Dr. Chen's eyes darted between Beau and me, her brow furrowing as she sensed the tension crackling through the laboratory. "Ms. Gardner, given the... unexpected circumstances, we can reschedule your participation if you'd prefer."
I straightened my spine, refusing to let five years of careful reconstruction crumble in an instant. "No need, Doctor. I'm here for the study."
The words came out steadier than I felt. Inside, my chest was being crushed by an invisible vise—the same one that had appeared the moment I saw Beau's face through that glass wall.
"Very well." Dr. Chen nodded, but concern lingered in her eyes. "We'll proceed with the pre-trial interview."
A technician adjusted the microphone near my chair as Dr. Chen stepped away. The intercom system crackled to life, and Beau's voice filled the room—that same deep timbre that had once whispered promises against my skin.
"Ms. Gardner," he began, his tone clipped and professional. "For the record, please state your primary motivation for participating in this trial."
I could feel him watching me through the glass, could almost see the way his jaw would be set, the calculated distance he'd put between us. Five years ago, he'd looked at me with disgust when he'd handed me those divorce papers. Now it was something worse—cold indifference.
"Financial compensation," I replied, my voice clipped. No point in hiding it. He'd already reduced our relationship to a transaction; I'd meet him on his terms.
"Could you elaborate on your financial needs?" His voice carried a note of challenge.
I gripped the armrests of the chair. "Medical expenses for a family member."
"Terminal?" The question was blunt, invasive.
"Yes." One word, final as a door slamming shut.
A pause stretched between us, heavy with unspoken history. Then: "I see. And you're comfortable with the... invasive nature of this procedure?"
"Completely." Liar. But I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing how much this unsettled me.
"Proceed, then," he said to someone off-mic, and the intercom went silent.
---
"Calibration will take approximately fifteen minutes," the technician announced, adjusting something on my helmet. "I'll be back to check your readings."
The moment the door closed behind him, the click of heels against tile announced her arrival. Nova Adams sauntered into the prep room, her red dress a slash of color against the sterile white walls.
"Well, well," she purred, circling me like a predator. "Dahlia Gardner. I heard they were using a real person for this demo, but I had no idea they'd scraped the bottom of the barrel."
I kept my eyes forward, focusing on the blinking lights of the equipment. "I'm here for the science, not the spectacle."
"Are you?" Nova stopped directly in front of me, her designer heels inches from my worn flats. Her gaze traveled slowly up my body, taking in every detail of my bargain-store dress and carefully concealed desperation. "Some people never learn to move on."
"Is there something you needed, Ms. Adams?" I asked, my voice cool.
"Just checking on our investment." She smiled, all teeth. "Beau was so surprised to see you here. Almost like you planned it."
"Trust me," I said, finally meeting her eyes, "the last place I want to be is anywhere near either of you."
"Liar." She leaned closer. "You're still obsessed. Still can't let go."
I laughed then, a short, sharp sound that made her step back. "I'm selling my memories to save my father's life. That's the difference between us, Nova. You sell your soul for status. I'm trying to save something real."
Her face flushed, but before she could respond, the door swung open and Dr. Chen entered.
"Ms. Adams, this is a restricted area," she said firmly.
Nova straightened, her mask slipping back into place. "Just being supportive of our investment." She glanced at me one last time. "Good luck, Dahlia. Sounds like you need it."
---
The chair reclined further as technicians secured the final sensors to my temples. Through the glass above, I could see the observation deck filling with investors, their faces eager for the demonstration.
"We're ready to begin," Dr. Chen announced, her voice tense with anticipation.
The machine hummed to life around me, a low vibration that seemed to resonate with my bones. Lights flashed in sequence along the helmet's edge as the neural link established itself.
"Initializing neural mapping protocol," a computerized voice intoned.
The screen above flickered, then stabilized into a coherent image—not of the sterile lab or my face, but of my father's garden. The roses he'd planted last spring bloomed in vibrant color, their petals dewy in the morning light. Next came the sharp smell of hospital antiseptic, so real I could taste it.
"Remarkable clarity," someone murmured from above.
I closed my eyes, trying to steady my breathing as more fragments appeared—Dad's hand holding mine at the hospice, the stack of bills on my kitchen table, the endless nights of worry and calculation.
Then, like a door opening in my mind, came a memory I hadn't thought of in years: Beau's face on our wedding day, young and hopeful and utterly in love with me.
My eyes flew open as the screen above changed, displaying that very moment for everyone to see.
