I slipped out of the clinic before Marcus could approach me, my heart a hollow drum in my chest. Elena caught my eye as I left, her concerned gaze following me. She would understand why I couldn't stay, why I couldn't bear to watch Rachel bask in the attention that should have been mine on this day of all days.
Kaleigh paced restlessly within me. *He didn't even acknowledge what today is. Not to her. Not to anyone.*
"He doesn't have to," I whispered. "They all know."
The pack house was mercifully quiet when I returned. I wandered through the empty halls like a ghost, touching the photographs that still hung on the walls—memories of a family that no longer existed. My fingers lingered on Connor's smiling face, his eyes so much like his father's before betrayal had dulled mine.
Two hours later, I found myself seated in the council room, watching Marcus address the gathered pack leaders. My position as Luna meant I sat at his right, a queen in title only. The space between us might as well have been an ocean.
"The Moonstone Pack has extended an offer of alliance," Marcus announced, his voice carrying that authoritative Alpha tone that once made my heart race. Now it just reminded me of commands unheeded and promises broken. "After careful consideration, I've decided to decline."
Murmurs rippled through the assembled wolves. The Moonstone Pack was powerful, progressive, their territory in France coveted by many. An alliance would strengthen our position considerably.
"Alpha, if I may," David Chen, our Beta, spoke up. "The benefits of this alliance—"
"My decision is final," Marcus cut him off. "I cannot leave our territory at this time. Our pack needs stability."
I kept my face carefully blank, the perfect Luna mask I'd perfected over the past year. But inside, Kaleigh snorted with derision. *Stability? Is that what he calls abandoning his grieving mate on the anniversary of our son's death?*
After the meeting dispersed, David approached me in the corridor, his normally composed features tight with something like guilt.
"Luna Sophia," he began, glancing around to ensure we were alone. "I thought you should know... the real reason for declining the alliance."
I raised an eyebrow, waiting.
"It's Rachel," he said, confirming what I already suspected. "The Alpha told me her pregnancy is 'delicate' and she needs him here. He can't travel to France for the formal alliance ceremony."
The knife that had been lodged in my heart since morning twisted deeper. "Thank you for your honesty, Beta."
"I'm sorry," David added softly. "About today. About Connor. We all miss him."
I nodded, unable to speak past the lump in my throat, and continued down the hallway with as much dignity as I could muster.
I was almost to my studio when a deep, accented voice called out to me.
"Luna Sophia."
I turned to find Alpha Alaric Dubois of the Moonstone Pack approaching. Tall and distinguished with silver threading through his dark hair, he carried himself with the quiet confidence of a leader who had nothing to prove.
"Alpha Dubois," I greeted him, surprised. "I thought you'd have left after the council's decision."
"Some opportunities are worth pursuing even after an initial rejection," he replied with a small smile. He glanced around before lowering his voice. "I had hoped to speak with you privately."
Curiosity piqued, I led him to my studio—the one space in the pack house that still felt truly mine. Paintings lined the walls, landscapes mostly, though in the corner stood the portrait of Connor I'd been working on for months but couldn't bring myself to finish.
Alaric studied my work with genuine appreciation. "Your talent is remarkable."
"Thank you," I said, unused to such direct praise.
He turned to face me, his expression serious. "The Moonstone Pack has a rich cultural heritage that we are working to preserve. We need someone with your artistic vision and sensitivity to help document our traditions, to create new ceremonies that honor our past while embracing our future."
I stared at him, uncomprehending at first.
"I'm offering you a position, Luna Sophia. As our pack artist and cultural advisor. In France."
My breath caught. "But I'm... I'm the Luna here."
"Are you?" he asked gently, and the simple question nearly broke me.
Before I could respond, he pressed something into my palm—a small carved wolf token, the symbol of the Moonstone Pack.
"Think about it," he said. "You deserve to be valued for who you are, not just the title you hold."
Long after Alaric left, I sat in my studio, turning the token over in my hands. The carved wolf seemed to stare back at me, challenging me.
Inside me, Kaleigh stirred. She sniffed at the token through my senses, her interest piqued in a way I hadn't felt in months.
