. Damon was raising a glass of scotch. Tiffany was laughing and clinging to his arm. The shareholders were applauding the new CEO.
Down here I was dying.
I looked at the digital clock on my cracked bedside table. It was 2:00 AM.
Damon had said to be gone by noon. He wanted me out of sight so he could play the happy Alpha with his perfect new Luna.
"No," I whispered to the empty air. "I am not waiting until noon."
If I saw him again I would crumble. If I smelled that scent of rain and vanilla again I would beg him to take me back. And I could not do that. I had very little pride left but I had enough to know when I was unwanted.
I grabbed my worn canvas backpack from the closet. I did not have much to pack.
I took three pairs of jeans. Four t shirts. My toothbrush. The small framed photo of my parents from before the crash. I wrapped the photo carefully in a sweater. It was the only thing I had left of the life where I mattered.
I opened the top drawer of my dresser. I pulled out an envelope taped to the back of the wood. It contained my emergency stash. It was money I had saved from tips over the last five years.
I counted it. Four hundred dollars.
In the world of billionaire Alphas like Damon that was less than the cost of a single bottle of wine. In my world it was everything. It had to last me until I found a job.
I zipped the bag shut. It looked so small. My entire life fit into a bag that weighed less than ten pounds.
I looked at my phone sitting on the pillow. It was an old model provided by the pack for work communications.
Leave it, a voice in my head whispered. They can track it.
I picked up the device. My thumb hovered over the screen. Part of me wanted to send Damon a text. I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to curse him. I wanted to tell him he had made the biggest mistake of his life.
But silence was a louder weapon.
I set the phone back down on the bed. I left my key card next to it.
I swung the backpack over my shoulder and opened the door. The hallway was empty. Most of the staff were still working at the party. I kept my head down and moved quickly toward the service exit.
My shoes squeaked softly on the linoleum. I flinched at every sound. I felt like a criminal escaping a crime scene. But I was the victim.
I pushed open the heavy steel door at the back of the kitchen. The cool night air hit my face. It smelled of exhaust and damp pavement. It helped clear the fog in my head.
I stepped out into the loading dock area. The estate was massive. It spanned fifty acres of prime real estate just outside the city limits. To get to the main road I had to walk past the garages and down the long driveway to the security gate.
I stuck to the shadows.
As I passed the six car garage I saw the sleek black outline of Damon's Bugatti. It gleamed under the security lights. It looked like a beast waiting to pounce.
I paused. A fresh wave of tears threatened to spill. I remembered cleaning that car last week. I had scrubbed the rims until my fingers bled because I wanted him to be proud of his ride. I had polished the leather seats hoping he might notice the scent of lemon cleaner and smile.
He never noticed. He never saw me.
I turned away from the car and started walking.
The driveway was a mile long. It was lined with ancient oak trees that cast long scary shadows. The wind picked up and bit through my thin jacket. I shivered.
My chest ached more with every step I took away from the main house. The bond was trying to pull me back. It was a magnetic force dragging me toward the Alpha. My wolf whimpered in my mind. She wanted her mate. She did not understand why we were leaving.
"He does not want us," I whispered to her. "We have to go."
She howled in grief but she stopped pulling.
I saw the lights of the guardhouse ahead. The iron gates were closed. Two armed guards stood by the control booth. They were busy checking the credentials of a late arriving limousine.
I knew the guards. One was Steve. He was a kind Beta who sometimes snuck me chocolate bars.
If he saw me he would ask questions. He would ask why I was walking out at 3:00 AM with a backpack. He might call the main house to check if I was allowed to leave.
I could not risk it.
I veered off the driveway and into the dense landscaping. The bushes were thick and thorny. They scratched at my jeans and snagged my jacket. I bit my lip to keep from crying out as a branch whipped across my cheek.
I crouched low and moved parallel to the fence line.
About a hundred yards down from the gate there was a weak spot in the perimeter. It was a small gap between the iron bars and an old oak tree. The landscapers kept meaning to fix it but never got around to it.
