I woke to the sound of chaos.
Jessica's voice echoed through the pack house, high and frantic, carrying the kind of theatrical desperation that made my stomach turn. I recognized the performance quality in it—the calculated pitch, the perfect tremor, the way her words tumbled out in a rush designed to command attention.
'I can't breathe! Please, Connor, I think I'm having a panic attack!'
I sat up in bed, my body heavy with exhaustion. Dawn light filtered through the curtains, painting the room in pale gray. Through the pack mind-link, I could feel the collective shift in attention. The morning pack run—our daily security patrol—had just begun, and already the focus was fracturing.
I pressed my thumb against my wrist and listened.
Connor's voice came next, tight with the kind of concern he used to reserve for me. 'Jessica, where are you?'
'In the east garden! Please hurry!'
I moved to the window, peered through the glass. Below, I could see the morning patrol forming up—our elite security detail, the warriors who guarded our borders, all of them gathered near the main entrance. Connor stood at their center, his posture rigid, two fingers pressed to the bridge of his nose.
Then Silas was beside him, pointing toward the east garden, and I watched my mate—my Alpha—make the decision that would destroy everything.
'Elite detail, with me,' Connor ordered. 'The rest of you, continue the patrol.'
But they didn't. They followed him. Every single warrior, every pack enforcer, all of them abandoning their posts to rush toward Jessica's supposed crisis. I saw Silas hesitate, saw him glance back at the main house, but even he went.
The territory fell silent.
I turned away from the window, my heart pounding. Something was wrong. This felt deliberate—the timing, the location, the way every available guard had been drawn away from their positions.
I moved through the empty hallways of the pack house, searching for Haven. She liked to play in the gardens when the morning patrol ran. She liked to wave at the warriors as they passed.
I couldn't find her.
The main doors stood unguarded. The side entrances were deserted. Even the kitchen staff had gone to help with Jessica's 'emergency.'
I stepped outside, the morning air cool against my skin. The gardens stretched out before me, empty and peaceful in the dawn light. The rose arch—my rose arch, the one I'd planted for Haven during her first spring—stood at the far end of the path, petals open to the sun.
I called her name.
'Haven?'
The silence stretched, broken only by the distant sound of voices from the east garden. Jessica's performance continued, drawing every resource we had away from where they should be.
I walked toward the rose arch. Slowly. Each step felt heavier than the last. My wolfless body ached with exhaustion, with the constant strain of fighting a battle I was already losing.
Then I saw her.
A small shoe, lying in the grass near the arch. Pink. Her favorite.
I started running.
The world narrowed to a tunnel. The rose petals blurred. The morning sun disappeared. All I could see was that shoe, lying discarded in the grass, and the terrible knowledge growing in my chest.
I reached the arch and stopped.
She was there. My baby. My Haven.
She lay beneath the roses, her small body crumpled, her face turned away from me. Blood—so much blood—soaked into the earth around her. The roses above her were splattered with it, their petals stained crimson.
I fell to my knees beside her.
Time stopped. The world disappeared. There was only this—this moment, this horror, this impossible reality that my mind couldn't process.
I touched her face. Cold. So cold.
I gathered her into my arms, cradling her against my chest, and rocked back and forth. My throat closed. No sound came out. I tried to scream, tried to wail, tried to make any noise at all, but my voice was gone.
I sat there, holding my daughter's broken body, as the morning light turned the blood darker and the rose petals fell around us like funeral flowers.
I don't know how long I stayed like that. Minutes. Hours. The sun climbed higher. The voices in the east garden faded. Footsteps approached from the direction of the pack house.
Connor's scent hit me before I saw him.
He appeared at the edge of the garden, his face pale, his eyes wide. He saw us—saw me holding Haven's body—and the sound that came from his throat was something I'd never heard before.
He fell to his knees beside us, reached for Haven, but I turned away. I wouldn't let him touch her. I wouldn't let him near her.
'Claire...' His voice broke. 'Oh God, Claire, I'm so sorry—'
I looked at him. Really looked at him. And in that moment, I saw everything clearly.
This was what happened when you put another woman's needs above your mate's. This was what happened when you chose control over love. This was what happened when you left your daughter unprotected.
I opened my mouth. I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to tear him apart. I wanted to make him feel even a fraction of the agony that was ripping me to pieces.
But no sound came out.
I was mute. Silent. Broken.
And Connor was crying, begging, trying to pull me away from our daughter's body, but I wouldn't move. I would stay here, in this garden, holding Haven, until the world ended.
Because without her, it already had.
The dungeons smelled like wet stone and fear.
I descended the stairs slowly, my hand trailing along the cold wall for balance. My body felt hollow—emptied out, scraped clean, like someone had reached inside and removed everything that made me human. I hadn't eaten in three days. Hadn't slept. Hadn't spoken.
I didn't need to.
The rogues were chained in the lowest cells, guarded by two warriors who straightened when they saw me. Their faces shifted—pity, discomfort, the particular expression people wore when they didn't know what to say to a mother whose child had been murdered.
