Cora POV:
Cole' s voice, a soft rumble meant only for Isabela, drifted from his study. He was still on the phone, lost in a world where I clearly didn't exist. I stood by my bedroom door, listening, the sound twisting something inside me. He mattered so much to me, but I was nothing to him.
I turned away quietly, my footsteps light on the carpet. I didn' t want to disturb their moment, their happiness. Back in my room, I looked around. This place, this house, had been my home for ten years. It was about to become a memory.
My gaze fell on the old desk lamp on my bedside table. A dull glow against the dimness. Cole had given it to me on my tenth birthday. "This lamp will protect you at night, Cora," he' d said, "just like I protect you during the day." He' d promised to be my constant light.
I reached out and flicked the switch. Darkness enveloped the room, consuming the lamp' s promise.
Then, I started packing. I pulled out an old, dusty suitcase from the back of my closet. It had been years since I last used it. I opened the display cabinet in my room. Inside, trinkets and gifts from Cole were neatly arranged. A lucky charm he' d waited hours in line for. A small bottle of perfume he' d personally blended, just for me. Each item was a relic of a time when I believed I was his everything.
I placed them one by one into the suitcase. My heart felt hollower with each addition. A vast emptiness stretched within me, a desolate landscape where love once bloomed. I fought back the encroaching despair, my jaw tight.
Then, I opened the bottom drawer of my nightstand. Inside lay a faded, yellowed notebook. My diary.
The first few pages were filled with the messy scrawl of an eight-year-old, detailing the bewildering chaos of losing my family, the cruel taunts of classmates, and the crushing loneliness. I remembered the day Cole found it. He' d walked into my room that evening, his hand gently stroking my hair. "You are the brightest star, Cora," he' d whispered.
Later, I learned he' d quietly dealt with my bullies, a silent protector. As I grew older, my diary entries became a chronicle of him. Every word, every thought, every secret dream, revolved around Cole. When he won his first major architecture award, he'd told me, "You're my medal, Cora." And the time he gifted me a single, perfect rose, saying, "Wait until you're grown, sweetheart."
I flipped to the last page. His elegant handwriting filled the top of the page, a message from his high school days. "Work hard, Cora. Come work for me when you graduate. I' ll always take care of you."
A single tear traced a path down my cheek, blurring the ink. I wiped it away fiercely. No more tears. No more dwelling. My expression hardened.
I began to tear the pages, one by one. The delicate paper ripped with a soft, tearing sound. Each tear in the diary felt like a piece of our shared past being erased. All the memories, the hopes, the whispered secrets, all shredded. When the last page was torn, I gathered the scraps, shoving them into the suitcase. I zipped it shut, sealing away a decade of my life.
A sound from downstairs. A car door slamming. My heart lurched. I walked out of my room, toward the staircase.
Isabela stood in the living room, a sleek, designer suitcase at her feet. Cole emerged from behind her, his arm wrapped around her waist, his chin resting on her shoulder. He was whispering something into her ear, making her laugh, a bright, tinkling sound.
"Cole, darling, that's not fair," Isabela giggled. "You promised not to tease."
She saw me then. Her smile widened, a perfect, practiced curve. "Cora, dear! You're up late. We just got back from the most delightful dinner. Cole was so charming."
"Hello, Isabela," I said, my smile feeling stiff on my face.
"Oh, goodie!" Isabela clapped her hands. "I brought you something special!" She opened her suitcase and pulled out a small, exquisite box. "It's mango mousse, your favorite, right? I remember Cole mentioning it."
My smile froze. Mango. My stomach clenched. I was severely allergic to mango, a fact Cole knew better than anyone. When I was ten, a new housekeeper, unaware of my allergy, had served me a mango smoothie. I landed in the emergency room. Cole, furious, had fired the housekeeper on the spot and banned mango from the house forever.
He didn't just take his love away; he forgot my weaknesses too. The thought was a bitter poison.
Cole, still holding Isabela close, looked at me, a hint of impatience in his eyes. "Take it, Cora." His tone was flat, leaving no room for refusal. He didn't even notice the tremor in my hand as I reached for the box. His face was devoid of recognition, of concern.
"Thank you, Isabela," I managed, my voice thin. "It's beautiful."
It didn't matter. None of it mattered anymore. In a strange, twisted way, I was grateful. This indifference, this blatant forgetfulness, made my decision to leave so much easier.
Cora POV:
Isabela stayed that night. I could hear their muffled laughter, the creak of the floorboards from Cole's bedroom, and later, the low, intimate murmurs that drifted through the shared wall. Sleep was a distant, mocking concept. I got up, restless, and stumbled onto the balcony. The cool night air offered no comfort. I lit a cigarette, a habit I' d picked up in secret. The harsh, bitter taste mirrored the hollowness in my chest.
The next morning, I dragged myself downstairs, dark circles under my eyes. Isabela, radiant and annoyingly cheerful, was already at the breakfast table. She patted the seat next to her.
"Cora, darling, come sit! I was just asking Cole about his birthday party. What kind of cake do you think he'd like? Chocolate? Or something more exotic?"
My gaze drifted to her neck. A faint red mark, a hickey, marred her smooth skin. It was a small detail, but it felt like a branding iron pressed against my own flesh.
I remembered a day, years ago, when Cole and I walked along the beach, the salty air whipping our hair. "I love the sea, Cole," I'd told him, my voice full of childish wonder. He' d ruffled my hair. "Then we'll celebrate every one of your birthdays by the sea." His eyes, then, had held only me. Now, he avoided my gaze. He'd forgotten my allergic reactions, my preferences, my very essence.