I squeezed through the gap. The metal pressed hard against my ribs. For a second I thought I was stuck. Panic flared in my chest. If I got caught now it would be humiliating.
I exhaled all the air in my lungs and pushed.
I popped out on the other side. I stumbled down the grassy embankment and landed on the sidewalk of the public highway.
I was out.
I stood up and brushed the dirt off my knees. I looked back at the estate one last time. The mansion sat on the hill like a fortress of light. It looked beautiful and cruel.
"Goodbye Damon," I said. My voice cracked.
I turned my back on the Blood Moon Pack and started walking toward the city skyline glowing orange in the distance.
The walk was brutal.
It took me four hours to reach the city limits. My feet were blistered in my cheap sneakers. The physical exhaustion was the only thing keeping the emotional pain at bay. If I stopped moving the memories would catch up to me.
The sun was starting to rise by the time I hit the downtown district. The sky turned a bruised purple and grey.
The city was waking up. Delivery trucks rumbled past me. Commuters in suits rushed toward the subway stations with coffee cups in their hands.
I felt invisible in a different way here. At the pack house I was invisible because I was a servant. Here I was invisible because I was nobody.
I passed a bakery. The smell of fresh bread made my stomach cramp. I realized I had not eaten since lunch the day before. I wanted to buy a bagel but I clutched my backpack strap tighter.
Four hundred dollars.
I could not spend money on fancy bakery food. I needed a place to sleep.
I wandered for another hour until I found a neighborhood that looked run down enough to be affordable. The buildings were brick and covered in graffiti. The cars parked on the street were rusted.
I saw a neon sign flickering above a narrow doorway. The Traveler's Motel. Weekly Rates.
I pushed open the glass door. A bell jingled. The lobby smelled of stale cigarette smoke and bleach. A human man with greasy hair sat behind a plexiglass window. He was watching a game show on a small TV.
He looked up at me. His eyes raked over my messy hair and the scratch on my cheek.
"ID?" he grunted.
My heart stopped. I did not have a driver's license. My pack ID would reveal who I was and I could not use it.
"I... I lost it," I lied. My voice was hoarse. "I have cash. I can pay up front."
The man narrowed his eyes. He looked at the cash in my hand. He looked back at my desperate face. He shrugged.
"Fifty a night. No guests. No drugs. You break it you buy it."
"Okay," I said quickly. "I just need one night."
I slid a fifty dollar bill under the glass. He tossed a plastic key card at me.
"Room 204. Upstairs."
I took the key and practically ran up the stairs.
Room 204 was small. The wallpaper was peeling in the corners. The carpet was a suspicious shade of brown. There was a single window that looked out onto a brick wall.
It was ugly. It was dirty. It was perfect.
It was mine.
I dropped my backpack on the floor and collapsed onto the bed. The mattress was lumpy and smelled of dust.
I stared up at the water stained ceiling.
I was eighteen years old. I was alone in a human city. I had three hundred and fifty dollars to my name. I had no wolf. I had no family. I had no mate.
The reality of my situation crashed down on me like a tidal wave.
I curled onto my side and pulled my knees to my chest. The pain in my heart was a dull throb now. It was a constant reminder of what I had lost.
But as I lay there watching the dust motes dance in the sliver of morning light I felt something else.
I was free.
I did not have to scrub floors today. I did not have to bow to Tiffany. I did not have to watch Damon look through me like I was glass.
"I will survive this," I whispered. It was a promise to myself. "I will find a job. I will make money. I will be someone."
I closed my eyes. exhaustion pulled me under.
I drifted into a restless sleep. I dreamed of grey eyes and the scent of rain.
I did not know it then but I was not as alone as I thought.
Deep inside my body a tiny spark of life was flickering. It was a secret that would change the fate of the entire wolf world.
It was barely a cluster of cells but it was already strong.
It was holding on. Just like its mother.
The hunger woke me up before the alarm on my phone could go off.
My stomach twisted into a tight knot. It growled loud enough to echo in the small motel room. I rolled over and stared at the water stain on the ceiling. For a split second I forgot where I was. I expected to see the bunk above me in the servants quarters. I expected to hear the other maids getting ready for the morning shift.