The machine hummed around me, its algorithms searching through the labyrinth of my mind. I felt a strange tugging sensation as it latched onto something deep—a memory I'd buried beneath years of careful reconstruction.
"Strong emotional anchor detected," the computerized voice announced. "Initializing playback."
The screen above flickered, then stabilized into a vivid recreation of my freshman dorm at Stanford. The walls were covered in cheap posters, laundry hung from makeshift drying lines, and the air smelled of coffee and ambition.
"Beau?" My younger voice called out, tentative and concerned.
There he was—Beau Foster at twenty-two, his face haggard with exhaustion, eyes red-rimmed from lack of sleep. He sat cross-legged on the floor, surrounded by empty energy drink cans and crumpled papers.
"I can't do it," he whispered, his voice breaking as he stared at his laptop screen. "The code won't compile. I've been at it for thirty-six hours straight."
I watched my younger self cross the room, setting down a paper bag of food. "You need to eat something."
"I can't eat." He ran his fingers through his hair—that nervous habit I'd once found endearing. "If I can't fix this bug, we lose our chance at the accelerator program. Everything we've worked for..."
Then I saw it—the moment I'd forgotten in all the bitterness that came later. My younger self kneeling beside him, taking his face in my hands.
"Listen to me," she said firmly. "You are brilliant. This code will work. You will fix it."
"I don't know if I can," he whispered.
"You can," she insisted. "And I'll be right here until you do."
The screen showed us sitting together through the night, my hand on his shoulder as he worked, the occasional brush of his fingers against mine when he reached for coffee. When dawn broke, his face lit up with triumph as the code finally compiled.
"This is why I love you," he said, pulling me into his arms. "You believe in me when I can't believe in myself."
In the observation deck, Beau's face had gone completely white. His knuckles gripped the railing as he stared at the screen, watching a truth he'd never allowed himself to see.
---
"Next significant emotional anchor," the machine announced as the image shifted.
Now we were in a cramped apartment, boxes everywhere as I sorted through my grandmother's jewelry box. The date stamp in the corner showed it was three years later.
I watched myself select a delicate diamond bracelet and a pair of pearl earrings, wrapping them carefully in tissue paper.
"What are you doing?" My voice asked from behind the camera.
"Something I should have done months ago," my past self replied, zipping the small pouch closed.
The scene shifted to a pawn shop, the bell above the door jingling as I entered. The owner, a middle-aged man with kind eyes, examined the jewelry carefully.
"These are quality pieces," he said. "Family heirlooms?"
I nodded, unable to speak.
"Three thousand," he offered.
"Four," I countered, my voice steady despite the ache in my chest.
"Three thousand five hundred," he compromised.
I took the money without argument, tucking the cash into an envelope.
"It's for Beau's server costs," my voice explained to someone off-screen. "Don't tell him."
The observation deck fell silent. Beau's jaw dropped slightly, his eyes wide with shock. Beside him, Nova shifted uncomfortably.
"I thought..." he began, his voice barely audible through the intercom.
"You thought what?" Dr. Chen asked.
"I thought it was an angel investor," he finished, his voice hollow. "I never knew..."
---
"Third emotional anchor identified," the machine announced.
The screen now showed the sleek office space of Beau's fledgling company. I watched my past self carrying a bag of homemade lunches—Beau's favorite sandwiches and the cookies I'd stayed up late baking.
As I approached his office door, I heard laughter inside. Pushing it open, I froze at the sight before me.
Nova Adams—younger but just as beautiful—stood pressed against Beau's desk, her hand resting intimately on his chest as she leaned forward.
"Oh!" she exclaimed with exaggerated surprise. "I'm so sorry about your coffee!"
A dark stain spread across Beau's white shirt where she'd "accidentally" spilled her drink.
"Let me help you with that," she purred, dabbing at his chest with a tissue, her fingers lingering longer than necessary.
Something cold slithered down my spine as I watched—the same uneasy feeling I'd experienced in that moment five years ago. But on screen, I saw what I'd missed then: the calculated gleam in Nova's eyes as she glanced toward the door, knowing I was watching.
"Is that your wife?" she asked Beau, her voice dripping with false concern.
"It's just jealousy," Beau replied dismissively when I tried to explain my discomfort later. "You're being paranoid, Dahlia."
But the memory captured what I'd felt in that moment—the first hairline crack in our foundation.
In the observation deck, Beau's expression shifted from shock to something darker as he watched Nova's performance unfold on screen. His eyes narrowed slightly, a muscle twitching in his jaw.