He didn't just retract his love; he erased me.
I opened my mouth to speak, but Cole's stern voice cut me off from the kitchen. "Isabela, if you want to know about my preferences, you should ask me directly."
Isabela pouted prettily. "I thought Cora would know best, darling. She's been with you for so long."
"I wouldn' t know," I said, forcing a brittle smile. "I don't really know Cole at all." I pushed back my chair, a bitter taste filling my mouth. I needed to get out.
"Cora," Cole's voice, sharp and cold, stopped me. "Where are you going?"
I flinched, my heart skipping a beat. "I have to go to the embassy. To get my visa processed."
Isabela blinked, surprised. "A visa? Are you traveling somewhere exciting? With a boyfriend, perhaps?"
Cole' s brow furrowed. His voice was laced with disapproval. "Cora, I've told you. No serious boyfriends before college. You need to focus on your studies."
His words were a cold, hard condemnation. I swallowed the protest forming on my tongue. What was the point of explaining? He wouldn't listen. He never did.
Isabela, ever the peacemaker, chuckled. "Oh, Cole, she's eighteen now. It's perfectly normal for her to be interested in boys. Don't be such an old fuddy-duddy." She looped her arm through Cole's, and they walked out of the kitchen together, their heads close.
I stood in the now-empty living room, my hands slowly clenching into fists. Eighteen. My entire eighteenth year, my only eighteenth year, had been sacrificed at the altar of his indifference.
I wouldn' t let my youth rot away in this hopeless, unrequited love.
I walked out of the house. A fine drizzle had begun, painting the world in shades of gray. The air was bone-chilling. I remembered rainy days when Cole would pick me up from school, shielding me under his umbrella. "You're my safe harbor, Cora," he'd once said. "I'll always keep you safe from the storm."
Safe from the storm, but not from you.
I gripped my small umbrella, forcing myself to step into the rain. I had to get used to walking alone.
After the embassy, instead of hailing a cab, my finger instinctively hovered over Cole' s social media icon. He had just posted. The caption read: "Perfect weather for an announcement."
My breath hitched. The image was a professional pre-wedding photo. Cole and Isabela, in full bridal attire, stood on a windswept cliff, their hands clasped. His smile, directed at her, was soft, genuine, full of a deep affection I had never received.
The comments section exploded with congratulations. "Congratulations, Cole!" "Finally!" "So happy for you two!"
A familiar pang of pain should have pierced my chest. But there was nothing. Just a hollow numbness. I typed a single comment: "Match made in heaven."
Cora POV:
After posting my comment, I found Cole' s profile again and tapped 'remove from special attention'. No more notifications, no more agonizing over his every move. I would use these last few days, these precious moments of solitude, to completely excise him from my heart. He was an infection, and I needed to be surgically clean.
I returned home to an empty house. The silence was deafening, cold and vast. I heated up a can of soup, eating it slowly, the bland taste a reflection of my mood. My phone buzzed. It was Isabela.
We won't be home tonight, love. Cole and I are having a romantic dinner, and then we're staying at a hotel. Don't wait up!
Attached were photos: a candlelit table, an expensive bottle of wine, and a plush hotel room with a rose petal-strewn bed. My fingers trembled as I typed back, "Okay."
A notification popped up from my high school group chat. Plans for a graduation party. I hesitated. I was leaving the state soon, starting a new life. This would be a final farewell, a chance to close this chapter. I decided to go.
Someone in the chat mentioned Cole. "Do you think Cole will show up? He always comes to our events."
I typed, "He won't be there."
They don't know, I thought. They don't know he rejected me. They don't know he has someone else now.
That night, sleep eluded me. I tossed and turned, fragments of dreams flitting through my mind. I saw Cole, the first time I ever truly noticed him, standing tall and aloof. Then, I saw him turn his back on me, walking away.
I woke with a gasp, my cheeks wet. If he had always been so cold, so distant, would I have fallen so deeply? Would I have understood the boundaries sooner? The most painful part, I realized, wasn't the rejection itself, but the stark contrast. To have been given all that warmth, all that affection, only for it to vanish overnight.
I got out of bed. My eyes fell on the suitcase, still sitting by the door, filled with the ghosts of our past. Just a few more days. I needed to get rid of everything. Clear out the physical space, clear out the emotional space.
I was dragging the now-packed suitcase down the stairs when the front door opened. Cole and Isabela walked in, their arms linked.
Cole's eyes narrowed on the suitcase. "Where are you going with that?" His voice was colder than the morning air.
"To the donation center," I said, my voice flat. "Just getting rid of some old things. I'm moving into the dorms at Juilliard. No need for clutter."
He didn't say a word. He simply walked over, took the suitcase from my hand, and tossed it into a pile of donate-ables by the door. Not even a second glance at the contents. My heart sank. He didn't care. He didn't care that those were the gifts he'd given me, the memories we shared.
He turned to me, his voice firm. "You won't be moving into the dorms. I'll call the admissions office and arrange for you to commute."
He's doing it for Isabela. The thought was a bitter acid in my mouth. He only cares about her convenience, not my future. I just nodded, turning and walking back up the stairs.
As I reached the landing, I heard Isabela' s soft voice drift up. "Is she angry, darling?"
Cole's reply was curt. "She's an adult now. She needs to learn independence."
I paused, my hand on the banister, then continued to my room. Yes, I am an adult. And I will make my own way.