Then the smell of stale smoke hit my nose. The lumpy mattress dug into my back. The memory of the night before crashed down on me.
I was not a servant anymore. I was a runaway.
I sat up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. My head spun. The room tilted sideways for a moment before righting itself. I gripped the edge of the nightstand to steady myself.
You just need food, I told myself. You are weak because you skipped dinner.
I grabbed my backpack and dug out my wallet. I counted the bills again. Three hundred and fifty dollars.
I had paid for one night. Checkout was at eleven in the morning. That gave me four hours to find a way to survive.
I needed a job. And I needed one today.
I dragged myself into the tiny bathroom. The mirror was cracked and dirty. I looked at my reflection. My skin was pale. There were dark circles under my eyes. My hair was a tangled mess of brown waves. I splashed cold water on my face and tried to finger comb my hair into a ponytail.
I did not have any cosmetics to cover the exhaustion. This was as good as it was going to get.
I put on a fresh shirt and my only pair of clean jeans. I laced up my sneakers and slung my backpack over one shoulder.
I left the key card on the dresser. I would not be coming back here tonight unless I made money.
The city was loud.
The morning rush hour was in full swing. Cars honked and sirens wailed in the distance. People rushed past me on the sidewalk with their heads down. They looked at their phones or their watches. No one looked at me.
I walked down the main street and scanned the windows for signs.
Help Wanted.
Now Hiring.
My heart lifted. There were plenty of jobs. I just needed one person to say yes.
I walked into a brightly lit coffee shop first. The smell of roasted beans and sugar made my mouth water.
I approached the counter. A manager with a clipboard looked me up and down.
"Do you have two forms of government ID?" he asked before I could even speak. "And a valid social security card?"
"I..." I swallowed hard. "I left them at home. Can I bring them in tomorrow?"
"Store policy," he said without looking up. "No ID. No paperwork. No job."
I walked out. My face burned with shame.
I tried a clothing store next. They asked for ID.
I tried a grocery store. They asked for a work permit.
I tried a flower shop. The owner asked for references.
By noon the sun was high and hot. I had walked ten blocks. I had been rejected six times.
My feet throbbed. The blister on my heel had popped and was stinging against my sock. But the physical pain was nothing compared to the panic rising in my chest.
I was an illegal alien in my own country. I had no papers. I had no history. I was a ghost.
My stomach gave a violent lurch. A wave of nausea rolled over me so strong that I had to put my head between my knees. The world swam in front of my eyes.
It was just stress. It had to be stress.
I spotted a run down diner tucked between a mechanic shop and a boarded up warehouse. The sign above the door was missing several letters. It just read DIN R.
There was a handwritten sign taped to the glass.
Dishwasher Needed. Cash.
Cash.
The word was like a lifeline.
I pushed open the door. A bell jingled weakly. The air inside was thick with the smell of frying bacon and old coffee.
The place was mostly empty. A large man with a grease stained apron stood behind the grill. But my eyes were drawn to the girl sitting on the counter near the register.
She was striking. She had bright purple braids pulled back into a high bun. Her skin was a rich deep brown and she wore a nose ring that caught the light. She wore a t shirt that said Not Today Satan.
She looked up as I walked in. Her eyes were sharp. They were too intelligent. She looked like she saw everything.
"We are closed for the mid day lull," the man at the grill grunted. "Come back at five."
"I am here about the job," I said. I tried to make my voice sound strong. "The sign says you need a dishwasher."
He looked me over. He took in my clean clothes and my young face. He snorted.
"You ever work a commercial kitchen before princess?"
"Yes," I lied. "I work hard. I am fast."
"It is dirty work," he said. "Grease traps. Scraped plates. Ten bucks an hour. Under the table."
"I will take it," I said quickly.
He paused. He was about to say no. I could see it in his eyes.
"Give her a shot Sal," the girl with the purple hair said. Her voice was smooth like velvet. She hopped off the counter and walked toward me.
She stopped a foot away. She wasn't sniffing me like a wolf would but she was definitely inspecting me. Her dark eyes lingered on my hands which were still red from years of scrubbing pack floors.