Beside him, Nova's perfectly manicured nails dug into her palms.
The machine's hum intensified around me, its probes digging deeper into the recesses of my mind. I felt a sharp tug as it latched onto something I'd buried beneath years of careful reconstruction.
"Strong emotional signature detected," the computerized voice announced. "Playback initializing."
The screen above flickered, then stabilized into a vivid recreation of our apartment five years ago. I watched my younger self pacing nervously by the window, phone clutched in my hand.
"Come on," I whispered to myself, checking the time again. "Answer, Dad."
The call went straight to voicemail. My father's condition had worsened suddenly, and the hospital needed decisions I couldn't make alone.
With trembling fingers, I typed out a text message: "Beau, I need you. My dad's sick. Please come home."
I hit send and watched the message status change to "Delivered." Then I paced some more, waiting for the dots that would indicate he was typing a response.
Nothing came.
Hours later, I watched myself check Beau's phone while he slept beside me. The memory captured my hesitation, my internal struggle between trust and suspicion.
"Just one look," my past self whispered. "Just to make sure he saw it."
I scrolled through his messages, finding our conversation thread. My heart stopped when I saw it—my desperate plea for help, marked with a small trashcan icon.
"Deleted."
The observation deck fell silent. I could feel Beau's eyes on me through the glass, but I couldn't look up. The memory was too raw, too real.
"Someone deleted it," Dr. Chen murmured, her voice carrying through the intercom. "But it wasn't Ms. Gardner."
I heard a sharp intake of breath from above. Nova's heels clicked rapidly across the floor.
"That's—that's impossible," she stammered. "The system must be malfunctioning."
"It's not," Dr. Chen replied coolly. "The neural mapping is displaying memories with 99.8% accuracy."
---
"Next emotional anchor identified," the machine announced as the image shifted.
Now I was in our bedroom again, this time searching through Beau's suit jacket before sending it to the dry cleaner. My fingers brushed against something stiff in the inner pocket.
I pulled out a hotel receipt from the Grand Hyatt—a place we'd never stayed together.
"Strange," my past self muttered, examining it closer.
The date jumped out at me—last Tuesday, when Beau had texted that he'd be pulling an all-nighter at the office.
"Working late again," he'd written. "Don't wait up."
The memory zoomed in on the receipt, highlighting a detail I'd noticed then but tried to ignore: "Room for two."
I watched myself stand frozen, the receipt trembling in my hand. The silence in the observation deck was deafening.
"You suspected," Beau's voice cracked through the intercom.
"I didn't want to know," I replied softly, still unable to meet his eyes through the glass.
The memory continued, showing me carefully folding the receipt and returning it to his pocket. I didn't confront him. I couldn't bear to lose him, even though I was already losing him.
---
"Final significant emotional anchor," the machine announced.
The screen now displayed our dining room, where we'd once hosted dinner parties for Beau's investors. This time, we were alone, plates pushed aside as we argued.
"How could you embarrass me like that?" Beau shouted, his face flushed with anger.
"What are you talking about?" My voice was small, confused.
"Flirting with the waiter right in front of me!" He slammed his hand on the table. "Everyone saw it!"
"I didn't—" I began, but he cut me off.
"You've always been jealous of Nova," he accused. "Always trying to undermine what we have."
The memory shifted perspective, showing Beau's back as he continued his tirade. Over his shoulder, in the doorway to our kitchen, stood Nova Adams.
She wore a subtle, triumphant smirk that made my blood run cold. As Beau turned to pour himself another drink, she caught my eye and raised her glass in a mock toast.
The observation deck erupted in shocked murmurs. Beau's face had gone ashen, his eyes wide with dawning horror.
"She was there?" he whispered. "All this time..."
I finally looked up at him through the glass, meeting his gaze for the first time since the demonstration began.
"You never saw her," I said quietly. "Not once."
The machine hummed again, preparing to delve deeper into my memories. But I didn't need to see more—the truth was already laid bare between us, raw and undeniable.
Nova's heels clicked frantically across the observation deck as she backed toward the exit.
"This is ridiculous," she hissed. "These memories are clearly distorted—"
"Are they?" I asked, my voice steady despite the storm inside me. "Or did you think no one would ever know?"
Beau turned slowly toward Nova, his expression shifting from shock to something darker, more dangerous.
"What have you done?" he asked her, his voice barely audible through the intercom.
The machine beeped again, ready to continue its relentless excavation of my past. But the truth had already begun to unravel everything Nova had built.