*It smells like freedom,* she whispered in my mind. *Like possibility.*
*It's impossible,* I argued back. *We're bound to this pack, to Marcus.*
*Are we?* Kaleigh echoed Alaric's question. *Or are we just haunting the place where we once belonged?*
I had no answer for her. But as moonlight spilled through the studio window, illuminating the token in my palm, I felt something I hadn't experienced in a very long time.
Hope.
Dawn crept through my studio window, casting long shadows across the canvases that lined my walls. I stood before my portfolio, fingers tracing the evolution of my work through the years. The early pieces—vibrant celebrations of pack lineage, wolves running beneath crimson moons, the proud history of Silverwood—seemed to have been painted by someone else entirely.
I pulled out my most recent works, laying them side by side on the floor. Dark, twisted forests. Fractured moonlight. A small white wolf howling alone at the edge of a cliff.
"When did we become this?" I whispered to Kaleigh.
She stirred within me, her presence a constant ache beneath my skin. *When we lost everything that mattered.*
My gaze settled on the unfinished portrait of Connor tucked in the corner, his eyes half-painted but still somehow seeing right through me. I'd started it months ago, but each brushstroke felt like reopening a wound.
"I'll finish it," I promised him, though we both knew it was a lie.
The sound of heavy footsteps and scraping furniture drew me from my reverie. Following the noise, I made my way down the corridor toward the east wing—Rachel's domain.
Two Delta wolves were maneuvering large wooden crates through Rachel's doorway. I recognized Marcus's personal belongings: books, the antique chess set his father had given him, framed photographs. The sight hit me like a physical blow.
"What's happening here?" I asked, my Luna voice steady despite the tremor in my heart.
The Deltas glanced at each other nervously. "Alpha's orders, Luna," one finally replied, unable to meet my eyes.
I nodded and walked away, my dignity intact even as Kaleigh clawed at my insides. I found Marcus in his office, reviewing territory reports as if nothing had changed, as if he hadn't just made another statement about where his priorities lay.
"You're moving your things to her quarters," I said. Not a question.
He didn't even look up. "It's easier this way. She's uncomfortable otherwise."
"Easier," I repeated, the word hollow on my tongue. "And my comfort means nothing?"
Finally, he raised his eyes to mine. There was nothing there—no guilt, no regret, just mild irritation at being interrupted. "You have your studio. She needs me closer now that she's further along."
I wanted to scream, to rage, to remind him that I had needed him when our son died and he had been nowhere to be found. Instead, I simply turned and walked away, leaving the ghost of what we once were behind me.
*He's made his choice,* Kaleigh growled. *Again and again and again.*
The full moon rose three nights later, its silver light calling to the wolf within me. Traditionally, pack runs were a time of unity, of reaffirming bonds and hierarchies. The Alpha and Luna would lead, setting the pace for all who followed.
But I shifted alone, at the far edge of our territory where the forest met the mountains. My white fur gleamed in the moonlight as I stretched, feeling Kaleigh's relief at finally being free.
I could sense the pack in the distance, their collective energy pulsing through the trees. Marcus would be at the center, his massive grey form commanding and powerful. Rachel would be nearby, unable to shift due to her pregnancy but watching from a safe vantage point, surrounded by protective Deltas.
I ran along the boundary line, pushing myself until my muscles burned and my lungs ached. A few lone wolves crossed my path, pack members on patrol. They lowered their heads in deference—I was still their Luna, after all—but quickly averted their eyes and changed direction. No one wanted to run with the Alpha's discarded mate.
Kaleigh threw back her head and howled, the sound echoing across the valley. It was a cry of grief, of rage, of loneliness so profound it seemed to shake the very trees.
No answering howl came.
I waited, breath creating small clouds in the cold night air, but the silence stretched on, broken only by the distant sounds of the pack run continuing without us.
*No one is coming,* Kaleigh whispered, her voice breaking. *No one ever comes anymore.*
I turned away from the territory's heart and ran faster, deeper into the shadows where no one could see the tears that matted the fur beneath my eyes. With each stride, each breath, each beat of my heart, the same thought pounded through me:
This couldn't be all that remained of my life.
Somewhere in the darkness, Alpha Alaric's carved wolf token waited in my studio, promising something I hardly dared to name.
Freedom.