"She has working hands," the girl said. She looked at Sal. "And she looks hungry. You know I hate doing the dishes when Marco calls in sick."
Sal grunted. He waved his spatula at the back room. "Fine. Zoe says you are in then you are in. Aprons are in the back. Don't break anything."
I looked at the girl. "Thank you."
She winked. "Don't thank me yet. wait until you smell the grease trap. I am Zoe by the way."
"Aria," I said.
"Nice to meet you Aria," she said. She lowered her voice so Sal couldn't hear. "You running from a boyfriend or the cops?"
I froze. "What?"
"Relax," Zoe laughed. "Nobody comes into a dump like this asking for a cash job unless they are running from something. I don't care which one it is. As long as you scrub the plates."
She patted my shoulder. The touch was warm. It felt grounding.
"Kitchen is through there," she pointed. "Holler if you need help."
I walked into the kitchen. It was a nightmare. The room was tiny and hot. The steam from the dishwasher machine made the air heavy. There was a mountain of dirty plates stacked in the sink.
I tied a plastic apron around my waist. I started scrubbing.
The water was scalding hot. The soap dried out my hands instantly. But I didn't care. I had a job. I had an ally.
I worked for four hours straight. My back ached. My feet were numb. The heat in the kitchen made me dizzy.
At five o clock the dinner rush started. Zoe was a blur of motion. She carried three plates at a time. She charmed the customers. She yelled orders at Sal.
She popped her head into the kitchen every twenty minutes to check on me.
"You doing okay in here newbie?" she asked. She handed me a glass of ice water.
"I am fine," I said. I wiped sweat from my forehead.
"Drink," she ordered. "You look pale."
I took a sip of the water. It hit my empty stomach like a stone.
Suddenly the smell of the frying onions from the grill wafted into the dish pit. It was pungent and oily.
My stomach revolted.
I dropped the sponge. I barely had time to turn away from the sink before I dry heaved. There was nothing in my stomach to bring up but my body convulsed violently.
"Whoa," Zoe said. She was at my side in a second. Her hand rubbed my back. "Easy. Breathe."
I retched again. My knees gave out. Zoe caught me. She was surprisingly strong for her size. She lowered me to the floor.
"I am sorry," I gasped. "I am sorry. Please don't fire me."
"Hush," Zoe said. She grabbed a wet towel and pressed it to my neck. "Nobody is firing you. You just overheated."
She looked at me closely. Her eyes narrowed. She looked at my pale face and then down at my flat stomach. A strange look crossed her face. It was not judgment. It was recognition.
"When was the last time you ate?" she asked softly.
"Yesterday," I whispered.
Zoe cursed under her breath. She stood up and marched out to the grill. I heard her yelling at Sal. A minute later she came back with a plain grilled cheese sandwich and a ginger ale.
"Eat," she commanded. "Slowly."
I took a bite. The bread was warm and buttery. It stayed down.
"Thank you," I said. Tears pricked my eyes. I was not used to kindness. In the pack house if you were sick you were punished for missing work.
"Don't mention it," Zoe said. She sat on an overturned milk crate next to me. "Listen. Where are you staying tonight?"
I hesitated. "The Traveler's Motel. Down the street."
Zoe made a face. "That place is a roach motel. And it costs a fortune."
She looked at me for a long moment. She seemed to be making a decision.
"I have a pull out couch at my place," she said. "It is not the Ritz. But it is clean. And it is free."
My eyes widened. "I couldn't. You don't even know me."
"I know enough," Zoe said. She pointed a manicured fingernail at me. "You are a hard worker. You are scared. And you need a break."
She stood up and offered me her hand.
"Plus I live above a bakery," she added with a grin. "It smells way better than this place."
I looked at her hand. It was a lifeline. I could go back to the lonely motel room and stare at the wall. Or I could trust this girl with the purple hair and the kind eyes.
I took her hand.
"Okay," I said. "Thank you Zoe."
"Friends help friends," she said simply.
Friends.
The word felt strange on my tongue. I had never had a real friend. I had only had masters and tormentors.