I walked past them without acknowledgment.
The first rogue was slumped against the wall, his wrists raw from the iron shackles. He looked up when I approached, his eyes widening slightly. I wondered what he saw. A ghost, probably. That's what I felt like.
I stood outside his cell and breathed.
My wolf was gone, but my sense of smell had never faded—one of the few mercies of my condition, though I'd never thought of it as mercy until now. I could still detect the layers of scent that clung to a person: sweat, blood, the particular musk of fear.
And something else.
Floral. Delicate. Expensive.
Jessica's scent.
It was embedded in his clothing, woven into the fabric of his shirt like perfume deliberately applied. Not just a passing contact—this was deep, sustained, the kind of scent transfer that came from close proximity over time.
I moved to the second cell. The third. Each rogue carried the same signature.
Jessica had been with them. Recently. Deliberately.
I pressed my thumb against my wrist and turned away.
The warriors watched me climb the stairs. Neither asked what I'd found. Maybe they already knew.
---
Connor's office door was open.
I walked in without knocking, the bloodied scrap of rogue clothing clutched in my fist. He was at his desk, bent over patrol reports, two fingers pressed to the bridge of his nose.
He looked up when I entered. His face was haggard, eyes red-rimmed, the kind of exhaustion that came from grief he didn't know how to process.
I didn't care.
I crossed the room in three strides and slammed the fabric onto his desk. It landed with a dull thud, spattering dried blood across his papers.
He stared at it. Then at me.
'Claire—'
I shook my head. No words. I wouldn't waste them.
He picked up the fabric, brought it to his nose. I watched his expression shift—recognition, understanding, then something darker. Calculation.
'This doesn't prove—'
I turned and walked out.
Behind me, I heard him stand, heard the scrape of his chair, but I didn't stop. There was nothing he could say that would change what I knew.
Jessica had orchestrated my daughter's murder.
And Connor was going to bury it.
---
The public execution happened at dawn.
I watched from my window as the pack gathered in the courtyard. The rogues were dragged out in chains, forced to their knees before the assembled warriors. Connor stood at the center, his alpha aura radiating command.
His voice carried up to my room, cold and final.
'These rogues acted alone. They infiltrated our territory during a security lapse and murdered the daughter of our Luna. For this crime, the sentence is death.'
No mention of Jessica. No investigation. No justice.
Just a quick, clean execution that tied up loose ends.
I pressed my forehead against the glass and closed my eyes.
---
Connor came to my room that night.
I was sitting in the dark, staring at nothing, when I heard the door open. His footsteps were hesitant—unusual for an alpha who commanded with such certainty everywhere else.
He sat on the edge of the bed. Didn't touch me. Didn't turn on the light.
'I need to tell you something,' he said quietly.
I didn't respond.
'Jessica's family... they have connections. Ancient ones. They brokered a deal with Aldric Thorne.' He paused, and I heard him swallow. 'A Lycan heart transplant. It's the only thing that can save you.'
I turned my head slightly. Looked at him in the darkness.
'The price was silence,' he continued. 'They would only provide the transplant if I buried Jessica's involvement. If I let her walk free.'
Silence stretched between us.
'I chose you, Claire. I chose to save your life.'
He said it like it was a gift. Like I should be grateful.
I looked away.
'I know you hate me,' he whispered. 'I know this is unforgivable. But I couldn't let you die too.'
He stood, crossed to the door, paused with his hand on the frame.
'The medicine arrives tomorrow. Please, Claire. Please take it.'
The door closed.
I sat in the darkness and ran my thumb along my wrist.
He had traded Haven's justice for my survival.
He had made the choice without asking me.
And he expected me to live with it.
---
The next morning, Connor appeared with something worse than medicine.
He knocked softly, then entered carrying a small, trembling figure. A pup—maybe five years old, with dark curls the exact shade Haven's had been.
The child clutched a stuffed wolf, her eyes wide and frightened.
Connor set her down gently near my bed.
'This is Lily,' he said quietly. 'She's an orphan from the border skirmishes. I thought... I thought maybe...'
He couldn't finish the sentence.
I stared at the child. At her hair. At the wolf toy she held.
He thought he could replace Haven.
He thought a substitute daughter would heal the wound.
Something inside me—something I hadn't known was still intact—shattered completely.
I looked at Connor. Really looked at him. And I made my decision.
'Give me the medicine,' I said.
My voice was hoarse from disuse, barely above a whisper, but he heard it.
Relief flooded his face. 'Claire—'
'Give. Me. The medicine.'
He pulled the small vial from his pocket, hands shaking as he poured a pill into his palm. I took it, placed it on my tongue, and swallowed.
He watched, desperate and hopeful.
I turned away, pressed my face into the pillow, and felt the pill dissolve against the fabric of the napkin I'd hidden there.
Behind me, Connor exhaled in relief.
I closed my eyes and began to plan.