I finished my shift. At ten o clock Zoe and I walked out into the cool night air.
"Come on," she said linking her arm through mine. "Let's get you home."
As we walked down the street I felt a strange flutter in my stomach again. It was soft. It was barely there.
I placed a hand over my belly.
I had a job. I had a friend. I was going to be okay.
I did not know it then but Zoe was going to be more than just a friend. She was going to be the aunt my daughter would need.
And the flutter in my stomach? It was not just a baby. It was the beginning of a revolution.
The smell of cinnamon and yeast pulled me out of a deep sleep.
I blinked my eyes open. For a moment I did not know where I was. The ceiling was painted a soft lavender color. There were glow in the dark stars stuck to the plaster. A string of fairy lights twinkled above the window.
It was not the cold sterile servants quarters. It was warm. It smelled like a home.
I sat up slowly. I was on a pull out couch in the middle of a cluttered but cozy living room. A thick knitted blanket was wrapped around my shoulders.
"Morning sunshine," a voice called out.
I looked toward the kitchenette. Zoe was standing there wearing a silk robe with a tiger print. She was dancing slightly to music playing from her phone while she waited for the coffee pot to fill.
"Zoe," I croaked. My voice was thick with sleep. "What time is it?"
"Ten in the morning," she said cheerfully. "I let you sleep in. Sal knows you are starting the late shift today."
She walked over and handed me a mug. It had a cartoon cat on it that said Purrfect.
"Drink," she ordered. "It is herbal tea. Ginger and honey. Good for the stomach."
I took the mug. The warmth seeped into my cold hands. "Thank you. For everything. I do not know how to repay you."
Zoe waved a hand dismissively. "You can repay me by not passing out on my floor again. And by helping me eat the pastries Mrs. Higgins sent up."
She pointed to a pink box on the small coffee table.
"Mrs. Higgins?"
"The landlady," Zoe said. "She owns the bakery downstairs. She is basically my grandma. She adopts every stray cat and person who walks into this building."
Just then there was a rhythmic knocking on the front door.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
"Come in!" Zoe yelled.
The door swung open. A young man walked in. He looked to be about twenty two. He had messy sandy blonde hair and kind brown eyes behind wire rimmed glasses. He wore scrubs that were a soft blue color.
"I smelled coffee," he said with a grin. He held up a carton of orange juice. "I come bearing gifts."
Zoe rolled her eyes but she was smiling. "Aria this is Liam. He lives in 4B. He is a nursing student and a general nuisance."
Liam laughed and set the juice on the counter. He looked at me and his expression softened.
"Hi," he said gently. "You must be the runaway Zoe texted me about."
I stiffened. "I am not..."
"Relax," Liam said. He sat in the armchair opposite me. "Zoe attracts strays. I was one of them two years ago when I moved here from Ohio. You are safe here."
His voice was calm and steady. It did not have the aggressive growl of the Alpha males I was used to. He was human. He felt safe.
"I am Aria," I said.
"Nice to meet you Aria," Liam said. He looked at me with a clinical eye. "Zoe said you got sick at work yesterday. How are you feeling?"
"Better," I lied.
As if to punish me for the lie my stomach gave a violent lurch. The smell of the coffee brewing was suddenly too strong. It was too acidic.
I slammed the mug down on the table and clamped a hand over my mouth.
"Bathroom," Zoe pointed. "Second door on the left."
I scrambled off the couch and ran. I barely made it to the toilet before my stomach emptied itself. I heaved until my throat burned.
I heard footsteps behind me. I expected Zoe. But it was Liam who knelt beside me. He gathered my hair back from my face with gentle hands.
"Breathe," he instructed softly. "In through the nose. Out through the mouth."
I did as he said. The nausea slowly receded leaving me shaking and weak.
Liam reached over and flushed the toilet for me. He wet a washcloth in the sink and handed it to me.
"Thanks," I whispered. I wiped my face. I felt humiliated.
"Do not be embarrassed," Liam said. "I am training to be a nurse. I have seen way worse than a little morning sickness."
I froze. The washcloth stopped halfway to my mouth.
"What did you say?" I asked.
Liam looked at me. His brown eyes were kind but serious. He sat back on his heels.
"Morning sickness," he repeated. "Nausea triggered by strong smells. Dizziness. Fatigue. And looking at your face you have the mask of pregnancy."
"No," I said quickly. "I am just tired. I have not eaten well."
Liam shook his head gently. "Aria I checked your pulse when I helped you up. It is racing. And Zoe told me you fainted yesterday. When was your last cycle?"
I opened my mouth to argue but the words died in my throat.
I counted back the weeks in my head.
The party. The heat. The blackout.
It had been six weeks.
My hand drifted to my stomach. The flutter. I had felt it twice now.
"It is not possible," I whispered. "I am... I am alone."
Zoe appeared in the doorway. She was not dancing anymore. Her face was serious. She held a small white box in her hand.
"I ran down to the pharmacy while you were sleeping," she said quietly. "I had a feeling."
She held out the box. It was a pregnancy test.
I stared at it. It looked like a weapon.
"Take it," Zoe said. "Better to know."
I took the box with trembling fingers. Liam and Zoe exchanged a look then they both stood up.
"We will be right outside," Liam said. "Take your time."
They closed the door.
I was alone in the small tiled bathroom. My heart hammered against my ribs like a trapped bird.
I opened the box. I followed the instructions.
The three minutes I waited were the longest of my life. I sat on the edge of the bathtub and stared at the white plastic stick sitting on the counter.
If it was positive my life was over. I was a teenager with no money and no home.
If it was positive I was carrying the child of the man who rejected me.
If it was positive I was carrying the heir to the Blood Moon Pack.
Damon had said he wanted a strong heir. He had said I was too weak to give him one.
I looked at the timer on my phone.
Zero.
I stood up. My legs felt like jelly. I walked to the counter and looked down.
Two pink lines.
They were bright. They were undeniable.
Positive.
The world tilted on its axis. I gripped the edge of the sink to keep from falling.
I was pregnant.
I was going to be a mother.
A sob tore from my throat. It was not a happy sound. It was a sound of pure terror.
The door opened instantly. Zoe and Liam were there.
They did not need to ask. They saw my face.
Zoe rushed forward and pulled me into a fierce hug. I buried my face in her shoulder and wept.
"It is okay," Zoe whispered fiercely. "We got you. You are not doing this alone."
Liam joined us. He placed a warm hand on my back.
"We will figure it out," he said. "There are clinics. There are programs."
I pulled back and looked at them. These two strangers who had known me for less than twenty four hours were showing me more love than my pack had shown me in years.
"I cannot go back," I choked out. "If the father finds out... he will take the baby. Or he will hurt us."
Zoe's eyes flashed with a dangerous light. She looked like a lioness protecting a cub.
"Then he never finds out," she stated firmly. "You are Aria now. Just Aria. The past does not exist."
Liam nodded. "We will help you hide. We will help you get medical care under the radar. I have friends at the free clinic who do not ask for ID."
I looked down at my stomach. I placed my hand over the tiny spark of life growing inside me.
Damon had rejected me. He had thrown me away.
But this baby? This baby was mine.
I wiped my tears. A new strength surged through me. It was the same cold fire I had felt in the Alpha's office.
"Okay," I said. My voice was shaky but sure. "I am keeping it."
Zoe smiled. It was a brilliant smile that lit up the room. "Then we are going to need more shifts at the diner. Babies are expensive."
Liam adjusted his glasses. "I will start bringing you vitamins. And protein shakes. You are too thin."
I looked between them. A waitress with purple hair and a nursing student with kind eyes.
They were not wolves. They were not powerful. They were not rich.
But standing there in that tiny bathroom I realized something profound.
I did not need a pack of wolves to survive.
I had found my own pack.
"Thank you," I whispered.
Zoe squeezed my hand. "Welcome to the family Aria."
I took a deep breath. The scent of cinnamon and friendship filled my lungs.
I was pregnant. I was broke. I was a runaway.
But for the first time in my life I was not alone.